Shangying

PuttIng aN end To it

2005-06-12T22:01:00.000-07:00

well..tis gonna be e final entry of my blog..sorry guys.i didnt update..but i am doing fine these days.except todae and ytd..lolx..todae is my cl birthday..so happy birthday to myself..lolx.why i say is e final entry..you don have to know.i will still be aliive.don worry.i won attempt sucide..aniwae.if dere is a need to know what is happening.jus msg mi.i am not deleting tis blog.as i wan keep as memories..hmm..okie..bye

HApPY BIRTHDAY SHANGYING

2005-05-29T23:00:00.000-07:00

yeah..is my 15th birthday..happy birthday to me..lolx...elaborate more later..

hmm..tis wk was full of ndp practise..it sucks!!tiring u noe..imagine u bend up and down..not once but mani times..haiz..i haf np duty at sci centre on thur and fri..

as for wed..i got my all my paper..emaths-84/100..amaths-52/70..english-35/50..cl-68/100..geo-22/25..ss-27/36..physics-68/100..chem-66/100..which mean i didnt do well..hmm..but i improved..tt was a great ting..cls position..27/40..i reali make an improvement..therefore nth much to regret..except for chem la.becoz so much effort was put in..yet liddat..but nvm..tis holidae i gonna revise chem..physics and amaths..i did well for my amaths as compared to CA1..

thurs we had ndp training at kranji camp..tt mr tan lh ar..kip lisiao mi de..lolx..but ndp sucks..we had KFC for lunch..but i didnt eat much..np duty at sci centre..over dere we got lunch and teabreak..interesting things tt happen was tt 4girls frm new town pri approach me asking if i noe how to go their sch..of coz i dont..wondering why dey pop mi wif tis qn..dey told mi they were seperated frm their teachers after e show..but den e teacher appeared out of nowhere..e 4girls kena scolding..dey were beri cute..pri1 if i am not wrong..tt day lehz..e whole bunch ar..kip lisiao mi..especially tt zihao and weiqiang..

fri we had ndp training in sch..tis time i was slacking..tired le..np duty was tiring..tis time nobody was missing..but i beri boliao ar..walked around my post lyk an idiot..den lehz..in e bus was fun..sjab and np dere suan lai suan qu..den np guys sang e cck de gu niang kns..lolx..we haf lots of fun in e bus..den after went lot wif azizah..went walking around aimlessly..saw ck..den hor.she ran up e stairs..security guard came and scolded her..poor ting..she ran away jus becoz she don wanna let mi see wad she bought for mi..cute rite..she bought mi a sling bag frm ice lemon tee..

sat..e fun part..fifi..mela..ck..mic..xj..jy..zh..
grace..janice..pamela went sentosa to celebrate my bdAY..a day earlier..so mani mani ppl contributed to e present(mostly frm 3/10 and 2/5'04)..i got stars..3pairs of socks.1 hp pouch..1 gift box..1 necklace wif ring..1 lipstick..a pair of starry earrings..and a pencil case which mela sewed hearts on it..one name tag bearing e name "sexy shangying"..and one perlini's silver de bracelet...and money..lolx..thanks to all my frenz who rmb and contirubte to e gifts.i lyk it..and xianjun for giving $35 to buy cake..which ended up $15 for mela and fifi go pasta mania makan..den e other money i asked xianjun to buy mi ou de yang new album instead..

at sentosa lehz..was fun..threw into e water by xianjun..he pushed mi down..den lehz when i was lying on e mat..a volleyball hit my face..den e guy nv apologise lehz..second time dey hit my head..den dey move to another place to play lo..toilet was crowded..we waited beri long be4 we get to bathe..sun burn on my face and shoulders..after tt i went lot to meet parents lo..went shopped le jiu went home..den i fell aslp be4 12..

sun lehz...MY BIRTHDAY..tis bday beri beri special..becoz is meaningful..i did CIP in e morning..we were helping out at e game stalls..my grp was in charge of the 'fighting'..i mean ppl go up and fight..not us..jovan and mi went up e 'mattress' and helped e ppl wear their helmets and take their weapons..i stood one whole morning..sian ar..den fifi..ngli..grace..leonard sang birthday song to me..i soo touched..hehez..thank you wor..although i didnt enjoy myself..but glad tt mani rmb my bday..hehez..thanks..thanks..i beri touched ar..premy,francis peh,natalie,weiting,yongrong,ruiping,sandy,azizah,aisyah,chaikee,zihao,jovan,fitrina,melanie,weijie,leonard,guoqing and mani mani other frenz(sry if i didnt mention u name)..thank you soo much for making my bday a special and memorable one..really thanks..even though is not e birthday i wish to haf..but i appreciate all ur efforts in trying to cheer mi up and make mi laugh..

i celebrated wif my family..papa bought 2 large pizza and use it as a bday cake..lighter as candles..lolx..cute hor..and i celebrate at my grandma hse..hehez..all my relatives enjoyed themselves and laughter filled e air..francis knew i wasnt quite happy..thnx for listening to mi..i feel so much better..

hmmm..now don wanna tok about my bday le..i realised in tis world finally got one song that could make mi cry..fifi..mela shld noe..Anyone of us..tt song was filled wif memories..everytime i hear it..tears start flowing..but todae in KFC it didnt..becoz my bday ma..i alreadi told myself tt i cannot cry on my bday de..lolx..nth much to sae le..last but not least..HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF..lolx..

knn..

2005-05-21T12:13:00.000-07:00

typing for e second time..damn damn damn..finished typing e..den accidentally closed down e window..haiz..

shall start frm 9may..e first time i wrote in diary..lolx..realised dere are mani tings tt i cant expreseed in my blog..hmm..on 9may got Trigonometry test..one qn donno how to do..in e end i get 27/35 for e paper..got back all my el de tingy..i laughed e moment i get it..i made a stupid mistake..tis is wad i wrote.."she tied her hair with a mole on the left side of her face"..so i was saying she tied her hair usinng a mole..get e joke??i showed fifi..den she laughed so loudly..filzah asked wad so funny..den i told her lorz..she tapped my shoulder saying i noe how to laugh over my own mistake..lolx..went lot to makan..den went to mac and did my hmwk..i asked ngli bout quadratic..in e end i confused her..lolx..saw wt and yr..both same as be4 ba..except tt yr is fatter..wahaha..

10may--on 9 may i tok to ssy..talked to him can vomit blodd de lehz..he hor..aiyohh..donno wad to sae man..lolx..tt ay nth much happen..coz others are personal feelings..

13may--Jonathan teo's birthday..happy birthday..beautiful illusions de last episode..i watched till cried..den saw mama cried..coz she quarrelled wif my dad..seeing her crid i heartbroken..coz papa la..sae wan he wanna quit his job..den dey quarrelled over tis..i told myself i goona get 4A tis mid yr..working beri hard lehz...muz jia you..

14may--went lot one makan..bought new pens..i studied physics and geo till 4am..while watching wrestling..beri funni ar..keep having sensored sound..lolx..i watched to keep mi awake la..den e gals ar..piched here and dere de..erxin..

15may--Grandma's birthday..happy birthday..my neice beri cute ar..i jus found her cute..lolx..she reali beri cute~~lolx..tml chem mid yr..i nv studied much..as i was lazing around..and playing..

16may--chem paper was fine..e moles qns not too difficult..hope i will do wel..

17may--tis day i was sad..by wad e annoymus sae..sort of hurt..becoz it dosent mean tt my family is not well to do i muz eat up e money kae..and for real wad..haf e evidence be4 accusing ppl..i cried thru e nite..not becoz of tis issue oni la...i tink too much..sec1 tt time..1 fren called and insulted mi str off..although i forget le..but it did left a scar in my heart..den come sec3..beggining of year..sae bout my figure.so wad tt i don haf e perfect figure..big deal mehz..tt one still nvm..using tt to suan mi..saying tt tt is e reason y yr don lyk mi..u noe how it impact mi..haiz..forget it..aniwae thnx to those who stand by mi...fifi..mela..grace..ngli..rong and joel..

18may--emaths paper..not too bad..went KFC after tt..e stupid perfect10..go play e anione of us..make mi wanna cry..lucki i oni eyes watery..mela calmed mi down..sae i shld not alwaes tink of e past..but tt one different la..tt was e song we sang last POP..reali memorable..e beautiful card~~lolx..wif yr tink..so i cannot controlled ma..den also e 1st time i noe yr lehz..funni enuf lo..in np for so mani yrs..it was then tt i noe him..lolx..

20may..lazy write bout 19may..nth much..phyisc p1 and el p2.. den 20may last paper..amaths..paper tt known to kill many..lolx..after tt paper was 10.45..went ng li hse..tt annoy tag again..pls ar annoymous..don be so childish and spread tis rumour..of coz u can spread..is ur mouth..but can u produce 1 version jiu hao..ppl tell mi got mani versions lehz..u liddat hor..ur company sure bankurpt ar..lolx..i nv hum k..frenz wan hepled mi cannot mehz..u not happy also can get ur frenz..sae i organise not good..u are not saying mi oni..becoz..natalie planned it wif mi..but i noe e main ting u wanna sae is accusing mi..lyk wad mela sae..if don nid evidence..den tis world don nid lawyer..don nid police..don nid judges le..eating money is some sort of corruption..why not u call e police..mayb they may decide to lock mi up without ani evidence..den i amy consider sueing u liao..saying tt u accuse mi..u may sae u nvr..but since don nid evidence..den i can die die sae u accuse mi ma..lolx..study some law la..u sae i am not good at organising..den how can i be good at setting tings up so tt i will be innocent..ur sentence ar..got contrast de lehz..ur ss fail lyk hell ar?lolx..nid ppl tutor u or not?enuf of ur nonsence la..now i cont..went seoul at nite..funni lorz..i told ngli to take e meat for mela and fifi too..so she took hell lots..den cant finish..i reali not feeling well..cannot eat animore..den dey sae wastage i pay..den ngli suggest tt i use plastic bad..and i reali did..i put e leftover de inside..den throw away..1st time i eat till so pathtic..lolx..den went arcade..i beri sian ar..went home at 11..

21may--got flag day..i met grace 1st..went makan..den meet e rest..stupid de lo..dey got placces for us to choose de..no freedom..den hor..we choose toa payoh block 460-470..but went there..ppl sae no such block..den we went 160-170..den we scared till run away..e lift there beri scary..light dim dim de..lyk haunted..den we went e interchange..pathtic lo..e 1st flag day tt i do till so pathetic..not even 1/4 full...den i walked til soo tired..inside mrt we laughed lyk siao..ky la..so pervetic..sae bout yh..coz e name tag poked his nipple..lolx..den i forget bring key..cannot go home..went chinatown find mama..now reached le..i tripped and fall..so ps..i quickly stand up and walked away..lolx..den went lot..shopped le jiu went home..

==StReSsed==

2005-05-07T23:51:00.000-07:00

nt really in e mood to blog..tis wk was okie..on tues we haf lots of fun..i learnt many things..i meant in studies..smth secretive..grins..btw..fifi got a new nick..fruit tree..lolx..hmm..as for wed lehz..went lot makan followed by popular..jiu went home..as there is cl exams on thurs..

as forr thurs..e cl exams didnt went well for mi..i threw 6marks into e drain..somehow my eyes were stamped..e qns state tt find examples frm e passage..i missed e words frm e passage..therefore acting as if soo pro..i went gave own example..e stupidest ting a human can do..tt qn was a give away..too bad..not fated wif it..had amaths remedial tt day..till 4.30..reali a long day for us..it rained heavily..but no choice..got to walk in e rain..it was fun..we went mac to haf our lunch and breakfast..as we didnt eat e whole day..starving ourselves..ky dey all oso at mac..kok wei called..sae hongwei missed fifi..so i repeated tt sentence loudly..haha..den kok wei..zihao..zamman..hongwei..junyi came mac to look for us..we talk bout 2/5..e action tt i alwaes do..'I am Innocent!!!'..we laughed our heads off..den kok wei was lyk debating wif fifi..so funni..i kept teasing fifi and hongwei..den ng li laughed..den kok wei sae donno y soo mani ppl lyk mi..so i sae i too popular ma~~..so fifi said i bra hao bao..BHB in another words..lolx..haha..so obviously junyi suan mi..even zihao oso..haha..

fri was NPCC day..woke up early..sian1/2..e parade didnt went well..2 sec2 collapsed..1 sec1 dehydrate..one of e sec2 was seriously injured..he fainted and hit e kerb..leaving his chin bleeding profusely..i didnt noe how he is le..reali a short parade..but alreadi 3 bth le..denn e sec1 gals beri funni..den were moving forward and backward..den i stared at em..ncos asked em don move..so cute..after sch went lot..after went home slp...tired ma..and i finished my hmk..

as for todae..went bugis..actually go pai pai de..but i ended up helping out at my yi ma de stall..i wrapped e dumplings and wanton...hmm..sense of achievement..lolx..1st time lehz..and i did it well.good good.haha..went bugis junction shopped..bought a bag for mama for tml mothers' day..ate alot..but i am still hungry..

tis month didnt seem to be a good one..as i witnessed two of my frenz broke up wif deir stead..my msg to em..cheer up kaes..one of em i noe wad happen..e other didnt wanna tell mi much..mayb tt guy did smth terrible..muz hunt him down..lolx..but reali la..muz stay happy..our life is short..dere will be mani tings we wish we could do and could get..but mani times we are not given wad we want..most impt is u once own it and not tt u forever own it..don cry animore..muz take care of u guys de eyes worz..take care frenz..and to a few of em who cannot forget deir love ones..since cant forget why force urself..jus cont loving em..liddat mayb u will feel better ar..do smth u lyk and not smth u hate..u will slowly forget de..forcing urself will oni getting u to fall deeper..

and my previous entry..i found is beri lame..and bit offensive ba..at tt point of tt i was out of mind..so i would lyk to apologise..i got to make tis month e best of e whole yr..lolx..i muz do well in my exams..especially maths and physics..i don wan let mr tan lh and mrs philips down..y nv mention ms tan ls as i am not tt familiar wif her as yet..so..happy mothers' day to all mama!!

!!!TIReD!!!

2005-05-02T00:15:00.000-07:00

i am feeling extremely tired rite now..hmm..wad shld i sae..todae i actually woke up at 9..it is reali rare..cause wkends i am sure to slp till 12 plus..went my ah yi's hse..be4 tt went lot..i about 3 den eat my lunch..hungry..ah yi cooked de nasi lemak delicious...nice nice..den i beri sian.jiu msg francis peh tok tok lorz..haha..but his fone got prob...den he called mi..chat for quite awhile..stupid sis..kept disturbing mi lehz..bth her man..whenever i tok on fone..she will ask..rong ar?piss wif her..den she guo fen lehz..snatched my fone away..stupid..francis de fone can receive msg..but he cannot send..so if u guys contact him and he didnt reply..don blame him..it wasnt on purpose..further more he is buzy wif jc life..haha

hmm..i change my blogskin le..nice???jus now i read thru my past entries..den i found out tt i lyk him for 8months le..though e ending was a disaster for mi..but i wanna thanks him for e memories he gave mi months ago..although i am not statisfied..bleahs**..but i noe tt is e maximum le..actually can sae i haven wake up frm my dreams..cause there are times when i tink of me and him..i noe is impossible..so tts y is a dream..lolx..wt..i noe u do read myblog de..pls don not get upset by wad is written here k..is wad i feel..if i not put it down here..i donno where shld i put it..but i don wish tings tt i sae make u feel uncomfortable or wad so ever..alamak..i am crazy again..better stop be4 i get too emotional..heez..

well..i completed my ss notes..chemistry left wif chap 5,6,7,8..tml doing cl revision..got to rearrange my timetable..sian1/2..exams is jus in front of mi...so i got to hang on and fight till e end..i wont admit defeat de..haha..kk la..byes

+--Nice DinNer--+

2005-05-01T00:20:00.000-07:00

hmm..a long time since i last update..shall talk bout wad happen tis wk..from mon to fri..i actually got mani things to sae..but i forgot..haha..but one ting for sure is tt i enjoyed myself during ndp..becoz i am having so much fun playing around..lolx..exams is just round e corner..jus 5more days and it will be MT paper..mani things to study..e paper format is so difficult..haiz..my cl is getting worst as time goes by..how lehz..beri beri worried..

let mi go into details bout todae ba..todae was my cousin wedding..not a close cousin of mine..can sae see him once in a blue moon ba..nvr attend tea ceremony..oni e dinner..hmm..waited for my aunts..dey damn slow ar..haha...lyk snails liddat..8 den dey reached..went into e restuarant together..i was suprised!!becoz oni a few tables lehz..last time my close close de biao jie de weddings got 50 over table..now tis cousin oni got 20 plus..haha..e bride beri chio..i lyk e gown..reali nice..almost half e time i chasing my neice..she ran around...haha..den if i angry she sayang mi..cute eh..when yum seng(donno spell correctly or not) tt time..papa de voice loudest..ppl all turned look over at our table..i laughed till peng..den when bride and groom indiviually come and yum seng..papa got e longest breath...cousin pei fu him sia..lolx...papa drank so much till he drunk..start toking rubbish..den mama not happy lo..i am used to it la..coz whenever got dinner..my papa will get drunk..mama will nag..and dey will quarrel..xi guan jiu hao..e food were delicious..especially shark fin..nice lehz..e lobster salad was nice too..but i don lyk e sweet sauce pork ribs..i nv eat tt at all..cousin sae issit becoz i alreadi lyk ribs le..so don wan eat..i sae yaya..haha..sis was beri happy..as she was being praise beautifull..haha..

be4 e dinner i went buy physics guide..wah..got use lehz..coz i understand pressure le..woohoo..den bought 1 notebook..is for my chemistry de..going write notes in it..

after dinner i act wan go esplanade walk walk de..papa drunk le..so cannot..sian1/2..i am missing him terribly..it haf been such a long time..yet i haven forget him..haiz..why when i told myself i wanna gif up..dere will alwaes be memories tt hold mi back..nvm la..now i beri tired le..*yawns*..better finish my ss notes be4 i slp..bye..btw..happy labour day..and happy birthday NOVAN..

==+++exams coming+++==

2005-04-24T19:02:00.000-07:00

hmmm..let mi summarise wad happen on fri..sat and sun..on fri not much work..we were quite slacked..tan ls was not here..after tt was ndp..went to tt stupid field.mosquitoes sting mi..sian1/2..haf lots of fun wif fiqah..aiysah and ck..den mr sim, my grp AI sat down wif us and chit chat..he asked us why look so gloomy..i oso donno why..suddenly no mood..haha..den i sae i soo happy coz jus 2 more practises and will be exams..long break be4 ndp begins..den AI beri bhb..sae he noe i will miss him de..i was lyk ehh..den aiysah laughed..lolx..ndp shirt..no more s..so i nv took any..went back to cls..den together wif ngli went office put cls diary..ms skalai aske ngli and mi put e posters up..and pushed e noticeboard inside e HOD room..haha..saw tan lh..he chatted wif us..awhile oni..ngli sae she now miss tan lh even more..lolx..e whole cls oni fifi and grace lyk tan ls more..others prefer tan lh..den we went home after tt

sat lehz..we went fifi hse do ss project..went beauty world 1st..makan ma..saw jovan dey all..oso saw xavin and frenz..grace bought one tank top..blue colour one..i choose for her de..haha..at fifi hse beri fun ar..we laughed soo much..leonard was making funni sounds..we laughed out heads off..fifi's mum gave us cakes and drinks..we oso ate roti prata...haha.den bout 6 plus.we ate pizza..garlic bread and sausages..beri nice lehz..haha..ate till so full..yummy yummy..fifi de bro and sis were so cute..haha..e bro gabriel so funni..kept ask us keep quiet..we played euno..two rounds..i was e winner for both rounds..wahaha...den ngli hor..she played till pushed mi down e bed lehz.funni lorz..even zihao laughed till peng..reali bei funni..left her hse bot 6.45..waited for 67..beri long ar..mosqutioes sting again..went lot wif ngli..bought pen refills..meet parents after tt..tt went home..i slept at 10..early hor..beri tired ar..i dreamt of ten year remedial..so cute lehz..but was a dream oni la..

todae stayed at home..i ate steamboat...my baobei neice got hand foot and mouth disease..kelian..so small lehz..den mouth got ulcers..i haf it be4..so i understand how painful it is..so hope she get well soon..tml suppose tutor aiysah and ck de.but i rmb tues got tests..so i cannot liao..hmm..aiysah was disappointed..sorry ar..but told her i will help em on next sat..be4 i go for wedding dinner..haha..ok..i gtg liao..byes

hmmm..

2005-04-20T20:56:00.000-07:00

yeah..today is wed liao..in 2 wks time mid yr start..sian1/2..1stly..i didnt do well for chem test..got to retake it on mon..and after tt meeting aiysah.chaikee..anisa and shahirah..helping em wif amaths..taking tis chance to revise through.haha..

well..tis mon wad fun ar..not too bad..beri slacked..even remedials we oso play play..haha..went lot with ng li..fifi..mela and chongying..den meet hongjie..we went mac to study and did our hmk..basically ngli fifi and mi were crazy..we joked so much..fifi cant help but to continue laughing..den hongjie treat mi eat icecream..funni ar..the chocolate dropped..den i used hand catch it..den i eat till lyk young gal gal liddat..so stupid..so dey kept laughing..den lyk wad fifi said in her blog..hongjie found m&n at e bottem of the cone..so i opened mouth big eat e whole of the icecream..left e cone..lolx..at 1st dey were saying tt my mouth was small..but dey realised it was not..haha..went popular..after tt went home..wah..e maths difficult to do lehz..i spend hrs cracking my brains..den i online..use com till 11.30 den slp..act can slp at 10.30 de..becoz of somebody lorz...haha..u shld noe hu..haha

tues lehz..char png called mi..sae i owe him smth..i was lyk huh..wad e hell i owe him..so was e file..i let him checked le wad..siao siao de..assembly was fun...got e band come..nice music..mdm prema by popular demand went onto e stage..haha..wah..she pregnant le jiu lose a nice figure le lehz..i was pissed wif filzah..coz after e fri incident..wah..her attitude towards mi totally changed..i asked her to return e passport fotos as e cls wanted it..den she was lyk why muz i return..and why muz it be e next day..so i say..okie..asap..den i walked away..reali pissed lorz..wad type of form teacher is she..sucky..den at nite not much hmk..chat till 10.30 den slp..

hmm..todae supposed to be fun..but tings turned bad towards e end of e day..1stly..ndp shirt gone..a gal jus took 2 shirts away..i told teacher..she was lyk saying its my fault..who ask mi didnt take it wif mi..we were moving around doing all e movment..expect mi take e shirt mehz..i put wif ck dey all de lo..how i noe got pl wan take..somemore ask mi if i am saying tt gal is stealing or wad..i nv sae she steal..it may be by mistake..i donno..den settled e shirt tingy wif teacher..i was beri pissed lorz..went back cls take bag..kena scold by cleaner..sae i nv tink of em..dey nid go home..yet we delayed deir time..i told him i jus came back..he heck..everyting lyk my fault sia..haha..den during e practice..tan lh walked past several times..he sae beri boliao rite..i sae yalo..den i was using my hp..so he sae he wanna confiscate..but i noe he is jk..haha..and he reali is..said tt i grew thinner..so i said coz he nv teach mi ma..he smiled le walked away..mani ppl missed him lorz..we want him back..don wan tan ls..although she not tt bad afterall..but.dont lyk..lolx

issit human nature tt when u nid somebody help u will be extremelt good to him/her and ans everyting asap..and when ur problem is solve..u no longer nid him/her den u kick him/her aside..let mi tell u..tis type of feeling is terrible..i am referring to somebody..u urself shld noe hu..but i admit i oso got liddat la..haha..but is a totally different ting..if tt person u did tt to is jus a normal fren..she wont feel anyting..if its a good fren or rather a best fren..sure feel terrible de..wad more a guy/gal u lyk did tt do u..tts e most terrible thing ever k...so don to tt to mi kae..tts all i wanna say..

eh..tt paragraph meant for 1 person oni..now let mie continue..i finished editing e proposal..so amni changes lehz..sian lorz..hope char png wont sae anyting more.lolx..tm many hrs of maths..how to survive..4periods..den 3.30 to most likely 6 got maths remedial..i gonna die frm listening..haha..btw..i was sooo suay..i haf to do share a book next wk..good luck to mi..kk..i go study le..bye

--e second entry--

2005-04-16T22:53:00.000-07:00

yeah..e second one for e day..hrs after i blog..i went to juntion8..wif aunt's family..and my family lo..wah..makan till beri full..i bought a PIGGY pouch..hehez..i love pig!!gonna buy a piggy hp strap soon..piggy rocks..beri cute de k..haha..siao le..walked till beri tired ar..nv see energy lehz..todae dey having mini concert dere mahz..heard frm 933..after tt aunt went home..i slept in mrt..tired..went lot one..i went cut my hair..haha..now damn short liao..cut at e eq hse..e person dere beri skilled lehz..den went shopped while jiu go home le..now i beri hungry lehz..

todae is 16 of april..yr and wt together for 4months le..gongxi gongxi..haha.mama told mi a story..her fren de daughter tis yr sec2..recently ditched a guy..den e guy called e gal parent and cried terribly..i was stunned..although guys are e stronger type..but when facing relationship dey are actually weaker..but gals e weakest..haha..other gals i donno la..but mi..come to tis type of ting jiu weak liao..den discuss wif mama lorz..my cousin also stead in sec sch..getting married soon..majority of ppl i noe their bgr started in sec sch life and last till now..but mama sae she don agree lehz..so i asked her wad will happen if i haf got a stead be4 poly..she diam diam..jus sae better not..lolx..but i reali wan noe wad will happen lehz...wonder will she scold mi till siao..

wad else haf i got to sae..sian1/2..btw fifi..not dne i realise why u tag my blog sae sorry..haha..nvm la..don nid apologise..is jus telling u wad i feel bout e comment u make bout him..i tink e current annoymous is junyi..but not possible lehz..cause tt issue was long ago..don tell mi is mrs philips or filzah ar..lolx..siao le..heard tt next thur is muster parade..oso means tt..is pop..time flies lehz..so fast may coming le..yawns~~mid yr soon..study and study..lolx..arghhh..i am proud of my notebook..coz got ten year remdial de big name..lolx..fifi draw de..den grace sae its lame..sooo funni seh..kk la..i go find food makan..bye

DuLl SatUrdaY

2005-04-16T14:06:00.000-07:00

well..todae actually supposed to go out wif my aunt de..den papa sae see how first lorz..

last wk lehz..number of tings happen ba..as for mon..cant recall anyting liao..tues after pc we had physics remedial wif tan ls..aiyah..i cant rmb anyting..hehez..oni rmb clearly wad happen on thurs and fri..

thurs we had our amaths test after sch..supposed to be at 3.30 de..den wass told by ppl tt no remedial frm 2.30 to 3.30..even got oso 3ppl ma..den i asked em..dey sae nvm..all wan 2.30 take test..so i told mrs philip...den after test i went back cls..left smth behind..i saw filzah scoling jialaing..yu xuan and hui qun de..at 1st wan tell her wad happen..den she walked inside e cls..so i nv sae lo..i guessed she will complain to mrs philip de..and i was rite..beri rite..

fri mr philips nagged at our cls..for saying she forgetful..she thought i was e one who sae tt lehz..but was not mi at all lo..i nv tok to filzah e day be4..and i don tink 3 of em said tt too..muz be filzah tok rubbish..den we kena..aiyohh..so mrs philip kept mentioning..ur monitoress sae u guys haf no remedial..i checked wif her several times..as though all my fauult lehz..now was nobodi fault..al except filzah..who ask her nv make instruction clear..pissed..den still nvm..filzah asked mi tell e cls to bring tys on mon..but i nv..so during ndp..lectured by her lorz..wth..she sae i forgot lehz..den i explain lorz..i nv forgot at all..is jus tt i didnt haf e chance to..1st period was mt..den cant tell ma..cls not dere..after that mrs philips lesson..she started e lesson be4 e malays were back..so nv sae rite..den mrs philip walked out le..mr kok came in..den we having test...so it was recess le..i wanted to tell em during physics..but..filzah came in told e cls liao..so i don nid sae le..den she sae till lyk i was forgetfull..lectured mi le sae i not trying to sae u forgetfull..don get e wrong idea..diao lorz..our form teacher shld be e one supporting us..yet she nv..

tt paragraph is for mi fa xie de..yeah..ytd reali pissed..den oso mani tings flood my mind..ytd we took our measurement for e ndp costumes..hey guys..i am not washing board k..wahaha..e measurement prove so..haha..i am crazy liao..sian1/2..currently arguing wif mama and sister..aiyahh..update todae..byes

SaD is the word to describe my feelings now

2005-04-10T22:00:00.000-07:00

Sad is all that i can sae..azizah sure noe y..i told her.Ytd after pai pai my family went to junction8.bought new baggies..saw cyundi and ben dere..love their songs..next wk going dere wif aunt's family and mine..

as for todae..hmmm..went lot..saw cyundi again..haha..went grandma hse after tt..mum pissed off wif my uncle.coz he is trying to act dua bai.i called him..he didnt bother..such fooking i haf..i beared wif it beri long liao hor..knn.but mama sae muz show respect ma..so i nv flare up in front of him as yet.soon ba.

i was extremely disappointed.lyk wad azizah sae..cant blame him.i truly understood it..expecting him to reali rmb my bday..and not sae see if i will rmb..if a beri good fren of urs sae tt..how will u feel..u may sae he is jus kidding..but i reali don tink so..but wadeva it is..even if he rmb..all he can gif is jus a happy birthday..although tt may mean lots to me..but i am not statisfied!!i am greedy kae..haha..

errr..though my bday is still quite long ago..but then..wanna sae smth..lolx.all i wan tis coming bday are 2 tings..jus 2..first ting can oni be fufil by myself..second haf to be fulfil by him..eww..e second one will reali make my bday e most memorable.but is also e ting tt is most unlikely to happen.sooo.haf to kip dreaming den..don tink too far worz..e second one is jus a beri simple ting..nth muchie at all..not tt is unlikely to happen.but if it happen..aiyohhh..donno wad shld i sae liaoz..loss of words..

juss now was pissed wif junyi..as he was purposely showing e pic tt i said it was well taken..but oso smth i am avoiding..nnot pissed by tis oni..but some others..lyk wad azizah said..he not being sensitive..and ya..err..fifi..next time don kp saying tt he smoke kaes..he is not wad u tink he is..so..aiyahh.jus don compare him to other guys by using smoking..i noe u all concern bout mi...but fifi mama..ur daughter not tt insensible kaes..lolx.

schooling tml..gotta go..bye

BluRrrrr

2005-04-08T13:11:00.000-07:00

currently i am feeling beri beri lost..e past few days were reali fun..most relaxing of all..as no tests..except on fri..cl test..but no stress at all..

err..wed was fun..dry shoot at jurong..fun la..did my hmk after tt..ms tan and ms ng took us dere..den she scolded us la..den she sae wad sec3 bully sec2..i could feel e blood boiling in me..so i sort of talked back..becoz..tt whole prob i alreadi explain to changlong liao lorz..den settled le..now ms tan brought it up again..stupid la..after dry practise azizah..chaikee..weiqiang..ahamd..lengfei and mi went mac..beri funni..i tink tt was e oni time tt i reali laughed without inside feeling sad..how i wished it will forever be liddat lehz..den we left mac..saw ky..py..dey toking bout mi..is obvious la..but dey denied..lolx..azizah went told em tt gd lyk mi..siao man..deir mouth so big..tml whole cls sure noe de..btw..todae xueyi kena beat by cy..novan and mi..funni ar..after tt azizah..weiqiang..ahmad and mi walked to lot..raining lehz..but beri fun la..we cont to joke..after tt we went home..

as for thur..i beri happy..cause mrs philip class beri slack..den hor..physics tan lh came and relief..i sooooo happy lehz..mic and junyi alwaes ae i crazy over tan lh..but he reali a nice teacher ma..u cant denied tt..but too bad lorz..den dry practise after sch..fun la..but not as fun..den went took my new spect..frameless de..nice nice..woohoo..after ck..mic and mi went lot..tts all la..nth muchie..

fri lehz was classification shoot..diappointed la..i didnt make it to marksman..of coz i am sad..but didnt cry..managed to hold back my tears..haha..tan lh and david leong went wif us..saw wenlian sir dere..we marched till ylk shit lehz..coz we slacking ma..lolx..on e journey back i beri quiet.donno y lehz..den half way i moved in front..tok to mr tan..azizah and george..haha..mr tan beri funni lehz..i persuaded him to come teach our cls..but i failed..he said he beri stressed liao..den he explain to mi muz hao hao listen to tan ling see..coz i told him i don lyk tan ling see ma..soo he asked if i haf understood e cg tingy..ytd he taught us de..i more or less understand la..he showed mi sec4/6 de test paper..got 3 ppl gt full marks..den others not bad..but one failed..he told mi tt is his standard..den sae if ms tan starts to sway i muz go catch her..coz she is fainting..he told mi she got donno wad ilness ar..forgot liao..we chatted a lot..he said next yr he wont be teaching us too...sick of sec4 le..haha..can understand la..den he asked mi bout yingjie and grace..funni lehz..soo i told him bout their suitors lo..he kept calling mi chang ying..den mr leong spelled my name till chang ying..peng lorz..but at hq dere..e sir beir good..hehez..not lyk e mdm..kept scolding mi de..tt sir asked mi relaxed..den hor..helped mi unload lorz..so nice..reached sch bout 7.30..change back to 1/4 u..den went home lorz..

todae lehz..supposed to watch movie wif nssa ppl de..but cant make it..sorry ar guys..coz i later going guang ming shan pai pai..mayb meet u guys later..bout why i am feeling lost..is after reading somebody blog..u all shld noe i can oni sad over three tings..1 is results..2 is frenz..3 is love..currently is e third ting..i am not gonna gif up de..for how long i donno..i oso don wished to be involve in any bgr la..i decided to conc on my studies and on np..i got lots of tings to catch up lehz..i wan to be a new mi..hehez..new mi in e sense tt e way i look at tings..and not slacked anymore..but heart lehz..no change..change le later heartless ar..lolx..kk la..i going to do my amaths le..byes

Hope It iS noT truE

2005-04-05T23:12:00.000-07:00

yoz..well didnt update my blog during the wkend as i was tired..extremly..sat was flag day..we waited for tt person for 1h 30 mins..i thought mr wong got it wrong..so i caled him..he said he would come down and meet us..he took a long long time..by den tt person was here..wif nth..waited for e tins..den set off to jp..at 1st was sandy..yc..ks..ws and mi oni..after tt azizah..aiysah..and fadhilah joined us.haf lots of fun..i meant sandy and mi..haha..coz azizah dey all sian sian de..my tin was almost full..and i appeared scary to teenagers..lolx..see mi dey siam..is natural la..cause sometimes i oso liddat de..haha..den went back bout 2..i met xianjun..junyi..hongjie..grace and candy lorz..went makan..at piza hut..second time for the wk..den went home slp..till 4.30..woke up liao went causeway..told mummy i wanna made new spects..she ignored mi..i was pissed..very veri pissed..so i did not talk to my family for quite awhile..den was lyk sooo frustrated..msg peh lorz..guess he was shocked ba..coz i beri fierce..and yet my stupid mei mei kajiao mi..she say why so diam..missed tyr ar..peng diao lorz..didnt listen to her nonesene at all..papa knew i was angry..soo he said he would bring mi go make de..den i okie liao lorz..shopped till 10 ba..took mrt backie..

Sun lehz..stayed at home..mama cooked shark fin..wah..beri sweet lehz..e stocks got prob ar..lolx..nth much on sun la..

mon was okie..cant rmb much..oya.maths remedial till 3.30..sian diao..1st time eva got remedials wif her..

tues..got back ss test..16/20..not bad..thought can better de..hehez..nvm la..den supposed to haf maths till 4.30..but cancel..great..lolx..went make spects..haha..now damn cham..left eye 300..right eye 350..how how?haiz haiz..getting spects tis thurs..den mama nagged at mi..till now still nagging..sae person dere anyhow charge de..peng lorz..nvm..den went lot..wif candy..grace..xianjun..junyi..hongjie..baowen..fifi and ngli..beri funniy ar..hongjie asked y ppl all face so black..i sae todae is black budda day ma..he laughed le den sae e joke beri cold..lame lorz..

told ngli and fifi e complicating love tri in ndp..lolx..it involved 2 coconuts..2 flowers..and 1 fern..shldnt reveal more.is secret..lolx..den dey kip lisiao mi and somebody..den ng li most likely true lehz..i hope is not..caue i don wan reject anybody..nor accept anybody..lolx..reali la..told grace nect time i tink thrice den reject ppl..but hor..tink tink oso no use la..coz outcome confirm bad de..lolx..todae recalled lots of past tings..those funni little tings in 2/5..haha..kk..gotta go..bye

=-=Crazy=-=

2005-04-01T22:45:00.000-08:00

todae sort of crazy..haha..started e day wif cl..was fun la..1st time nv slp in her cls..den was maths..i dozed off..suppose she nv see it..geo at It room..nice..cooling..haha..denden lehz..after recess was physics..beri slack..slack till i slept in cls..haha..but got listened la..is lyk she taught rubbish tt time i slping..haha..a lame teacher la..but i preferred tanlh..coz he more lame ma..lolx

hehez..den was ndp..i found out two big secrets..not big la..but is secret..1st one was i overheard..not my fault..cause h25 was talking so loud..cant blame i heard it..but not confirm..suspected it since last wk..haha..den 2nd one was somebody telling mi his secret..i promised not to say so mouth shut..hehez..

btw.francis peh de nerve at e feet was hurt..scared mi..lucky he said not serious..so tml he wont be able to meet mela and mi le..nvm..and jus found out smth..fifi noe wad happen..haha..fifi ar..is not proud ar...is SUAY..lolx..pri sch frenz from twss told mi wad happen todae..funni lehz..their sch beri lame..teachers disturbed students..stupid lorz..better dne our sch la..so dead de..i laughed till peng listening to his april fool jokes..haha..tml is flag day..sian1/2..den i oso donno if i going jp or not..ask mama later..

donno wad to sae liao..todae half way thru physics..suddenly kok wei leonard dey all asked mi who i lyk..fifi sae ten year remedial..dey don believe lehz..truth dey not believe..soo funny..leonard sae he lyk ten year series..haha..so fifi told dem e reali definition of ten year remedial..dey oso donno who lai de la..missind ten year remdial now..haha..ok la..i nid to my hmk..if not nv gonna clear e mountain..Happy april fools..

haPpY hApPY

2005-03-31T17:20:00.000-08:00

hehez..i am very happy..becoz..i FINALLLY PASSED MY AMATHS TEST..12/17..hehez..don nid to retest..soo happy..den todae philip asked qns..i answered den she sae very good...now i love amaths alot.emaths still ok la..

Mon went pizza hut..wah..i was bout to drop tears lehz..mela lorz..asked mi bout yr again..beri fun la..anisa..shahirah..mela and mi..we tok tok lorz..sae bout llast yr de 2/5..lolx..and tt sting ray..nth much la..

tues went suki sushi..ng li..fifi..grace..xianjun..zihao.junyi and mi..i ate till beri beri full ar..den fifi and ngli siao liao..saw tt shuai ge jiu keep laughing..made mi laughed..lolx..tt day wasnt beri good..coz i not in good mood ma..and todae we made philip angry..haha..asked us to read thru geometry..den e class didnt..i got read la..but nobodi stood up..so i nvr lorz..den she beri angry wif us..

wed lehz..cls wrote letter apologise to her lorz..den get back my amaths test..at 1st i failed..got 8..den got mistakes ma..add till 12 lorz..hehez..so happy lehz..den after sch immediately tell yr and peh lehz..too happy liao..sense of achievement ar..but will worked harder de..

thurs..which is todae..eh..nth much la..i ans 2 qns during maths lorz..ans tt time nervous lehz..hands kept shaking..haha..den i don lyk tan ling see..i wan tan liang hooi..4/9 gif us back lehz..haha..al ms sim fault la..ask tan laing hooi teach 4/9..stupid lorz..den tanls de cls soo sian..boring..haiz..

tml april fool day..who shld i lisiao lehz..must tink tink.got soo many hmk..so i otta go liao..update tml ba..

[[kaya joke]]

2005-03-27T22:17:00.000-08:00

as from e tittle..i will tell u a joke later on..haha.

woke up at 9..saw fifi msg le den fell aslp..woke up at 11.15 to meet fifi at world jj at 12..without sae i am late..obviously rite.lolx..mama lorz..at 1st sae i got time to makan den go out de..wait for her till siao..den she kept nagging..jiu told fifi to wait awhile..

finish my newspaper report at mac..den did maths till bout 3 plus..cont at my hse..do til 5..went watched tv..by den maths hmk finished le.finally..haha..den went lot again..fifi was shocked tt my mama oso noe i lyk yr..got my kpo sis..whu wont noe..lolx..den sis went buy earrings lorz..den went ntuc..haha..

at ntuc i was damn damn pissed off by my sis..she and her good doings..she kept mentioning his name..is okie tt she mentioned his name la..but she did it in a scarcastic way lorz..den kept saying now ppl attached le la..still wad and wad and wad..peng lorz..so i scolded her..she didnt gif a damn at all..cont to follow mi around and mention his name everywher..complained to my mum..she got a scolding..haha..is after tt tt e kaya joke happened..my papa wanted to buy gel..and he would usually say..ying ar..help mi take e jelly..den my sis sae..i don wan jelly..i wan kaya..haha..papa laughed out lorz..den i peng..kept laughed..went take gel stil laughing..ppl thought i crazy sia..den went watson..followed by cake shop..den went home..donno y..suddenly i diam diam..nv tok at all..i bought chocolates..tml wan gif my family memebers..haha..den i thought of e past again lorz..when can i see him lehz?he alwaes sae de..you yuan zhi ran hui xiang jian..mayb no fate at all ba..tts all for todae..i wanna slp le..nitey..

=-=-funny day=-=-

2005-03-26T23:42:00.000-08:00

well..jus reached home bout an hr ago..went suntec wif family..den cousins joined us...reali fun..we took mrt at bout 4plus..at 1st sae wan go junction8..in e end suntec..den on e way i msg francis peh..so we chat awhile..den i sense tt his reply abit dulan..sort of quarrel wif him bout ytd e issue..not reli quarrel la..den msg mela..told her wad happen lorz..i don wan ppl upset by mi jus becoz i lyk yr..don get e idea wrong..aiyohhh..donno how to sae sia.den wnt e fountain dere walked walked..after tt makan..ate japanese food.uncle was shocked to see my papa eating alot.dey joked lorz..laugh till peng..at time time still msging peh..den was lyk i told him smth..he sae wadeva la..jus take care..den i was lyk huh lorz..den jiu tell him wad i feel..wah..den soo touched sia..he sae tings concern bout mi jus bother him..can sae it has been a long time nobodi cares bout mi tt much le..happy tt e closeness wif him was back..den after we changed e topic..to donno wad..forget liao..

went fountain again..song dedications.my sis and cousin went dedicate lorz..i shocked dao lehz..papa more sweet ar..asked mei mei go dedicate for my mama..sae tt he loves her..mama saw liao was lyk beri suprised..den sae my sis boliao..den we sae tt was papa asked her dedicate de..she lyk psps liddat..but can see tt she beri happy la..haha..when will it be my turn when i can see such msg being display in public lehz?haiz..

after tt went shopped at carrefour..helped my cousin who was not here to choose jersey..donno he lyk or not lehz..haha.hope he does..bought sushi..den went tis fashion..act wanna buy clothes..but not suitable jiu go liao..den walked walked..saw mani ppl crowding around to see donno wad..den heard tt got concert..saw shi wen bin..e name is smth liddat la..not beri sure..hehez..his songs beri nice lehz..den went wallet shop..bought a new pencil case..finalli..alwaes nv find ideal de..now finali found it..woohoo..

after went took e shuttle bus..beri funni..coz e driver beri gl ma..den papa and uncle sae later alight liao go bash e driver out..supposed e driver heard it ba..coz alight le tt driver disappeared..laughed till peng lorz..dey kept jk in e bus..made mi cant stopped laughing..den took mrt..gave them a riddle..omg..dey took yrs be4 dey noe e ans..funni lorz..den walked home..beri tired ar..so here am i typing my blog..tml going out wif fifi..do emaths..i donno how do e tys..

todae reali fun..wif all da jokes all tis..cheer mi up..though at certain pt of times i in silence..obviously ppl noe y..haha..i gtg do cl hmk le..byes

++TiriNg++

2005-03-25T12:36:00.000-08:00

Currently i am feeling beri beri sleepy..but i don wanna slp..lolx..i got maths hmk to finish but not in e mood..but i finished my proposal le..woohoo..e youthforcauses de..i spend 1 nite and i am done wif it ytd..but i retype for bout 2 times i tink..the file kept having probs..statisfied wif wad i type..haha..todae plan to do more for e proposal de.but no mood lehz..no inspirations..sad sad..

the past few days was fun..crazy everydae..glad tt got grace..ngli..fifi..mela and stefy to siao wif mi..eh..mon we went lot..shop e whole way..wif xian jun dey all..tues..mela..ngli..fifi and mi wwent suki shushi..inside dere got one hunk..mela amd mi was laughing whenever we see him..den fifi was lyk damn paiseh..e guy noe we were saying bout him ba..cause we were toking so loudly..den he serve e food to our table thrice..each time i sure laugh till peng de..den muz ren ma..so face became beri red..leonard and jieyin was dere..dey eating buffet..after tt went shop abit jiu went home le..wed i forgot where i went..thurs we went jp..haha..funni lehz..grace and mi laughed e whole wae home..reali siao de..den thurs nite spend doing proposal lorz..rmb do survey at www.freewebs.com/shiningstarx..muz support us..hehez..tis wk was full of laughter la..except on mon..sort of quarrel wif junyi over some matters..i reali angry lo..den i threw e magic shoe lace tt xian jun bought onto junyi den i walked away..but after tt still tok to them la..he made a beri scarcastic remark..den i pissed off ma..it got to do wif my last update de..e beri last part one..den on tues oso got argue la..but later wad he sae i realised it make sense..

every wk confirm got at least one person ask if i forget him le ma..at least got one de..todae francis went read my blog..i meant francis peh..den he noe wad happen le..relai sorry i kept it from him lorz..he my good kor kor ma..everyting oso will tell him de..yet tis impt ting i nv tell mi..he told mi can sense tt my love for tt whoever beri stong..i peng diao lorz..is true la..he sae make no sense haging on a love tt nv exist..tis is donno e how mani times i heard it..i appreciate his concern..but my ans to it is still e same as be4..as least i make an achievement..though everydae stil got tink of yr..but not as much as be4 le..divert my attention by fishing..lolx..oni mela dey al wil under..haha..i tink my maths is improving..not much probs in understanding..not lyk be4..philip teach de i don under at all..haha..

todae went lot den went ah ma hse..bought earrings..frm chiplee jewellery..mama buy de..sae reward for my improvement..funni lehz..jingwen more talkative den be4..she kept toking lorz..haha..grew taller too..at ah ma hse beri beri sian lehz..nth to do..at 1st plan go junction8 de..but nv..so nv bring hmk go do..nth to do jiu tok craps lorz..relatives tok bout ghost stories..i listened..guai rite?lolx..addicted to folding stars using straws le..how ar?keep foldig oso donno wanna gif hu..i wan gif him lehz..but shid i?nvm la..fold for myself..haha..so touched premy rmb my bday..i haven gave her her bday present..which is suppose to give 6months ago..aiyoh...so long le..but i confirm wil gif de.be4 my bday surely gif de..sorry ar jie..

i tink i gotta go le..i wanna do emaths tys..haha..byes..i am fine le..don nid worry bout mi..

Stop Forcing mi..

2005-03-20T21:13:00.000-08:00

haha..todae my mei mei's birthday..happy birthday..wah..long time nv update sehz..came back from camp tis afternoon..well the camp can sae was reali fun..i learnt lots of tings..not oni bout campcrat and drills..i learnt how to better present myself and mayb slightly matured in my thinking ba..hehez..ytd basic and baton drill together..cant tahan..cause i not feeling well ma..beri light-headed..so i fall out awhile..basic drill was wenliang and chengyun sir took de..learnt about e common mistakes and tried avoiding it..den baton drill..taiying and chin wee..i fall out ma..so was near cw de grp..haha..cw sir de grp beri fun lehz..kip laughing..so fun..den i sat dere listened to him lorz..laughed till peng..lunch beri song lehz..delicious..after tt e program i was half awake..den i no water bottle..so jl asked him go take from other sirs..dey were at canteen..drinking coke..den dey were snatching lorz..so cute sia..den finished le cw sae i took one bottle..later jl muz return another bottle of coke..i laughed till peng..den cy sae don listen to him..funni arz..at nite we haf orange syrup..nice nice..went it room for lecture on knots..learnt alot..cw sir kept joking..he sae ty de hand not nice de..den ty sir put a good hand sign..sirs were playful..den was mass debrief..well..we had to choose our pti for todae morning de pt..we sae jovan and yuann..but mr leong wan boy and gal..so we sabo chaikee..den cw sae don wan jovan and ck...so ended up ppl sabo yuann..dey sabo azizah..but she nid go mosque..so i was sabo in e end...so we haf to be pti lorz..polished shoes le went bathe..fun lehz..mi..elizabeth and sandy don dare take off e ***..paiseh ma.we bathing together..den we 123 took off..i laughed till peng lehz..reali funni lorz..den we kept toking..coz scary ma..reali song..bathe le.went back bunks..den soo tired..so slp lorz..suddenly cw sir woke us up..sae go toilet muz 2ppl..if cant wake ur fren up..go np rm find em..lolx..slept soundly..heard frm sandy i was snoring..mayb tired ba..i ate medicine ma..den is lyk eat le beri sian de..so lorz..woke up liao jiu pt..beri beri slack..we did 3 sets..den plus jogging..we finished in half an hr time...fast lorz..we given 1hr lehz..cy sir gave us comments on e pt itself..after breakfast we changed full u..den arm drill..reali fun..at 1st was wl and jl took de..den we later divied into 2 grp..jl took my grp lorz..he was funni..joking wif us..his drill beri solid..i lyk it..we had 3hrs of arm dril..i hoped it nv end..caused it was lyk reali fun ma..most impt learnt lots of tings..den ty took us for lashings..i finalli learnt diagonal lashing..or shld sae i finnali noe how it was tie..haha.follwed by lamp lighting..wl took us..den cy..finally i rmb e parts lehz..i kept forgetting it ma..tts all lorz..we ended of e camp wif a smile..

so i was back here..jus sang bday song to my mei..mama la..asked mi sing..well...den chua wanted mi to include his name in e blog..so i include lo..xtra de..haha..jkjk..he asked mi y nvr come back earlier..den i sae he e oni one who missed mi ma..beside my family la..den wulieh finally gave her up..glad for him la..caused it was bothering him alot..so he nth to sad liao..jiu i kena la..asked if i gif up yr le ma..frankly speaking i haven..so he used harsh tone on mi..trying wake mi up frm my dream..reali terrible lehz him..i noe he was trying to help mi..i reali appreciate..i admit tt i did not try hard enuf to forget him..cant u see tt..is not i cant..if i wanna foget him..i can even do so within 1 day lorz..is tt i don wanna..i kept saying to wulieh i will gif yr up de..i will TRY..but i noe beri well i was not trying to..feel free to scold all u one..cause i noe i am foolish in some way..my thiking ba..don misunderstood..i am not angry wif wulieh at all la..but wad i wanna sae is tt..i don wish to discuss bout tis at tis moment..cause i am living happily.though dere are times when it bother mi..those who care for mi..such as my darling..fifi..junyi..and wulieh..i appreciate it..reali..is from my heart..but i don wish to lyk another guy and ended up getting hurt..i rmb wad mirabel sae to mi..let ur heart be perfect for ur ideal one in future..so muz let it be perfect..no cracks at all ma..hehez..sorry tt i didnt reply u in msn..caused i didnt noe wad else can i sae..but mayb getting yr off e mind for e moment will help mi in forgettin him..even if it cant..i sure feelings will fade after a long time..i am fine rite now..don nid worry bout mi..i gtg packed my bag..nite..

sfpsikp

2005-03-14T23:00:00.000-08:00

summarise wad happen todae and ytd..ytd was sun..as usual.i went to my grandma hse..was reali fun..uncle de curry chicken beri nice..but..mama de E BEST..hehez..jingwen so cute lehz.brought her to playground..den she sae she wan pee..took off e pants jiu pee..damn funni lorz..e urine ended up on my hand..piang eh..den she don wanna go home lehz..muz sweet talk to her den she willing go back..cute seh.lolx..i played mahjong wif my aunt..cousins..uncles.of coz i lost rite..dey beri pro lorz..but fun la..played a while watched tv den went study le.cause todae amaths test ma..went home bout 9..i studied log till bout 1 i tink.den soo tired jiu fel aslp..

woke up at 9 tis morning..den went studied quadratic till 11 plus..but philip nv test on quadratic..damn damn..lolx.amaths test quite easy la..tink i shld be able to pass..be4 tt saw david leong..inform mi to spread e msg tt tis sat and sun ncos camp for us..peng lorz..sian diao..tis holiday sucks.went sci centre..tan lh called mi chang ying again..flies..lolx..sat alone in e bus..of cause dey were trying to sabo ppl rite.lolx..sabo ngli wif mao ge..but fail..reached dere muz climbed up e stairs..third story..reached e lecture room liao..grace kena sabo..sat beside xue yi and zi hao..i was being sabo too..by fifi and ngli lorz.imagine dey spreading i lyk tcy..piang..tt fifi ar..kip sae sy lyk hu??den ngli will sae tcy..stupid rite..and ppl believe it lehz..make mi now so ps..see him wanna find hole hide my face..lolx..so i kept quiet lo..if not dey will sabo mi..lolx..den after tt went mac..makan.discuss project..waited for fifi..went out mac junyi asked mi see infront..guess who did i see..ws lorz..damn funni lehz..i shouted his name..den sae halo..he was lyk shocked..den asked mi where we going..i was on e fone too..so bit blur..den saw josiah dey all..shouted fifi...purposely de..but i sae i wanna tel her i saw ws..excuses oni la..lolx.funni lorz..den went lot..shopped.den dey came my hse..do chem..wah..nice lehz..hehez..bout 10.15 went out..sis lo.asked mi pei her go buy food..beri dark lehz..i so scared..reali lorz..next time at nite don wanna go out liao..kk la..sis asked mi mopped e stupid floor liao..bye

argh

2005-03-13T01:18:00.000-08:00

retyping tis blog..cause com siao liao.delete my entries..tis wk nth much la..but tan lh not gonna teach us le..he going teach sec4/9..tan ling see teaching us..tts a sad ting..i wan mr tan!!but too bad la..aniwae..tis wk not too bad..jus tiring..and i got a big family in sch..my ah bu is ngli..ah pa is hongwei..my daughter is fifi..daughter hubby is junyi..and fifi got a mistress stefy..deir daughter is mela and son is leonard..leonard de daughter is grace..den grace de lao gong is bao wen..suitors of her are xueyi and zihao..haha..leonard lao po die liao..my laogong oso..haha..mine is die in my heart..and we haf been adressing each other lyk real family since mon..haha..reali fun lehz..though is lyk lame and childish..

my results were not up to standard..far frm it lehz..beri badly done..but detemined to do well for mid yr liao..hehez..currently beri cham..cause got guai daughter spreading tt i lyk some1 frm my cls..and another rumour bout mi liking another guy frm np..tis is my darlin aziah de doings la..lolx..siao bo...fifi spread de more cham la..make mi soo ps..notti daughter..haha..stopped spreading la..i swear i don lyk both of e guys..how come fifi suddenly spread lehz..of coz i noe la..she nth better to do la..but hor.next time sabo guys lehz..don sabo mi..rumours mostly is bout gals lyking which guy..seldom got rumours bout guys..haha..

todae went orchard..watched boggeyman..nice lehz..scary too..busy covering my ears..haha..suppose to do project.but fifi sae don wan..den no choice lo..after tt jojo called ma..den we sae ok go do..we at heerens tt time..so we took a long time to get to mrt station and boarding of train..so jojo called and ask us go home..dey don wanna do liao cause wait too long le..den tyook mrt to suntec..btw..be4 tt i heeren..we were looking out for fish..haha..i was grossed looking a one guy..den mela and fifi jiu lisiao lorz..e guy suddenly disappeared lehz..den saw him again..i laughed till peng sia..lolx..my sis and mie took a long time to find my parents..imagine u walked frm city hall to suntec..and front of suntec to e end..wah..tired lorz..makan at kfc..i quened up for 1/2hr lehz..beri crowded..den went fountain dere..nice lehz..ppl dedicate msg..den was shown thru e laser..den so sweet lehz..got guys dedicate to e gals dey lyk..but i laugh la..cause funni ma..den went carrefour..shop shop lorz..bought kiwi..but beri sour..and my stupid sis..u noe wad..e whoe way she was mentioning him and her lehz..purposely wan gek mi..of coz she manage to la..she sae tings nv went thru brain de..where got mei sae jie is bitch de..oni she will lo..sae i lyk bitch..he and her stead liao stil lyk him..no wrong okie..i nvr do anyting tt break ppl up lo..i am upright..dey can stead all dey wan..i can love him all i wan rite..as long as i didnt break em up or become third party jis ok le wad..diao..bth her..but tok to her too much wil vomit blood ar..stupid sis..haha..i reali wont be third party de..dey happy i oso happy liao..furthermore i wanna conc on studies now..den at 11 took mrt went home..so 2 annoymous asking my update..so here i am..haha..pls leave ur name lehz..i lazy go guess..

e coming wk though is sch holiday..everydae nid go back..except tues..sian man..mon go amaths test..hope i pass..reali wel..wil work hard to reach my target de..haha..ok la..gtg do amaths le..bye..

REd HouSe RuleZ

2005-03-05T13:11:00.000-08:00

currently i am in beri good mood..haha.ytd was sports day..and of coz..RED HOUSE WON.woohoo.1st time in cck history we won 2 awards..cheering and overal champion..soo happy.was doing my np duty frm 7.30 to 10.30 i tink.forgot liao.ppl were quening up to buy drink.my duty was at e gate.so haf to control e crowd.and was scolded by 3 sec4 i tink.wel dey tink is unfair tt np could buy drink.but others cant so dey insulted np..as being told by ms tan.i was not allowed to let all of em buy drink at e same time.is lyk 2 by 2 u go and buy.so e 3guys waited beri long la.den dey were pissed off.so i was being scolded by em.nizam was in e hospital.thighs infection.so it was about 5 when we went visit him.around 25 of us visited him.alot rite?haha.his bed was crowded.but pity him lehz.coz opposite his bed and beside were 2 children.dey were lyk crying non-stop.hope he get well real soon and can see him on mon..reached home bout 8.30..den was soo tired till i fell aslp while watching tv..watched series of unfortunate events after sports day.was reali nice..

todae going to cousin's hse.at bedok lehz.so far..mayb staying over.not sure lehz.coz todae neice bday ma.oso natalie bday..happy BIrthday!!btw.muz thnx den chua for an wei mi on thur..pour all my sorrow on him..lolx.thnx thnx..got to make tis short..gtg liao..bye..

alamak..haiz..

2005-03-03T22:55:00.000-08:00

currently..i am not in good mood..in e sense tt my heart not feeling rite..understand?i doubt..lolx.nvm..jus out of mind.is lyk a wk no update le.miss my bloggie..

firstly..i miss some1 terribly..reali..ask grace and junyi lo.miss some1 oso no use..got 1 ting i wanna sae..i noe no chance le la.but don kip mention can?i noe i everydae mention about him.jus bear wif mi ba...but these days seldom tok bout him le.sometimes i got tings wana sae out.i sae liao.but is lyk e meaning jus didnt get thru lehz.and of coz..i becoming crazy liao..crazier day by day.lucky got ngli and grace pei mi siao.haha.not tt bad la.lolx.todae enjoyed myself.logaritams test postponed.after sch went bp.haha.fifi..leonard and mi haf a good laugh.reali funni.we were doing smth notti.haha..copied how mrs philip talks.jus one sentence i said.and it made fifi and leonard laughed lyk siao.omg..reli funni lehz.and i realised mr tan lh alwaes call my full name.ytd called mi two times in cls.stupid lehz.but muz thnx him.made mi feel better.obviously he was talkng craps instead of teaching.he was telling us bout bgr.devotion.time.patience..all tis..sae finish le he call my name.sae sia shang ying..ritte?bgr muz tis and tt rite..i was stunned..damn funni.

ytd ndp training..fun..haf lots and lots of fun.tt Ai rmb my name.finali.lolx.nth much la.ytd was amaths common test.done a stupid mistake.beri stupid lo.aiyoh..nvm..leave maths aside ba.on mon..seniors came back received results.happy for em..cause dey do beri well ma.haha.proud of all my kor lehz..done so well..haha.

tml sports day.red hse currently leading..yeah..haha.tml we shall see.gonna wake up early..np duties..sian1/2..tired slpy.last yr i buy sweets or chocolates cfm will but 2 de.1 for mi..one for francis peh ma.my good ah kor.todae buy sweets oso bought 2..but donno who to gif lehz.how ar?haiz..both oso i eat..settle liao..haha.gif my dar dar la..later sae i bully her..hor mela?lolx.i am crazy again.gotta go..budbye..

no sorry pls

2005-02-23T19:25:00.000-08:00

todae wanna update my blog..got mani tings to sae..fifi..saw e blog u ahf wif him le..both of u pls stop saying sorry..but do mi a favour..don gek mi animore..i under tt u all trying make mi forget him...but when both of u gek mi..it doesnt make tings better..nv at all.instead i feel sad..is lyk i am such a failure..reali..i noe u reali wish tt i forget him..but sometimes reali cant..e dae u see i stop mentioning bout him..wil be e dae i forget him..haha..junyi and fifi..don gek mi animore hor..if not i reali cant take it liao..tis days kip suan fifi and junyi..donno why liddat..i am not jealous..but mayb lyk wad junyi sae..i don haf ma..so beri xian mu..reali lehz..see ppl so loving..i so xian mu..especially when dey hold hands hor!!!i bth lo..coz dey trying gek mi.beri notti rite..yes it is..ytd haf a nitemare..wake mi up lehz..reali scary..to mi is it la.to others dey will sae chey...haha..i am crazy these days..laugh lyk nobodi business..grace oso siao wif mi.lolx..

wad happen todae lehz..eh..btw..chaikee champion for javelin..woohoo..record holder lehz..e distance was 11.18m..wel..pro??meiyu got 1st in short put too..cool man..i reali tink is cool..haha..xianjun more cool..coz he show attitude to mrs philip..though was lyk nth de..but could see mrs philip flare up..shiok man..eh..haha..shocked dao when mrs philip asked mi mi michelle..i mean michelle ahmad..ask mi help her in maths..omg..my maths is lyk soo s**k..tts for real..and my mt common test..beri disappointing..haiz..but mdm lim lure my spirit out..i mean e spirit to work e xtra miles and nv gif up..but i am reali tired..tis fri last yr de sec4 getting o lvl results..wishing em all da best..and of coz..i wan to noe how well dey done..haha.looking forward to fri..a day wif amaths test..combined humanities common test..sian1/2..

i gtg liao..but wanna tell junyi and fifi tt..don apologise..though i am quite angry when u two gek mi..but u haf sae tt is for my own good rite..but don gek liao la..when is time to let go.i will de..don worry bout mi k..tml jojo bday..wish him a happy birthday..15 yrs old le muz guai guai ar..lolx..todae is yuan xiao jie..oso light festival..and dong fang de qing ren jie..haha..i am gross wif qing ren jie..nvm..i am crazy..so don listen to my craps..bye

omg..

2005-02-20T01:30:00.000-08:00

let mi update bout ytd and todae..ytd we had our ndp rehearsal..was a fun one..everyone was enthu..wanna comment tt jiao bin will haf jiao bin frenz..why i liddat sae lehz..coz tt fren of hers tink she was soo big..asked everyone to shout..she is oni sec2 lo..expect sec3 listened to her mehz..she was not tt dua bai lo..blue hse don wan wore blue shirt..wan wear red..bhb de..ok..e above part was meant for tt bird face oni..after e rehearsal it rained heavily..walked in e rain..was not in good mood ma..so wanna walked in e rain..was beri wet..but went lot walked till dry..at 1st i beri noisy..keep toking craps..but after tt beri quiet..change in mood...perhaps ba..he appeared in my mind again ma..went home liao.mama was slping..funni part was tt..she told me she drank vodka till drunk..dizzy dizzy liddat..omg..vodka oni she drunk..tt vodka was left over de..buy le nv drink...so she drink for mi lo..reali funni..i laughed till peng when she sae drink till drunk..haha..who ask her at one go finished whole bottle..muz man man lai de..aiyoh!!lolx..bout 8plus liddat used com..saw his nick..got mixed feelings bout it..but cfm sad de..told mela..fifi and junyi..den after tt dey kept toking..i diam diam..well..dey thought i cried..i didnt..jus beri sad..den nth to do..went frienster..saw e testy she wrote for him..lyk another needle pierce thru my heart lehz..tt type of pain..haiz.donno wad can i sae.haha..i was recalling my memories..recalling some sweet memories tt i haf wif him.act not much la.bits and pieces..at least when i sad can tink of it jiu can liao..whenever i tink of a msg tt was lyk months ago..i will smile..idiotic rite??yes..it is..

went orchard todae..chingay ma..we shopped frm 12 to 6 plus i tink..beri tired..beri funni..coz i was lyk toking rubbish e whoel wae..den went see chingay..but it was lyk we waited for hrs be4 it started..ping called mi..bout red hse de tingy..den she told mi dey saw em at jjc..i was excited la..haha..but oso nth to excited de..after tt mela and grace went buy snacks..and came a fat ass..angmoh lai de..act don wanna liddat sae him..but i still beri angry wif him..beri beri..tis was wad happened..we were dere waiting for chingay to start..and tis fat angmoh was squeezing us..or shld sae he was pushing..til my sis cried..imagine tt..cause she cant tahan liao ma..i was damn fed up..so i called my mama..and wile waiting for hr picked up fone..i shouted at tt fatty..asked him to stop pushing..be4 tt alredi told him..he didnt care..i shouted liao he still pushed..so we were all fuming wif fire..guess wad..he was soo fat..4 of us pushed him..he jus didnt move..instead scold us..telling us stop[ed pushing..so mela..grace and mi tok back to him..we sae he was damn fat..tink he big can bully gals mehz..and we told him stopped pushing..yet he still pushed..tts y we revenge..hum ji kia..nv tok back de..haha..den we kip tok back bout him la..msg rong tell him..shocked dao tt ting asked mi if nid him to come down not..haha..i sae see em lo..den rong asked mi..dey bbq ma..so sae don nid la..he wan come down fight wif tt guy...better not la..later caused him in trouble..beri cool rite??haha..i reali tink is cool..den tt fatty kip diao us..e auntie beside us sae he lyk wan fight..i not scared lo..wan fight i cfm asked ppl come down liao..haha..but lehz we sae he dare mehz.mela sae got police..i sae i shout angmoh molest...he sure kena de..haha..reali fat lo..mela de bag was in front of my sis..he pushed us till bag was in front of him..but when e parade started..we heck him..it was exciting..saw our sch de..baowen waving to grace..but she didnt see..we shouted his name..beri nice..but i tink e hottest part was e party time..mani ppl danced to e music lo..so nice..but gtg home le..we sang as we walked 2wards mrt station.haha..reali crowded..but was a fun dae la..ytd recalled so mani tings..i tink i will not be tt sad animore ba..at least got tings tt i wil tink le jiu smile rite..not tt sad..but stil sad..omg..wad am i toking..blur liao..veri slpy..nite

sian sian man..

2005-02-17T21:43:00.000-08:00

todae beri tired..during sch hr..nth much..story began after sch..we having chem remedial at it rm2..den lehz..fifi and junyi shouted my name..i thought what..dey sae got ting and rong..dey more worked up den mi lo..haha..ask em to act as per normal..i alwaes wanna noe my reaction when i see both of em..todae i finalli noe..i waved at em..soo happy to see em la..asked ting call mi..haha...she sae gan ah yi...i sae guai..lolx..den rong wan mi call him..i don wan..den jiu go for remedial le..went lot after tt..makan le took escalator to cinema dere..saw em again..at sweet talk dere..den went buy tickets for hide and seek..it was a great show..scary..e sound effect la..saw em again be4 going into threatre..dey oso watching movie..but different de..e storyline of e movie was stupid..to mi la..leg cramp while watching..so pain lehz..den went toilet after how..saw ting..haha..fifi..mela and stefy kip an wei mi..junyi oso..scared i bbreakdown..don worry..i nv cry..wanna noe how i feel when saw em...??act nth much..was beri glad to see em..jus heart feeling out of track la..heartache..but i still can tahan..if u were mi..oso will sad rite?haha..tts y la..cant blame mi..tml ndp rehearsal again..sick of it..haha..mayb going ah ma hse tml..donno wad gathering..dey nv sae lehz..but i am tired..beri tired lehz..haiz..write till here ba..nite..

bth

2005-02-16T21:23:00.000-08:00

here to update be4 i explode..beri nan shou rite now..jus breakdown in front of my sis..wondering y??not becoz i too stressed..i beginning to manage maths..which is lyk finalli..todae we had ndp rehearsal..which is sian..beri sian..e instrutors i see le more sian..futhermore got one famous bird face in my group..which is lyk so 'heng'..haiz..y i breakdown..thnx to my xiao di..at kfc gek mi till siao..i heartpain le he stil wan gek mi..finalli bth..so breakdown lo..tt kpo sis of mine called mi mom..suppose will qns mi later..tinking of what shld i sae..got ideas??..crazy tis days..which was obvious..my mind still tinking of tt physics qns tt i haf for mr tan..gonna ask him tml..is a must..if not i wont under e concept..he read the mail i send him..howeva..what i said inside did not covered all my feelings..more to it...cant express out..he treated it as nth happen..i supposed..but is ok to mi..used to it..and my thoart got prob..wan cough canot cough..once cough can die..and i was suay enuf tt i jackpot todae..i didnt noe till i was back home..cre8 a mess out of it..pms due to it..mayb..i donno..todae i kipsuan myself..junyi sae i soo kelian..i sae kelian mei ren ai..he sae wad...i oso sae i mei renyao..or mei ren ai..wad is happening to mi..arghhh..bth liao..i wanna shout out my feelings..cannot..in process of exploding..save mi!!!thanks to you..and i get into tis mood..damn damn..

happy cny

2005-02-11T00:45:00.000-08:00

i am back!!woohoo..went to m'sia on tues morning..came back tis morning..well..was a nice hols..jus tt more pimples.and lots of mosquitoes bites.pimples due to eating too much fried food.haha

tues..cny eve..hooray..get to see my dear cousins again.so glad bout tt.we reached dere around 11plus.when my cousins saw mi.e 1st word was..chang ying..flies..tts wad dey alwaes called mi..used to it liao.went to e beach in e evening.nth beta to do.built sandcastles.even my san sao oso pei us built.so funni.e renuion dinner was great.steamboat.but it was sort of slow.e soup jus didnt boiled.took a whole lot of time to boil.and soup was tastless..had to add soya sauce.haha..nv had any rice.filled my stomach wif all e delicious food.those fish.meat.vege..so on...was reali reali tired.making myself awake so tt could witness e countdown.watched tv to kip mi awake.howeva.failed..i fell alsp.but when time was up.managed to wake up.went to e beach.coz it was jus in front of our hse.den firecrackers.woohoo..was great la.coz we were e 1st to light up.dere was lots of policemen petrolling.coz fireworks and firecrackers were banned..as i said..was banned.but nobodi cares about tt.e sky was lighted up wif fireworks.e streets filled wif noises frm everywher.wad bout e police?dey were corrupted de la.gif em money.dey will auto go away de.we didnt did tt.but saw tt.haha..non-stop firework..reali fun and nice.beri cold too..slept around 2 i tink.chatted wif cousins be4 tt..not too bad la tt day..

wed!!!cny liao..haha..angbao..woke up at 9plus..had my breakfast..laksa..aunt cooked de..delicious..i ate alot.lunch oso was tt..didnt changed into new clothes.went pray pray at 4 diff. temples..den went home changed..not approriate..shldnt wear skir tt dae..haha.now lehz..i received 13angbao..got 200plus..haven go mama side dere yet.tml going..sian..cont 1st..slept in e afternoon..beri tired ar..woke up liao oso sian..beri boring..nth to do de..but hor...my cousin...ping ping..her bf came..haha..so shuai..reali beri shuai..his name i donno is wad..but we called him ah heng kor kor....haha..my cousin and him reli sweet..everyting oso wanna share..so funni lehz..dinner was steamboat..again..but tis time beta liao..got taste..and it boils at a faster rate..slept around 10.30..too tired la.hehez..tt nite so full of noises..fireworks..all so nice..we went out see..den finish wan come back..got another one..den was lyk soo funni..haha..ate lobsters tt nite..uncle treat us de..butter and chili de..not nice de..still crabs e best..after tt lehz..msg my cousin and rong oso..beri boliao ma..haha

thurs..todae no angbao at all lehz..ppl nv gif..but oni 1 visitor tt day la..haha..bbreakfast was roti prata..beri delicious..love it lehz..haha..den my 3 cousins together wif ah heng kor kor went back kl..afternoon same old tinngs lo..went beach..den bought lots of sweet..but my nephew ate all of it..haha..jing quan was reali cute lehz..love him soo much..haha..he 5yrs old oni..at nite we went out..my cousin..together wif san sao..inside e car i kept lisiao jq..i called him big notti boy..den soo funni lehz..he angry..angry wif all of us..coz we kept on lisiao him..he punched mi and pulled my hair..scary rite..haha..when he was angry..reali funni..san sao sang songs.so nice..reached back home around 11.35..den went slept..coz had to wake up early e next day..bid cousins goodbye be4 tt..coz when i went home..dey will be sleeping ma..hugged jq..he soo cute lehzz..i told him gugu will be going back liao..den asked him hug hug..den he hug mi soo tight..these few days kept asked mi carry him..he was heavy..heavier den jing wen..my biao jie de daughter..haha..

fri..which was todae..woke up at 5..got to quene for boat at jetty..reached dere 5.40..u noe wad..not a single soul..nobodi at all..unlce bluff us de..argh..so we waited inside e car..till bout 7 den we came out..beri cold..strong winds ar..den ppl started coming..but we were e 1st..soo kiasu..haha..den went e toilet dere..let mi tell u..it sucks..coz we went into e guys one..as directed by e cleaner..no light..totally dark..got small torchlight la..papa gif de..den i shone here and dere..and in e toilet bowl..omg..shlt..not flushed u noe..left overnite dere..so dirty..reali dirty..regrtted going in..reali..worst toilet eva man..argh!!den mama stomachache..waited for her..in tt smelly toilet..haiz..poor mi..haha..papa bought 6packets of nasi lemak.and 1 for 50cents..m'sia money..cheap lehz..haha..but most impt..it was delicious..ate currypuffs too..one for 30cents nia..den board e bumboat..e ferry will be out next months..now stil bumboat..sian lo..and was soo funni..a lady board e wrong one..haha..i laughed till peng lehz..so cute sia tt lady..haha.we left m'sia at 8.30 ar..reached s'pore around 9.30..1 hr ride..slept e whole wae..tired ma..e new jetty in s'pore..reali cool..lyk airport liddat..didnt buy chewing gums..coz..i cant smuggle it at all..all e bags had to be scan by com..even we had to walk past e senser..so couldnt buy..went took taxi and went home..reached my hse around 12.bathed liao slept e whole afternoon..papa sae wanna go marina..but i don wan..wanna watched lucky charm tonight..last episode...so touching leh tt show..to mi it is la..lixiang so wei da..gif up jk for meiya..i watched till dropped tears..haha..

will be going to m'sia in march..qing ming jie ma..den end of year going kl..cousin getting married..haha..i missed all my little cousins ans nephews..especially jinghseng and jingquan..i was close to em u see..i told mama i wanna go kl for 1 month in dec..she sae okie..haha..staying at san sao hse..coz mi and her family beri close de..wah..so late liao..12.30..beri sian lehz..so i gtg liao..once again..gong xi fa cai worz..haha..

bloggie

2005-02-05T22:53:00.000-08:00

wah..long time nv blog le lehz..but it wasnt a good wk at all..e wk tt i hate e most.haiz..

got mani tings happened in tis wk..but no wish to mention it at all..feeling beri tired now..still got loads of clothes to iron.got a new tv todae.beri nice..uncle bought for us de.went to lot at nite to buy earrings.helping parents do spring cleaning.tts wad happen todae.but was rather a borring day la.

as for wad happen frm mon to fri lehz.nth much la.lets say bout np.haha..on wed..we learnt lamp lighting.pressure lamp.ks took our grp.but we beri sian..i was bout to fell aslp lorz.den fri rawks..becos beri slack ma.mr leong tok to us bout taking over.hectic year due to ndp.all those stuffs.after tt we had our total defence silver..did e project in com lab.lucky e essay..paart of it alreadi done last yr.so touch up oni.after tt ppl all played com games.den jovan lisiao ppl.sae got bug.den com off.at 1st i thought reali.den realised dey were e ones who switched it off.tts all.nth much la..

quite excited tt new year is here soon.coz i wanna slack.and enjoy myself.last few holidays..of shld sae last holiday.got enjoy la.but was lyk not in good mood de.now i reali wanna enjoy wif no worries.at least for one day.grant mi tt one day ba.haha..going malaysia on tues.wont be going to sch on tues and fri.coz i tues morning set off..fri afternoon den come back ma..frm wad i noe..going ah ma hse on fri nite..sat going marina..sun not sure liao..haha..den e following mon..valentine..act planned hao liao..sae going out wif fifi..junyi and stefy ba..but heard fifi going back indo..i oso not sure lehZ..tues wil be ren ri..going ah ma hse..steamboat..alreadi plan two wks ago..told aunt wad i wanna eat liao..haha..most impt.angbao..got my 1st angbao ytd..mama fren gif de..woohoo..am i tinking too far???haha..i am la.but hope i haf a special valentine.though not a real valentine..i mean not wif e person i love.but at least wif frenz ma..wanna it to be memorable too..i tinking how am i gonna celebrate my bday..tis yr muz hao hao de guo..coz next yr.1 or 2 days after my bday jiu shi o lvl liao.cl paper..den cfm muz study de.so no celebration next yr..tis bday lehz..i wan it to be beri special.is on sun ma..holi by den..so i got 2 days.sat and sun..omg..i soo boliao..tink till so far for wad..aiyoh..haha..act i told somebodi how i wanna spend my bday le..wonder if he rmb?..still dreaming.haven wake up.haha..kk la.gtg do hmwk..byes..don tink tml got time to update..haf to wait for beri long le..so mayb wish u all a beri early happy chinese new year..haha..gong xi fa cai..btw..yu xuan..happi birthday..

aiyoh..

2005-01-29T23:13:00.000-08:00

miss my bloggie lehz..tt humji kia nv come tag le..if not i can scold all i wan lehs.haha.

let summarise e wk ba.on mon lehs.nv go sch..diarrhoea.my stomach weak la..alwaes liddat.den cause mani tings happen.thnx to coconut juice.diarrhoea coz of it..stupid.

tues lehs.on my way to take 190.i saw wayne.shocked to see him.his smile sort of brighten my day la.den after sch was class com investiture.i kept laughing lehs.lyk beri funni liddat.den went thaipusam after tt.the bus sucks.coz it was so stuffy.lyk gonna die liddat.but thaipusam beri nice.those kavadi carrier.i rmb.i haven type out.alamak.my el so weak.confirm lots of mistakes de.den lehs.went lot after tt wif fifi.had dinner at long john.den saw wayne again.tis time he wif jieyang..and his fren ah long.

as for wed.mi.junyi and fifi did e noticeboard.went np at 4.30..dey having leadership lecture.now kip having lecture.chengyun took us.beri fun la.though was lyk soo sian.haha.beri tired.slept at 2am tt day..

thur lehs.got nth.but do cip.beri sian lehs.but quite fun la.den tt humji kai came tag my blog.sorry tt i suspected u ar.u shld noe who i referring to ba.but now oni left one biggest suspect.if reali her hor..i wanna go let tis matter become beri big.evil rite.haha.nth better to do.but how will i noe lehs.i oso donno la..

on fri.tis day fun..oso moody.got np.but enjoyable one.oni sec3 ma.we suppose fall in at 2.30.but hor.chengyun sir came at 3.15 ba.he got lessons ma.cant blame.we playing game be4 tt.beri lame.den tt zihao.he beri bad lehs.don see he guai guai de.spread rumours bout mi.make mi so paiseh.haha.i tis few days kip shoot him.having lecture again.den pt.slack one.do 2 sets oni.20..15..den went pull up.mr leong brought us go 2.4..but i slacked.i walked.haha.beri nice.but oso beri tired.den after pt.was lyk soo moody.i went out wif nat dey all.but was totally left out.beri sad u noe.so i diam diam lo.i go out wif em don haf e close feeling.no secure at al lehs.dey tok oso scared i hear liddat.donno la.den nth to do jiu will anyhow tink.so jiu tink of him lo.

sat..todae lo.woke up late.8.15..den go do cip.newsparer collection.den collect till wt de hse dere.coincidence.i didnt noe at all..so she was shocked.i oso.lolx.den beri fun la.but last yr nicer.but stupid stomach.early in e morning diarrheoa.den coleecting tt time stomach damn pain..bear till after cip.asked fifi and mela pei mi go toilet.bth liao.after tt jiu don mention liao.

went buy cny goods..wif uncle and family.coz uncle paying for us.hehez.bought bout 284plus lehz.beri ex.den mama sae uncle beri dote on mi.i wan wad he jiu buy lehz.bought brezzer for mi.5% alcohol.i driknig it later.after typing.wonder will i drunk?hope not.bought mani goods la.lots of choco.but scary.bought $60 de galsberg.scary lehs.den liddat lo..dn jiu went home slept.got nightmare again.tis time more scary.i was crying in e nightmare itself.den woke up le.i oso cried.wnet watched fair princess3.watched till tears kept flowing.beri touching lehs.especially yonqqi and xiao yan zi.dey two so loving lehs.so romantic.e words dey sae.wah seh.my heart melted liao.hehez.den went limbang eat.after tt jiu wnet home.jus nice got brezzer for mi to drink.use alcohol to forget my sadness.stupid lehs.donno la.wt be my er sao better..or i remained as her gan ah yi lehs.haha.of coz ah yi rite.liddat i bigger.haha.tis blog sae long oso not long lehs.hais.accepted tis fact liao.i gtg le..parents came back le.ruby grapefruit nice de brezzer beri nice.hehe.and 29 sux.though my birthdate.but i hate it.coz i alwaes sad on 29 de.

blog

2005-01-23T22:01:00.000-08:00

tink todae i update liao muz wait for 1wk later be i blog.rather busy wif sch work la.aniwae went grandma hse todae..but was fed up wif my dearest cousin~~.dearest in tt sense.haha.he lo.bth him de.tink he so big ar.i everytime let him do wad he wans.step over my head.reali angry.i wanna watch tv.not oni mi.my aunts oso.den he cant watch ma.jiu go cry.sec2 liao lehs.guy somemore.still cry.donno wad to sae.den he win lo.ppl all let him watch.treat mi lyk his slave.ask mi pour drink for him.go down buy food for him..his maid ar.damn damn.lucky i now cool down le.lol..and relatives all ask us be extra careful when going back malaysia tis cny..papa last time malaysian ma.hehez.sae tsunami lo.though over le.but waves veri huge.muz careful..but take taxi in beri long..will bored to death de.most likely take boat de.if i go nv come back how..?i beri worried lehs.i still got soooo mani tings wanna sae.noe i am tt type who cant stop toking de.so cant blame mi rite.lolx.1st ting in my mind will be tt unique person..but mani ppl unique to mi lehs.haha.lame.i m lame.but if i reali got go nv come back u all muz take care k..will miss ya de.but pray hard i still can spend valentine day wif my frenz.haha.i toking e truth..not rubbish lai de.tml mon.e day i hate e most.it sucks.hais.bit shocked tt jen noe who e he i referring to lehs.strange.but relieved tt him and her ok le.wish em all da best ba.jus now donno y i drop tears.sad memories back??mayb.donno lehs.muz be strong.will rmb tis de.heez.tml after sch got soo mani tings..hais.i reali tired liao.kk la.take care.

blog blog

2005-01-23T05:37:00.000-08:00

jus a short one

2005-01-23T01:31:00.000-08:00

gonna make tis entry a short one..coz i am sooo tired at tis point of time..feel lyk slping..ZzZZzzz..

todae went to bugis...bought a new wallet..quite nice..oso bought a new dress...wah.tis yr bought alot of new tings.but lehs.uncle paying de..haha.bugis was soo crowded.hot and stuffy day..make mi so uncomfortable..lyk wan faint liddat..den enjoy myself todae.quite la..den went temple pray pray..few months ago..pray tt he can get good results..now go dere pray tt both of em will be happy..haha..i lyk siao siao liao sia.haha..den oso got pray for mani other tings..secret..lolx.crap seh.i beri tired liao..so start crapping le.haiz..

nth much happen..but i finished my hw..left wif 3 ss qns.and study for geo test.going grandma hse again.quite fun la.but tml neice not going..miss her..haha.cont tml k..falling aslp..ZzZZzz..

wah..

2005-01-21T23:39:00.000-08:00

one wk nv blog le...argh.miss mie blog lehs..tis days mani tings going on.beri busy lo.so nv blog..haha..

well..tis wk ok la.not tt bad..2wks to cny..tts wad i noe..lols..on mon lehs..nth much la.planned to go lot after sch..but tan liang hooi gif us remedial.till 4 i tink.and we realised he love saying cute and sweet..haha..his jokes are quite funni..and he mention tt his wallet is make from sting ray de skin.donno real or fake de..tts wad he said.told us y sting ray is called sting ray.bcoz ray sting..last yr 2/5 de laugh till siao.especially mi..he asked wad so funni..i said nth.heard soo mani story bout ray and him le..haha.

on tues lehz..cant rmb much..but noe i having terrible headache tt day..so nv haf pe.nth much ar..after got pc..tts all lo..nth much happen act..

wed oso e same..nth special.after sch sec3 no np..so mingle wif azizah..ahamad..xj..all those np de la..den mr leong ask us go home..don stay in sch..den sae especialli mi..don go gossip..so bad lehs.den i innocent of coz fight back la..den he sae for e.g oni.why muz i fight back..den veri lame la.den every1 sae i am guilty..haha..soo farni..and tt gal finalli come np..not proper attire somemore..see her i hot liao..damn it..argh..changlong toking to junyi..wen bin and zihao..i went kpo.den found out tings la.i guess who was behind tis..muz be tt gal..if it is reali her..she reali veri de wad lo.liews..went kopitiam for dinner.tt gal oso dere..those guys kip diao us.siao de lo..see le oso bth..den tt wenbin..go shout her name..when he act wan call jiayi..diao lehs.den randy shout tt gal name..wah.those guys diao us..ping beri angri.i oso..stupid lo.den we went home after tt..jus liddat la.don wan explain wad happen.

thurs lehs.amths test..9qns to be done in an hr..i got do all.but oni 3qns i managed get ans..weak rite.well.my fate on mon will be out of cls.congrat mi 1st..getting lame.

he kept appearing in my mind..happen everyday..but is lyk no use at all de lo..wonder hows his throat le..hope is ok le..ytd had a nightmare.two times u noe..i dreamt of him..1st time is at bp..seem so near..yet so far.lyk a force trying to pull mi away lo.hais.den 2nd time was e worst.dreamt tt i was wif ping dey all at westmall de foodcourt.den saw him and her..holding hand and chatting happily..walked past em lyk a stranger..and e nightmare ended.woke up with cold sweat..cried my heart out..it was lyk 4am..and i was dere crying..e pain jus came back..reali hurts mi..seems tt i was cheating myself tis days.i told myself tt is gone.no more pain.but i was soo wrong..hais.wad to do.ppl together le..i kip scolding myself.hope tt feelings for him can be gone.but it nv happen..yyyyyy...he wont come back..but i am reali glad tt both of em are happi.sometimes jus to console myself.i said tt he will come back..he will regret wad he haf done.but all is rubbish la.such stupid words tt i came out jus to an wei zi ji..bu zhi de ar..jus got a feeling tt tis nightmare will come true.ever since dey stead.kept asking myself..if i were to see em..together.holding hands.chatting happily.wad will i do..will i sae hi..and happy to see em..or will i break down.i noe e ans beri well..though i reali don wish to see em anywher i go..but i would to see e reaction i will haf lehs.uttering craps here..stop all tis stupid nonesence of mine la..damn damn.

btw.went grandma hse today..i love my neice.she is soo cute.took pictures and video of her..i love her sia.hehez.she so chubby..cute.brought her go ten mile junction for a walk wif mama.sis and cousin.i carried my baby neice.she kept yawn.and finalli slept on my shoulder.so sweet.haha.tt was when we were still at ten mile.mama carried her till post office dere..den i carried her home.lucky she not soo heavy.when she sleep..she resemble my cousin..so cute de.haha.she reali cheer mi up..grandma hse crowded wif all my relatives.not all la..most.muz wait till cny den can see em le..

tonight is a starry nite.stars..i rmb at omni threatre.e stars in tt show..e xing xing tt we tok about.but now..tis star..frenz seldom mention..afraid tt i may be sad upon hearing it.his name was seldom.or nv been mention now..i rmb i told him be4 i would wish to watch sunrise and spend e nite at e beach wif him.but now.tis wont happen le.all i can sae is regret.when i got e chance to spend e day wif him.i nv treasure..i rather go visit grandma den go out wif him.and after tt..i nv had e chance anymore.not to sae now.beside blaming myself who to blame.tt chalet..got soo much tings i wanna tel him..got chance for mi to sae..but nv use.ended up now..i cant say it animore.hais..1st time in my life got regrets sia.reali e 1st..hope is e last too.got a deep memories bout a particular ting tt happen in tt chalet.tt will stay wif mi.those sad de.muz washed away.leave sweet de jiu hao

wah..write sooo much..managed to get most of e tings tt i kept inside my heart out.still got mani others lehz.but typed beri long le.wanna go le.bye..

yeah.woohoo

2005-01-16T12:43:00.000-08:00

i am veri happy rite now..coz...i finish my amaths hw..woohoo..wif no help lehz..yeah..but still got cl hw to do..and i don tink dere is geo test on mon..asking ms tan to help mi ask mr koh..hope don haf.haha..

todae woke up at 11..woke up by e noise my sis is making..haha..now i reali in good mood lehz..but in e morning..my stupid sis..mention him again...wan gek mi..told her he and her stead liao..she still wan mention him..don wan live liao ar..haha..stupid de..tml dey 1 month anniversary le...wanna gif em my blessing..tink i crazy le rite..act i am not..i don wanna be sad animore...i wan e cheerful mi back..hope i can achieve it ba...thnx to all those who are by my side..azizah..thnx for ur valuable advice lehz..she told mi as long as he is happy..i shld be happy for him..i agreed wif it..so muz be happy ma..lolx..see both of em so loving..i shld tell myself to stop dreaming le..coz my dreams wont come true ma..dreaming is lyk cheating myself lehz..but i still haven get over it..haha..wad craps am i uttering..wish both of em all da best..and hor..dere is smth i regret lehz...last time kip don wan go out wif him..now i wan oso cant le..it will be different le..so next time nv hesitate to do tings..if not when no chance liao..u will regret de..lyk mi liddat lo..regrets!!!haha.but no matter wad..i will lub him de..but assure both of em..i wont be e third party de..so don worry worz..is a promise tt i am gonna make..enjoy urselves tml..hehez..

went to causeway again.beri happy..went kampong days to eat..e food veri nice..i love e ice cream roti prata..is so sweet lehz..and delicious...mama sae next wk wan buy mi a dress..new shoes..earrings..todae she bought mi a bracelet..i choose de..stars..xing xing..lolx.veri nice i can sae..and pink clour de hp pouch..i wan buy black..mama don let..jiu buy pink lo..haha..pink oso nice..now i sort of regret buying e black shirt lehz.shld buy pink de..but too late..lolx.soo glad tt next fri no sch..hari raya haji ma..den cny soon..angbao..lolx..i broke le lehz..nid angbao..den got money..den i can buy presents for 2 ppl...i owe em deir bday present since last yr lehz..so veri belated de..premy and francis peh..sorry worz..hehez..premy de act is buy liao..but nv pass to her..den now donno put where le..haha..

I reali veri happi now lehz..hope will alwaes be liddat..azizah..don ask mi be ur da sao la..i be ur darling jiu hao liao.haha..i noe u got motive de worz..i happy till siao liao..tml my pri sch having road show at lot..tink going support ba..not sure lehz..see how..i haven revise my phy..geo..and do all amahs qns again lehz..haha..jus now i read thru all e testy i haf..i laugh til siao..coz hor..beri funni ma..nvm..i crazy liao..gtg..do cl hwk..nite nite.

wad to do????

2005-01-14T23:17:00.000-08:00

wah..quite long i nv blog ba..tis whole wk pass veri fast..nv went sch on wed..reali sick.in morning got terrible headache..i woke up walked 2 steps i collaspe lehz..dizzy oso..too tired le ba...den is all bout test and test...amaths and physics..phy is revision..but amaths..haiz..

i can oni rmb wad happen ytd..and todae..short term.ytd ar..cried my heart out..den todae mela sae my eyes swollen..in e morning cant open lehz..den on e wae to sch eyes beri pain.den liddat lorz..strange why i cry rite..i kip telling myself i get over it le..but when i read ppl blog..everyting seemed to be happening now..y...y liddat..argh..

Todae whole dae was i distracted..at times i will stared blankly into e mid air..but todae was a short dae..yj kena chicken pox..hope she wil get well soon..will miss her de..after sch suppose go out wif meiyu dey all..but nv..coz dey no wait for mi..den wan go lib..but went out wif wansin dey all instead.guess i go wher..bball court..i got play...but is lyk 15mins oni ba..coz i donno how play de..anihow one..dere got yongchuan..keatsiong.wenbin..azizah..wansin..qisong..geroge..see em play beri sian..den all acc mi go lot one..to walk aimlessly..haha..fri lehz..muz slack abit ma..den i found out mani tings..wah..why so mani ppl fan bout love..aiyoh...haiz..den i found out 2 tings..i was bit shocked..haha..reali..i reali no realise it..den after tt went home..somebodi msg mi..ask mi to accept him..2nd time asking mi le..i reject again.feel so bad..soo sorry..i still cannot get over wad happen few wks ago..how to accpet new de..so reali out of qns la..donno lehz..tt somebodi stil sae wan make mi feel tt he is sincere..omg..he sae he will sae he love mi in front of everybodi..hope he nv do it.coz is lyk...hmmm..nvm...love reali complicated la..and it sucks too..coz mani of my frenz are hurt by it lo..though mani are veri happy too..but more ppl sad den happi..

at nite went causeway..wif family..acc grandpa go buyy hp..den told my dar dar and darling...dar dar mela..darling azizah..haha..told em wad i found out..mela kip laugh lehz..beri funni ar..lolx..told ppl tt..if at one time..when more den one person lyk e same person..veri cham..reali cham..i mean e person who lyk..and e person tt is being lyk..i tink ppl wont under wad i am toking about..don under jiu treat it as i toking craps..easy rite..haha..sae tt got mani tings hide inside heart veri xingku de..but donno how to write here oso..how lehz..i nid ppl listen to mi ar..haha..tml going watch movie..wif mela and donno who else..long time nv watch le..and i got amaths to do rite now..k la..budbye..

damn it

2005-01-11T22:14:00.000-08:00

tis days busy wif my amaths..studying and revising.got ppl helping mi when i donno..not bad ar..lolx.ytd vin helped mi wif e qns.now teach till indices le..retake my simultaneous test todae..tink i can score well??donno lehs.no np for sec3 tml.can relax abit.but i felt tt to and ncos are treating us differently coz of wad happen.and i simply don lyk it..tml is cca day.sec1 are to join np if dey put it for 1st choice..and yet.sec3 cant get to see em.both azizah and mi are sort of enthu to see.see how ba..see if we can pop by tml..i jus managed to handle simultaneous and was able to do it quite well..and comes indices..if dere is a test.sure gonna fail again.muz get more practice le.no longer can slack.i feeling damn sleepy rite now.read so many blogs.getting more and more ppl asking mi to jus get over wif it.let go and start tings anew.tis prob isnt affecting mi tt much.oni at times i tink bout it..close to tears..but nv flow out.had a nightmare bout it ytd..coz mi to lose slp.omg..wad de hell man.i jus cant ta han man.i jus explode.coz i cant tolerate..wad is happening..why become so bad temper.argh..nonono..muz be back e usual mi.coz i hate myself(e current one)..coz it reali sucks.i am reali tired..and seeing my frenz get hurt coz of one word..love..it hurts mi even more.one ting to sae.love sucks..i seemed to be veri agitated.coz i am trying to get my feelings out here.i totally agree wif mela or whoeva who sae tt is better to be loved den to love..loving some1 is hard..and stil got smth..y are gals usually e one who are hurt be tis word love..i asking stupid qns..lolx.uttering rubbish here.aiya..as long as he and her r happy jiu hao le la.cny here faster come..i wan go malaysia and get out of tis place man..haha..kk..jus a short one..gonna slp..ZzZZZzzz..tAke CarE

wad to do?

2005-01-09T21:40:00.000-08:00

todae spend most of my time doing amaths..went grandma hse in e afternoon..mood was slightly better den ytd..but my sis spoil it again..i jus managed to get him off my mind lo..den she go mention him..for wad sia..nth better to do lo..ytd told ping tt if i don haf e energy to continue to hang on..i may not be able to survive le..den she thought i wanna do foolish tings ba..i can assure u all i wont do foolish ting de..i reali stress wif amaths lo..haven used to sec3 life..i reali got no more energy le..but i wont gif up jus yet..i muz thnx lpd for e support..ppl kip asked mi wad is lpd..is lan peh dong lo..make up of most ppl frm 2/5..den got randy..qiuliang..lao vin..lao vin is chairman..jovan is leader..others i not beri sure lehz..these few days when i am feeling low..is ping and mela who are supporting mi..i reali admire fifi lehz.she is feeling so low yet she can stay happy for us..not wanting to affect ppl mood...but i cant..i oso don wish to affect ppl mood jus coz of my mood la..though ppl wont..lolx..i will try to get over it de..and be e cheeful me..i rmb francis peh tell mi to be a cheerful mei of his ma..i will try my veri best de..u all muz oso support mi..hehez..ppl asked mi to get over wif him and find another one..easier sae den done worz..i will try to get over it asap..but not to find one as yet..mi now got fear le ar..same as fifi liao..

aniwae todae i enjoyed myself at grandma hse..my cousins cheer mi up..i was watching tv..den i told my mama tt why when ppl wan get married..deir family will ask from e guys side for money..lyk selling daughter lehz..den beri funni.mama go tell my papa.sae i sae tt when i get married i don wan dem ask money frm e guy side.when did i sae tt huh..uncle teased mi sae e guy is soo lucky.todae dey kip teased mi lo..sae muz find wad type of guy for mi.lame lehz..but i acc dem joke lo..since dey so happi..den tok bout cny.my dream will nv come true le..i reali looking forward to cny..but not valentine..for godness sake..haha..every yr de valentine is a nightmare..so terrible de..especially now..k la..gtg le..wanna slp..tml den got energy..mi and yj alwaes sae every sch dae is lyk fighting for e country in war..so tml muz go and fight again..no energy how fight..how survive..so muz go slp le..nite nite..

love sucks

2005-01-08T23:45:00.000-08:00

ytd sae so mani tings..i still haven managed to get all my sadness out..i am veri angri wif those who scold fifi coz of wad her blog sae..i read her tagboard liao jiu veri angri...she reali nv insult yuqi lo..i agree wif fifi..we both haf e same fate..

todae no mood go out de..so when lpd asked mi go out i sae don wan..fifi asked mi go study amaths i oso don wan..wayne asked mi go plaza wif him..jieyang and gela..but i oso don wan..but mama asked mi go out..sae wanna buy clothes for mi..so jiu go out lo..went chinatown..papa go buy cny de decoration..den went makan..msg him and her..explain tings to dem..den he replied mi..i breakdown lo..at foodcourt lehz..papa saw..he asked mi why i cry..i sae eyes veri pain.luckily he believed mi.if not sure qns mi de..tt excuse make no sense..yet he believed mi..cute papa.wonder why i cried rite.i still cant accept e fact lo.den sorry tis word reali got no impact on mi le.no power liao..sorry no cure..but don expect anyting la.den after tt..i was veri moody..mama asked mi help her search for tings..i dere anyhow find..my sis bought 3shirts and 2 skirts..my mama bought 1..i bought mine in tis fashion and og..2shirts and 1 skirt..skirt is army green de..finalli got black shirt..mama sae i looked great in it..so jiu buy for mi lo....and 1 sleeveless de shirt..white colour wif orange and red strips..these gonna be my new yr clothings le..my aunt bought mi one skirt in kl le..so getting it during new yr ba..slightly cheer up..but all those clothings is i pay de lehz..act is papa pay de..he sae ytd i get my scholarship le jiu asked mi pay lo..i still rmb last yr he sae i sure cant get top5% de..sae will proof to him de..and i managed to..

went home after tt lo..veri tired..ytd i totalli no mood do amaths..msn oso nobodi tok to mi..jiu fal aslp..wif my com on lo..den mama wake mi up at 1.30..sae why no switch off com..den sae 4get..read e testy i asked rong write for mi..beri stupid u noe..mani ppl noe who e he i haf been referring to le..strange rite..y tell dem oni after i was rejected..donno lehz..dey kip asked mi..jiu tell lo..den jus now i read smth till wan breakdown again..but nv la..later parents get suspicious.jus eyes watery lo.too personal tings i shall not write here animore le..coz i not in e position to feel tt sour way animore liao..all e doubts i haf in my previous blog haf been clear..hope he is not bluffing mi..wondering how am i gonna live on as lyk last time lehz..mela and ping shall suffer..coz dey gonna listen to all my unhappiness ma..pour alll my sorrows on em..haha..i veri bad rite.reali tired.still got 6 amaths qns to do lehz.wondering if i pass my test.if fail..i reali useless le la.wu yao ke jiu..k la..go do hw le.byes

suay!!!!!!!!

2005-01-07T23:34:00.000-08:00

2005 is not my year..is only 7days after new year..and damn mani tings happpen..all causing mi to hurt soo much..i tell u..i hate tis year..i hate tis world..i hate myself for being a fool..wad is happening to mi..why am i so foolish...argh...

tis world of mine is getting no wher..i donno which direction i shld head to now..it was on wed when i started to suspect tt dey stead..but i kept quiet..i was reali busy wif my amaths..i cant handle it well..so working beri hard for it..ytd morning sort of analyis e situation..but when i read her blog i was scanning thru..coz reali busy..so nv get all details..and at nite.i read it carefully...tt time i still cant cfm lo..but u tink..if a guy doesnt lyk a gal..will he hold his hand..will he hug her..all tis kept repeating in my mind..it was when she sae sorry to mi..didnt mean to hide it from mi..tt was when i finalli noe e truth..of coz cant accept la..i cried...i cried almost e whole nite..polished np boots oso not shiny le..why..why liddat..reali sad..till now lo..jus too mani tings i cant under...though i noe le..i reali hope he is e one hu tell mi e truth..and not her..but he nv even bother to sae anyting..haf i love e wrong person..haf i trust ppl wrongly..are both of dem innocent or wad..haf he cheated my feelings??all tis qns..i still cant get it...why issit liddat..why?????..i jus don under...was i a fool since e beginning?..or since last sat or sun...which one issit..can anybodi tell mi...i rmb i sae be4..even if ending was her..will still be frenz..i will still be his mei..now i donno la..shld i jus let both of dem go..or wad..but will i continue to be a fool...aiyoh..i not oni sad lo..i oso angry..donno la..

todae not a good day lo..went cls tt time..after cl tt test..put head on table..i cried..tink of him..and her..when everi tink of tt..my eyes sure red de...nv ate luch..no dinner too..coz i no appetite la.during np...i was going to cry out le..but hold it back..jus be4 muster parade lo..natalie saw it..coz she gek mi de ma..nvm..not her fault la..she jus trying cheer mi up nia..den i was lyk so sad liao..noe i fail promotion test..i reali useles..donno why i existed in tis world..mayb i shld jus disappear..fail lo..by 3 marks..i reli sad lo..feel tt i reali useless..good at nth..y in tis world got such idiotic ppl lyk mi..don belong here..shldnt be here in e 1st place..hais...ms tan sae will help mi ask ci see how..den will oni retake campcraft moi..hais...howeva..muster parade was a success.mani ppl praised e goh...ms sim oso got sae..overheard it.

thought tt can end e day nicely..but nv tink tt..np...happen such ting..omg...i cant accept it lo..i thouroughly noe e situation le..clear wif ncos and my squadmates le..but some tings cant be cfm..donno la..is not tt serious de..why make it so serious..sec4 at fault..so are we..everybodi in e wrong lo..i donno la..help hu i oso donno..in middle ba..i useless rite..own sec3 oso don wan help..i wan help both..settle out e easy way.now even to and ci oso noe le..cfm tings will grow worst..so muz settle it..cant let to and ci take over tis matter..if not will nv end..i noe tt sec3 reputation haf gone down..alot..i meant np ppl la..but muz get situation rite lo..wad happen outside..got 3 possible de..1st is when np ppl tok tt time..sae bout wad happen..causing outside ppl overheard it..and wanna settle it.but dey not tt kpo ba.2nd is tt...is sec3 ppl fault..coz dey ask ppl..3rd possible will be is sec4 fault..but nobodi wan admit or sae anyting..so is unknown lo..now hu fault is not impt at all..settle it will be best..calmly and not violently..no wish cont bout tis le la.

i am still damn fan and sad bout wad happen ytd..words kept echoing lo..whenever it happen..make my heart hurt so much..i rmb he alwaes sae no wish to hurt any1..but in e end..i was hurt so much..i no wish to sae le la..mi and him over le..i don wanna break dem up..jus be it la..erase e memories i haf wif him and her e last few months..jus 4get dem man..i worked up again le..don wan tok..if not later all words come out..i gonna explode again...

2nd day of schooling

2005-01-04T21:10:00.000-08:00

tis is e 2nd day after sch reopen..ytd oni intro..nth much..but our chers all lyk soo strict de..but nth much happen la..aniwae...todae was a terrible day la..coz 1st ting is pe...den ks sae can wear unit tee for pe de..so i nv wear pe shirt..but tt cher don allow..though in sch u..muz still join dem run..but i wanna run too..den run wif fifi...when nid to turn..she accidentally tripped mi..i fell flat onto e road..dey asked mi stand up..but i cant move lo..coz i panicked ma..den leg was lyk soo pain.head oso pain..coz was lyk u knocked ur head against e wall real hard..i didnt noe my lips were bleeding till some1 told mi.i thought my facen oso got injuries leh.lucky don haf.haha..den was mrs philip cls..she tok alot..but all quite make sense la.den beri sian le..rest of e day i was lyk half awake..oni looking 4ward to orientation..still ok la..heard frm premy got 102 register..quite happi la..haha..but after we changed..coz e boys changed beri slow..we kena pumped..but my kness caps got glazes ma.so nv do..den nco wan sin and yong chuan debrief..but all oso bad tings la..den nat..sandy..junyi..jovan reason wif dem..act dey are rite lo..all those who didnt haf lunch are sec2..though i nv eat..coz i don wan eat de..sec2 sae dey were helping out..so no lunch..wrong lo..i was dere since i change my full u..e sec2s were falling in in front of mi..i pinning notices ma..den after tt..all were not around..it was e sec3 who haf ate deir lunch den come back..oni tt did e sec2 come back..haha..but nvm la..over le..ytd sandy and nat forced mi tell who i lyk..den in e end is sandy guess dao de..more and more ppl noe hu i lyk le...cham liao la..planning to get over...now become more and more ppl noe i lyk hu..haiz..stupid lehz..i reali donno la..even got ppl tell mi..tt dey thought dey two stead..if not will sae dey two look lyk stead lehz..how will u feel when u heard tt..totally nth to sae lo..e two is him and her..aiya..donno la..i realised tt i lyk to sae i donno..tml dere is np..on thur and fri oso got..sat plan to go out..wif hu donno lehz..i am having a terrible runny nose..cause my eyes to drop tears..ok le..gtg finish reading tt xi you ji..byes

sch reopen

2005-01-02T21:20:00.000-08:00

ytd i slept at 5..but not feeling tired at all de...wad happen had happened..nobodi is at fault..as for my decision..i not certain bout it yet..is e feeling tt is preventing mi frm giving up..i donno wad to sae bout it at all..do u noe tt..tis days..e same ting haf been echoing in my ears..e same image tt i see..i wanna seeked for advice den..but it was so late..suppose frenz are aslp..make e decision myself..ask mi if i will regret...i will sae i donno..i reali donno...dere will be sch tml...it will kip mi occupied..suppose i wont tink bout it den..hope so ba..i would lyk to listen to wad he haf got to sae..bout e decision i make..though is not final..and i am not certain if i could 4get him.i reali donno..tis same ting kept appearing in my mind..todae i went out wif my family and grandpa..supposingly was to acc my grandpa to buy a hp..but nv..coz he dosent lyk those models..i was quiet e whole journey..dere is nth to sae..my mum kept scolding mi..i jus kept quiet and listen to wad haf she got to sae..stomach cramps is killing mi..causes mi to lose my appettite..didnt ate much tis days..suppose i grew thinnier instead of fatter...gonna become bamboo real soon..haha...after tt i went to lot..acc mama go ntuc buy some groceries..guess who i saw..wes lo..his reaction beri funni..he was wif his papa..nv sae hi to him..coz mama call mi ma..i oso bit suprised to see him dere..but sae hi to him thru msg..is bit lame..there is nth for mi to do..so muz find tings to do..jus tt sentence..though my decision is not final..she is e best for him..but i am not him la..he shld be e oni one hu noe hu is e best for him..wad am i toking about..seems lyk i am starting to utter rubbish..aniwae..change my blogskin..rmb gif mi ur comments..i can see tt mani ppl miss deir frenz..i am looking forward to seeing dem...but i miss 2/5...and i reali do...not oni i miss..dere are mani classmates who are too..wish every1 in 2/5 alll da best...and take care..2/5 spirit shall always stay...

funni dae..haha

2005-01-02T00:32:00.000-08:00

todae is reali a funni day lehz..went to my grandma hse..act oni got my family..my er yi ma family..and si yi family dere..but hor..my da yi ma..and uncle turns up too..reali crowded..aniwae..5 cousins..my sis and mi went to play at canal again..haha..tis time beri special..coz dere is a boat..not reali a boat la..is used air pumped de..donno wad it is call..haha..but lots of fun la..we were totally wet..soaked in e water..and guess wad..every1 fell down..coz it was slippery..oni 1 cousin..my er yi ma and mi no fall down..even my uncle oso fell down..scary lehz..but reali funni..veri cold..play from 4.30 to 6.20 liddat..coz wan to rain le ma..den got mani ppl see us play..lyk beri childish..haha..not reali lo..coz cousin next yr 17 yrs old oso play..haha..we watched 2 vampire shows..but alll i watched be4 le..everybodi was laughing..soo funni lehz..alot of food to eat..but i nv eat..2005 le lehz..but still cant 4get all e sad tings..bothering mi lehz..haiz..mayb sch reopen ba..wif frenz sure faster 4get de..lolx..suddenly miss sch lehz..but still 2004 e best..haha..ytd mood swings..frm high to low..after using com..haha..stupid rite..but todae lehz..uncle no scold my sis la..but is mama scold..aiyo...new year lehz..muz happi ma..lyk i todae soo happi..except morning la..coz mama scold mi ma..i bth lo..nv check tings out jiu scold..at grandma hse oso lidddat..she ask mi scoop dessert for grandma..den papa scold mi sae i not feeling well still anihow drink..see...adults hor..anihow de..nv check tings out jiu scold...but xi guan le la..haha..k la..i shivering le..beri cold..bye

HappY NEw YeAr

2005-01-01T02:30:00.000-08:00

yoz yoz..jus reached home not long ago..haha..firstly..a veri happy new year to everyone..may all ur dreams come true..

Ytd nv blog coz i am sick...jus got better tis evening...now wif flu..went to heart centre wif my mama and sis..coz dere is a tea reception..papa being e patient shld haf gone..but he is soo devoted to work tt he dosent wan to go.haha..is lyk so strange.beri stupid lehz..adult go to main hall..chidren go watched magic show..guess where did i go?i went to chidren section..aiyoh..and i was e oldest dere..e magician asked every1 to take a balloon.but of coz.i nv take la..haha..not oni mi.a few oso nv take.oni those real children take it.after e boring magic show.dey gif us chicky meal.2 toys and one packet of milo.i was lyk back to e times when i was soo keen to watch magic show.my mama got a hamper on behalf of my papa.it was reali heavy.and i haf to carry it.but most of e time, mama carry it la..haha..

todae lehz.not much moood.started e day wif mi still sick.i was reali in a beri bad mood.last day of 2004 lehz..yet i liddat.haha..but mood improve la..went yew tee wif family.haf our dinner.chicken chop.i sick still can eat fries all tt lehz.haha.i love chicken chop.so delicious.haha..den went pasar malam..correct sp?donno lehz..shopped lo..nth much de.beri sian.somemore rained heavily lehz.den i kip tell mama i wan black de pencil case.wallet.clothes..den she sae y i suddenly love black soo much.coz hor.i jus realised it is a nice colour ma.though got another reason la.haha..but she sae ppl who lyk black not good de.don believe her lehz.haha..

now shall sae bout my new year..yeah..went to countdown..is at yew tee dere oso la.at 1st beri sian de.nth to do i msg ppl lo.haha..but later ppl started to get hot~!~!reali..ppl started to dance..sing.all those stuffs la.den e countdown was fantastic.beri fun..of coz bout 10 smth liddat i msg alot of ppl..but some i after 12 den wished de..haha..i am reali soo happy..started e year soo nicely..mani of dem replied my msg..haha..til now still got ppl wishing mi happy new year lehz..so touched.and those who nv reply mi during christmas oso got reply mi.not all la.but some.haha..new yr lehz..1st to wish de is shuwee..tt was 3 days ago..and mani be4 new year..1st to wish after 12 wad rong.den got mani others..mela..fifi..ping..ws..francis peh..afiqah..wt..pei rong..and mani others..i cant rmb all of dem.hehez.reali enjoy myself todae.but weather beri cold ar.got mani ppl lyk mi who are sick.muz hao hao take care worz.den at e countdown dere oso got donation for e victims of e disasters..mama got donate.i oso got.haha.while enjoying oso can help ppl ma.is a good ting.

tis is my 1st entry for 2005..so muz make it memorable one.a brand new year le..all those sad tings shall put down and carry on wif life.start anew ma..as long as ppl around mi are happi..i wil oso be happy de..ytd got tings tell ppl de..but wan every1 haf a nice new yr ma.so i nv sae lo..haha.now i oso donno wan sae or not.nvm la.enjoy tis wonderful new yr 1st.tml will be gathering wif all my relatives at my grandma hse.tink i will enjoy myself ba.hope my uncle wont scold my sis le.den it will be happy family ma..lolx.but no more bbq.papa lo.sae bbq beri troublesome.but nvm la.anyting oso can de.k la..gtg le..beri cold.once again..happy 2005..thanks for all those who wished mi happy new year.haha

haiz...loving u is hard..

2004-12-29T22:48:00.000-08:00

yeah..todae spend e day at home..exploring my fone..nth special de lehz..lolx..ytd when i at west mall..i saw mr tan liang hooi..den mela called mi sae wad saw ws on tv..haha..so at nite mi go watched lo..got see la..but it was beri quick de..u nv conc jiu wont see it de.beri sad lehz..those disasters causing so much death..penang is affected rite?..quite a number of relatives at dere lehz..no news bout dem..wondering dey alright or not..haiz..den my tang ge..cousin la in sri lanka lehz..bout 2 wks ago he went dere to work..wonder if he return to kl le ma?...hope every1 is alright ba..and tt e disasters will stop..liddat no more life will be taken away..but we are rather fortunate tt we are not affected by it..though those disaster causes s'pore to rain and haf strong winds..i heard from e news de la..lolx..mi not expert..ytd lehz..oso tink bout smth again..haha..long time no tink lehz..now wan use brain lyk bit retarded le..donno why i go tink bout it lo..haha..ended up mi being fan..soo stupid lehz..not reali la..i got smth wan sae out..but don wish sae here lehz..haha..now i noe how ppl feel when dey are act hurt by wad ppl sae..but haf to pretend nth happen...terrible lehz..act i oso nv do much tinking la..is continue frm wher i stop ma..got tink thru le..haha..wan noe wad jiu ask mi lo..todae noe tt some1 wwas rejected..can under e feeling de..muz hao hao an wei tt some1..haha..den tml going out wif mama..den go tai sing..sian lehz..fri lehz..my ah yi asked us go her hse..but my uncle..her husband la..don lyk my sis ma..so don tink mama going le..stupid lehz..adult lyk children liddat..so ji chou de..bth him lehz..sat having bbq..later eat le i sick again..haha..choy..wan enjoy de..tts all lo..these days ppl seldom update lehz..i sian oso got nth to read..haha..ok la..mi go do smth 1dt..bye..

yeah...hoorayy!!!!!

2004-12-28T22:00:00.000-08:00

todae beri fun lehz..went khatib wif mama..she went her fren house take smth..den papa joined us after work..haha...well..unclel bought mi a new hp..woosh..nokia 6230..i exploreed till no batt le...charging now..soo happi...lolx..but not beri sure bout e memory tingy lehz..i wan take fotos..haha..soo lame..haha..den wt sae wes is her gan ah gong..so i her gan ah yi..not bad lehz..got neice again...lolx..coz wes my paPa ma..liddat beri complicated lehz..she sae zy and sher shld oso call mi gan ah yi..lyk soo old hor..den their mother shuying..den who bigger..mi or her..aiyoh..chim ar..nvm nvm..lol..nth to blog le lehz..oh..jus rmb..mama told mi tt uncle of mine complained to my yi ma tt he don lyk my sis..see her not happi..listen le become i not happi..lolx...nvm..aniwae..sch wanna reopen le..beri happi..but oso sad ar..cannot enjoy tt much le ma..lol..sad sad...ok la..gtg le..oso nth much to sae liao..a new year is gonna begin..so muz start life anew..lolx..

2004..

2004-12-27T22:07:00.000-08:00

in tis blog would lyk to summarise e yr..haha..2004 coming to e end le..wanna look back how tis yr haf been for mi..
In jan..starting of sch..every1 busy wif all e new tings..orientations..all those..and of coz cny..busy collecting ang bao..haha..rmb tt i spend it in malaysia..wif those fireworks..all those stuffs..and rmb in jan there is valentine day..lyk i sae in e previous blog..is so stupid..stilll rmb how it was lyk when i was shopping in bugis junction..jan was definitely filled wif fun and joys..
In feb lehz..cant recall much..oni rmb jovan bday..celebrate at cck stadium..is soo farni tt day..somemore i tricked him..haha..tt month we kept going stadium..e boys traning for sports day ma..but forgot when was sports day le..
as for march lehz...my sis bday..haf bbq at my hse..was veri fun...cant rmb much too..but i tink march was sports day ba..forgot liao..jus rmb tt red hse got champion and 2nd in cheering..not bad sia..haha..and still got my neice bday..she is 1 yr old tis yr..
april lehz..got april fool day..tricked number of ppl i rmb..but hu i forgot le..tt month oso nth much happen..
My month..may..haha..tis month is full of activites..1st is e may adventure camp..it was at may road..everyting is may..lolx..i rmb i was gang bang by lddz...wif powder somemore..doing e high elements..ppl teasing mi coz of tt..and 29 may..big day...coz my bday..haha..received a number of presents..not forgetting a unique one...lolx..where almost e whole class chipped in to buy tt..29 may was oso e class bbq..tt day leh..rmb ppl teased mi..den at nite uncle treated mi pizzaz..tt month cant forgot de is e camp..was reali nice..
HAd my bday celebration oni in june..5 june..i rmb tt..but was not beri happi tt day itself..rmb mela sae tt..those invite all got come..nv invite de oso come...still rmb ws not happi wif my dad over how to start e fire..haha..soo stupid lehz..and francis..peh i meant..came my party..haven half wae..he gone liao..tt day angri wif him..still can rmb..haha..still got smth happen..but is in e past le..no wish mention..sad tings don nid rmb de..
July lehz..i rmb..np pop..haha..e day when i noe rong..lolx..in np for 2 yrs..oni tt time i noe him..pro rite..fate ba..stillll rmb i cry..not oni mi..alot of ppl..coz sec4 passing out ma..tink le bit stupid lehz..haha..liddat ba..
Aug got national day..haha..spend at national stadium...not bad la..den rmb i walked wrong..kena scold my papa..and den ssy bday..mi and ping bought him one small cake..and kip dropped on e floor..wonder how it looked lyk in e end...den 20 aug..fifi bday..tt time..mi and lddz not on good terms..so fifi bday tt day mi suppose go out wif rong..but he nv turned up..haha..now tink le lyk bit lame lo...liddat ba..
Sept lehz..mid autumn festival ar..haha...beri fun..still can rmb...but tt day i was lyk shy shy liddat..tink le bit stupid lehz...oso e month i found out i lyk him..liddat lo..jus now read thru chat log..found tt i was so lame...haha..e way i was jealous..reali funni lehz...
oct lehz..went for class outing..go bus trail..haha..stilll rmb tt..np ppl was scolded by ms tan..den leslie sae 2/5 muz go le..haha..fly kite at marina..beri fun...den oso lehzz..15 oct..confessed to him..haha..tt month was liddat lo..
nov..start of sch holi..but oso tis is e month tt i was mostly sad...feeling guilty..all those stuffs la..but lehz..tink le hor..i tink 11 nov saddest day of e year ba...or mayb coz got deeper memories of it..so found it beri sad..donon lehz..haha..jus rmb tt day..whole day no slp..not oni happened to mi..to 2 other ppl too ba..tink liao..reali donno wad to sae..but wks after tt..tings back to normal..however..i still rmb i veri fan..kip tink..told ping soo mani tings..but at least i found a solution to 1 prob..not bad liao la...haha..
dec lehz..np chalet..mani tings can happen jus in one day sia..nv reali enjoy myself..so bit sad la..den lehz..christmas eve..argh...tt day so terrible..stay at home at nite..while ppl celebrate..tt type of feeling..terrible lehz..tis month oni liddat lo..and..cry over smth tt i see wrongly..haha..reali gong lehz mi..tis month is better den last month la...managed to be lyk be4..not too bad la..as for all my previous entries..wad wanting to know for an ans...is lyk not tt impt now le..coz hor..asking him for it..make him fan...liddat make mi sad..so for wad..let nature takes its course ba..haha..though got ans better la..aiyoh...toking rubbish le..
In summary..2004 was full of happiness...sadness...but definitely more happiness den sadness ma ..tts all lo..haha..tis yr lyk nth much happen lehz..looking forward to next yr..haha..tts all ba..nth to write le..bye..

kampong days..

2004-12-26T22:41:00.000-08:00

ytd i slept at 3..long time nv soo late den slp le lehz...haha..he was e last one to wish mi merry christmas..last one leave a deeper impression..lolx..ytd la..played gb till so late den slp..todae went to grandma house lo..told mama ren ri is on tues..she sae beri good..den i sae valentine day on mon lehz..got sch..haha..she sae i got valentine mehz?..on which dae ooso not my prob..coz i wan go out wif frenz de ma..she sae no valentine i cant go out..stupid sia..and my sis..kip sae i got valentine..mama kip ask mi hu tt guy..i innocent ok..lolx..went dere..my cousins wif my sis went to e cannel dere to play..i nv join dem..coz wanna watch tv...and i beri not happi wif my uncle..noe wad..he dosent lyk my sis..and kip suan her..sae she beri notti teach his children all e bad tings..small small ting oso scold my sis lo..i see till cant ta han..mama got help shoot back..every1 help us..haha..sae tt uncle crazy le la..later i join my cousins..my yi ma oso go cannel dere play..put e paper boat on e water...den it float..beri nice..play till bout 7..den went eat my dinner...got sambal kangkong..fish soup..fried hotdogs..prawns..and french fries..ate till beri full..we having a bbq on sat..for new year de..haha..act wan it to be on fri..but papa sae wan bring us go out..fifi coming along wib us too..haha..we joked around...den every1 laugh till stomachache...wad i love e most is tt when ppl joke..and ppl laugh..is lyk dey are reali enjoying themselves..mama bought mi a new sling bag..from seiyu de..beri nice lehz..i lyk it..den they sae bout deir childhood..den dey sae...last time dey at my age..alreadi got stead le..den 18..19 yrs old jiu married le..haha..last time ma..den dey kip sae mi time to find 1..but dey joking de la..ask mi study hard...studies 1st worz..lolx..and my stupid uncle..we wan go home le stilll wan scold my sis..reali lyk both of dem ba ri bu he sia..looking forward to next wk..but don wish sch to reopen lehz..haha..last time lehz..mi..mela..fifi and meiyu...we in sch alwaes veri excited de..especially when going past sec4..but now..hais..no more excitment le..i tink now we are looking forward to sch ends ba...haha..these days muz spend it wif joys and fun..if not sch reopen jiu no time le..who at home beri sian de..can ask mi go out..i too free le..haha..lyk advertising sia..okla..mi gtg le..bye bye

quite enjoyed myself

2004-12-25T12:45:00.000-08:00

todae was full of programme..my cousin woke mi up at 10 wif a fone call..asking mi to go swimming..and i sae ok..lolx..they came my hse at 1.3o i tink..was having my lunch den..disappointed tt dey not going mirabel dere..i meant my frenz..lolx..swam till bout 3 plus..jingwen was reali cute..she was shivering yet she wan continue to swim..ppl al sae she beri cute..lolx..i love her soo much lehz..cant wait to see her again..after i went home..fifi came my hse...she is going to orchard wif mi and my parents..haha..1st time got fren go out wif my family seh..orchard was still crowded wif ppl..but todae nobodi bang onto mi..wad a relief..haha..wwent eat at taka dere e food court..soo crowded..and my family plus fifi was soo angry at 6 ppl..coz oni 2 children eating ice cream..finish le still sat at dere tok for soo long..when dey could see tt is crowded wif many ppl hoping to find a seat..my dad sort of sae dem..so does fifi..suppose those ppl pissed off..haha..who noes..after we found our seats..oni did they get up..stupid lorz..christmas..haha..les dey all enjoy it alot...but e gals..all sian..we were walking across e road..and saw mani tings tt were left behind after ytd celebration..we were angry..coz we didnt get to join in e fun...furthermore..my sis kept mention bout it..well..1st person to wish mi merry christmas is mela i tink..last is ws..ytd i send soo many msg u noe..and it was lyk..oni lddz reply mi..i send to mani seniors lorz..none reply..xcept ws..i was hoping him to msg mi..but too bad la..till now oso donno where he...no msg him..donno lehz..lolx..wes papa got wished mi..but is lyk i ask him wish de..no fun one..now i noe le..new yr don xpect mi msg to those stupid sec4s i tell u..muz act big..ait for dem msg mi..haha..nola..see 1st lo..see i still angry not..at least sae ty rite..no reply..nth u noe..now finalli noe how impt i am to dem..but hor..did dey receive my msg in e 1st place..lolx..don care dem liao..we shopped till bout 8plus..den went took 190..fifi went hoem while my family and i went shopping..at lot..went ate kfc..veri full..lolx..20 mins time..christmas will be over..not sad bout tt..is jus tt..my chritmas wish..will not come true..veri sad bout it lo...ppl always sae..tis special day shld spend wif some1 u lyk..i not saying mi don love my family or don lyk fifi..chritmas muz spend wif family..frenz...and e one u loved...mi oni got 1st two..love don hab..sad hor..nola..jk oni..nice to be single..told fifi tt nice yr valentine..shall go out together..she sae see if tt time we got guy liao not..haha..i don tink i will hab..fifi manyb..tts all ba..tml shld be going to my grandma hse..and for e last time..Merry christmas..!!and finalli..i hate tis yr christmas...is not romantic or nice at all..wahaha..ok la..gtg..bye...

tired and restless...

2004-12-24T21:30:00.000-08:00

well..todae beri sian ar..ytd damn sad...coz todae act no programme de ma...lolx..rong ask mi join dem tml..i sae don wan...morning..beri strange lehz..my papa..i meant wes ar..haha..msg mi..stunned dao u noe..lolx..ask mi join dem todae..say bout 30 of dem going steamboat..haha..i go confirm oni sec2..extra u noe..though i noe dem la..lolx..ks msg mi sae todae not going watch kungfu hustle liao...den..eh..i msg my pri sch fren lo..haha...lucky she free..pei mi go orchard...i was dere bout 3.30...den alreadi veri crowded..kena target by ppl for 2 times...donation ar..2nd time got help..haha..i cant escape lo..tt person..aiyo..nvm...lolx..walk from tangs to ps lehz..beri far..walked till i leg pain...is reali crowded...ppl wif many presents...tis yr lehz...i receive 4 presents...2keychain..i necklace..1 foto frame...todae christmas eve nia..haven christmas yet..haha..so still got time for my wish to come true..but will it come true..tt one i reali donno..nth special happen at orchard..xcept got some performance...mi wan see santa claus de lehz..but nv see..bit disappointed...frm ps..we took mrt to cck..welll...e mrt was soo crowed..can u imagine u are being squeeze till crazy...reali lots of ppl..oni after orchard ppl get down..lolx..lot one was crowded too...wif mani ppl shopping..and number of sales..we went to eat at food court...after tt shopped for a while den went home..reached home bout 8.30...haha..mama sae muz get home by 1 am..nv tink tt i soo early went home..coz my fren busy ma...christmas countdown not fun de..wan jiu new year de...morning discuss wif mama..mayb holding a party..mama wan cooked my grandma de curry chicken..i rmb vin...randy dey all love it..wonder if dey are free...haha..mi even plan for it le lehz..if wan bbq..food jiu we ownself pay..other food mama will pay lo..i even tink of hu to invite..haha..tink too far le...if is not on new year eve..den new year eve..jiu sian lo..haha..donno lehz..mama no confirm yet..aniwae..tml going fort canning..got christmas party..my thumbs up facilitator organise de..oni got mi..my sis..fifi..mela..and ying jie going..e rest i not sure lehz..so tml will be settle..7 to 10..shld organise it todae ma..den can countdown...sad lo..lol..tinking of him rite now..bleahs..will he be e 1st to wish mi merry christmas..haha..wont lo...coz got 3 ppl wish mi le..haha..beri tired lehz..muz stay awake till midnight..haha..donno why..tis days..ppl kip tok to mi bout valentine day..ask mi when..is 14 feb..muz rmb ar..i not going to go out on tt day liao..coz tis yr..i go where..oso surrounded by couples lo..i see le bth u noe..lol..unless..next yr...got guy ask mi out..chances of it is slim..lolx..but go out wif frenz i oso no mind la...ok la..i go play gb le..lolx..finalli change my rank..lolx..ok la...a happy merry christmas to all of u...hohoho..enjoy urselves..

damn it man..

2004-12-23T23:06:00.000-08:00

todae..went np..haha..now den i noe i 3 parade no go le..haha..well..tt yx..see mi sae pon np somemore lo..i heck him..haha..den dere dey sae jovan going guang ming shan..in el is bright tomo hill..haha..xj sae de...innovative hor..haha..my duty is wif wei cong..wei qiang..zi xiong..jinda..traffic duty..quite fun la..i beri gong..ncos explained so mani times..i still don under..haha...walked here walked dere..ushered dem go wher..sian..den got 2 parents asked bout e sch..if its good..i dere sae yes..act fingers crossed..haha..den got 1 asked mi if np is a good cca...i sae great..haha..soo mani lies..wahaha..got one lady soo touched by mi..coz she tripped over e roots..wanna fell down..i grabbed her...den asked her careful..she kip sae tyty..sae wanna asked her son join np..coz np service good..haha..after tt i laughed till siao...but got 1 uncle..sae smth tt is a great insult to mi...he looked looked..den sae i am a guy...omg..den he looked again sae..face lyk gal lehz..den i sae excuse mi..i am wearing skirt..he shocked dao sae icic..he trying sae i looked lyk boi boi issit..siao man...i dere gong diao lo..i told my grp e ren..plus wl..tt stupid zx..asked wq i look lyk gal or boi..he sae none..so i call myself a freak..haha..i am a freak~!~!...lolx..cl sir asked why i no go fancy drill selection..i told him y..den he laugh..at least he no sae pon np ma...den we at gate alot of fun la..but later dey change my duty..veri sian lo...tis yr lehz..quite a number of chi bu la..no see shuai ge lehz..haha..got one wear mini skirt come lehz..pro hor..den mi..jy..and wq went break...after tt went canteen..haha..and i found out smth..haha..at canteen i veri not happi lo..tis situation involved mi..junyi..sec3 nco...and 2 sec1 gals..e 2 sec1 gals..1 of dem stead wif tt sec3 nco..no wish mention who..and both of e gals are speaking in mandarin..tis sec3 got remind dem..but no pump dem..and we oso speaking in mandarin..but oso got el lo..e 2 sec1 gals don haf lo..whole way chinese..den tt sec3..ask mi and jy go backyard down 20..damn fed up lo..got stead in np big shot ar..do wrong tings don nid punish issit..jy oso not happi..but i got down la..we were at fault..i agree..so muz punish..tt one nth to sae la..but now is tt..why we r e oni ones..e 2 sec1 big issit..i bth lo..ur stead is nco..jiu big mehz..do wrong tings jiu nvm mehz...i tolerate till now den explode lo..haha..zx asked wad we 2 doing..so sae kena punish..den wl aasked us down 10 can le..but jy 30..den tt sec3..see him i bth..nvm..lac lac lac..jiu liddat la..after tt i totally diam..nv tok at all...den eh..my squadmate..gal lai de join mi..cant sae her name la..if not obvious..i write tis blog is trying vent out my anger..wahaha..call tt person abc la...nvm..don wan sae le...4get it..com veri lag ar..haiz..well..tml gonna stay at home..bth..nobodi pei mi..not bad la..1st time spend christmas eve at home..haha..though i lyk soo sad la..cause mi no mood...well...but i sort of touched..haha..matthew send cards using e bday alarm..haha..now i don nid stay at home le..haha..mood slightly better..but currently aruging wif my sis..my mama e judge..haha..tml not confirm lehz..mayb watch kungfu hustle wif np ppl..wel..i got 1 wish for tis christmas lehz..i mean tt wish obvious lo..is all along wad i hope for..but nvm la..donno i no mind de..haha..coz most likely wont come true....omg....i beri bei guan le la..nvm...no la..wish sae le jiu no fun le...ok la..reali no mood.gtg..bye..haha..

long time no update.,...

2004-12-22T21:29:00.000-08:00

yoz yoz..long time nv update le..haha..these days liddat lo..but veri sian ar..haha..mon i went out wif fifi and mela..together wif my sis..dey went arcade..but i dere veri bo liao lo..nth to do..lolx...we took neoprints..wah..long time no take le lehz..haha..quite nice la..out of 4fotos..i looked nice in one oni..tts wad i tink..haha...den went mac..after tt went home...smth liddat..cant rmb liao..as for ytd..no go np..morning helped mama make tang yuan lo..mama asked mi afternoon den go..but i no go..haha..liddat ba...played gb almost e whole day..veri funni lehz..jus cant conc la..and i keep ask ppl..wad dey going do during christmas eve..haha..dey sae got plans..but kip sae not confirm..siao siao last min don haf..den i do wad...i wan go out de hor..haha..if no go out...will be 1st yr spending it at home...sad u noe...lolx..i wan go beach lehz..my sunrise ar...sian..todae junyi and fifi came my hse..played bad..i reali veri slow lehz..lyk retarted liddat..at 1st i donno how serve de..but now at least i noe how le...though is lyk donno wad..hahaha..better den nth rite..tml going np...eager to see next yr de sec1 lehz..haha...how will dey look lyk??...sian..i haven iron my uniform yet..sian lehz...miss him..haha...got mani tings to do..i nid go buy christmas present..den nid meet lddz..pass dem theirs..for lddz..oni bought 2..still got 4 more to buy..den nid meet rong..gif him his..and ask him pass to wes...coz tt wes hor..sae i tis daughter no good lo...haha..so jiu be good for once...i tinking of askin dem come my hse on christmas eve..for wad i haven tink of..haha...jus anihow tink de la..sian argh..tml 7.15 muz fall in..in full u lo..reali sian..ok la..i shld go and iron my uniform le...cyaz..

back to normal...

2004-12-19T23:45:00.000-08:00

wanna tell u smth tt will make u laugh till peng...eh eh...ytd he told mi tt decision not final..diao..means i waste my precious tears...but donno lehz..cry oso cry le..aiya..i don care liao...haha...chirstmas...i wan christmas presents...haha..tml lehz..i wanna go buy ppl de presents..but mela sae mayb no christmas party liao..den sad lorz...haha..christmas go out wif hu?..got ppl in mind..but don wan ask..haha..lame...todae cousin's bday..went to grandma house to celebrate...i ate alot of food...went dere eat curry chicken wif rice...den eat mee....after tt green bean soup...den curry chicken again...and was bout 5 we started bbq..haha...i ate chicken wings..otak..satay..crabstick..and drank lots of orange juice..tt settle my dinner and supper..haha..my neice was reali cute...e way she do tings..tok and all those...haha..i love her so much..den she kip throw her shoes on e floor..wan mi pick up..i dere gek gek angri..and she cry..haha..she sae scared...haha..i jk oni ma..relac la..haha..but after tt i play wif her she jiu ok le...christmas...argh..how am i going to spend..and new yr...haha..so mani tings...class chalet i no feel lyk going le lehz..i lazy liao la..sick and tired of east coast..lolx...i rmb bout my cosuin bday present..my papa put e converse bag into a big box..den throw paper inside..put tibits on top..trying trick my cousin..but hor..tt mathew..oso my cousin ar..he go found tt bag...e bday boy act thought nth else le..but..aiyo..not fun de...i am veri full rite now..veri tired too..haha.i tink of mi crying over nth...jiu find it veri stupid sia..siao siao lyk wad somebody sae..10yrs later den got final decision..haha...liddat reali siao le ar..haha..ok la..veri tired le...going to fall aslp soon...nite nite..

fate ar fate...

2004-12-18T23:25:00.000-08:00

i am veri tired rite now....well...ytd after i finished typing my blog...i go cry..haha..msg mela told her wad happen..msg le cry again..she an wei wo..i told her mani tings..wad i feel..but she sae why don tell him..coz i don wan him to feel guity lo..is lyk is better i am hurt..den ended up 2 ppl rite..oso wont die de ma..e rest bout wad we sae cant sae..haha...cry throughout e nite..pro hor..u noe..i tink till scold myself being so foolish..childish and stupid..foolish and stupid coz cry wont settle anyting..it wont change tings too...childish coz..i lyk crybaby liddat..oni noe cry..haha...but i veri sad ma..oso cant blame mi..ytd listened to 933..heard 2 ppl dedicate songs to 3/3..so i oso send msg in..and got read out...haha..i sae to ccks ppl...especially 2/5 and sec4 seniors...sae will miss dem~~..lolx..and last part lehz...cant sae la...if got hear means got..no means no..i think thru whole ytd nite and whole of today..i tink i tink thru le la..wad i tink thru..donno lehz...i jus told myself i wanna be happy lorz..no decison made..jus liddat..trying veri veri hard to cut off contact wif him..but veri veri xing ku lehz..i used comp jiu you temptation to tok to him..but till now haven tok yet..not bad la..but tink tink lehz..coz of tis lose 1 fren not worth lehz..jiu 4get it ba...i getting lame..no wonder ppl sae i idiot..and kip ask mi shut up..ytd i shock dao when he sae shut up..so i diam diam lo..todae i quite quiet la..quite oni..meet them 9..den went off..reached bedok bout 11 plus i tink..went to dere e hawker centre it..after tt went east coast lorz...well..we went jiu played wif sea water le..den junyi splashed water at mi..he was e 1st one to be totally wet..after we all joined in..i was not wet de lorz..i walked to e rocks dere...quite far frm shore..but not veri deep la..den dey all sit dere..but when i go down e rocks..wah..all splashed water at mi and pushed mi into e water...siao man...beri wet liao..and tt water is soooo salty...e taste is terrible..we dere swim swim..they swim till veri deep dere...den i gong gong go follow..den scare mi..cant touch e sand..and was lyk drowning..i shouted help..nobodi even bother sia..lucky i no die...reali terrified lorz...is e waves tt carry mi far..lucky managed to catch hold of junyi..haha..if not wont see mi le..den went play volleyball...water polo...liddat lorz..and went into water again..it was reali fun..went bathe abot 4 liddat..haha..den jiu went take bus..but double decker bus seems to be my jinx..i wan go up e stairs..meiyu accidentally stepped my shoes..i was about to fall down..walkking towards fifi..i fell onto e seat..wif my hand hurt...coz it rubbed against e seat..cause my skin dropped..den got bleed..now still veri pain...and ya..we planned to haf a chalet..3d2n for e countdown...but i broke le lehz..reali broke..i hate going out..haha..we took 67 to beauty world..went eat e western food..it was delicious..and others went play cs...my family oso dere..coz i ask dem go de..donno for wad sia..after tt they went home..while i stayed dere shopping wif family..but nth to shop de..veri sian..i did haf fun todae..but sometimes i was totally quiet..his name kip flash thru my mind...is lyk kip thiking of him lorz..haiz...don mention it le la..haha..liddat lorz...haha..okla..tml my cousin bday..i wanna go sabo and bash him up de..so muz goy energy...ok la..go off 1st..gud nite..

nth to sae..

2004-12-17T23:30:00.000-08:00

well..todae woke up at 10..went to sch buy books..den saw sirs all looking at mi..or shld sae all np ones looking at mi...haiz...veri fan ar...went causeway point wif meiyu..fifi..lala..shop and eat lorz..nth much..but haf lots of fun..long time nv go out wif dem le...so veri nice la..we laughed a lot..and donno wads wrong wif mi...chicken soup become chicken soap...i kip sae wrong..dey dere kip laugh..haha...planned bout christmas party..veri sian lo..wad shld i do...went mei yu hse..called les to join us..they played majong..mi and fifi dere watched...but i veri tired...reali reali no energy hold on liao...accompany fifi to bukit batok..wait for her mom..to take her keys..she lost it..haha...tml will be going beach..nice ar...haha..2/5 outing wif ms teo....i love e beach alot man...tt day go chalet...ask ppl pei mi go nobodi wan..ask mi go alone...go alone veri sian de lo...join jovan they all more sian..haha...how??liddat lorz..haha..beach at nite den nice lehz...reali lo..haha..nvm la..tml go i oso wan 4get my xinshi...todae i tell mela soo mani ting bout him is wan her listen to mi..i haven sae wad i wan sae lorz..but she lehz..donno how sae..lyk all busy..don wan listen..but nvm la..no blame dem..wan tell ping..but she sae she bad mood..aiyo...hu can listen to wad i wan tok..he told mi by making tt decision will hurt ppl e least hor..i sae i donno...well to e other gals i reali donno la...but as for mi..to u noe..i will act feel better if u choose some1..den none..but since is wad u decide..shall respect it ba..haiz..i reali donno liao..since tt is e case..i suppose..is oso time for all tis to come to an end le ba...i got no idea wad to do now..jus now tok to him veri attitude..if u reading..sry ar..not on purpose de..stay single..isnt it e same as rejecting..got difference mehz..dere isnt any lo...but as long he feel better by making tis decsion...den be it ba..jus ren ming ba...i am trying veri hard to hold back my tears..not bad la..haven drop yet..oso cant drop lo...later parents sure kip ask de...oni eyes watery...i got nth more to sae...reali nth...i wont mention tis ting eva again..unless a nid to..??haha...unless i later cant tahan la..den jiu call ppl tok liao...rmb mirabel sae be4...don let ur feelings control ur mood...i will try my best de...i gonna enjoy tis 2 wks..be4 sch reopen..so let mi crap now..sch reopen i wan hao hao conc on studies le...mama and papa got high hopes for mi..i cant disappoint dem..so muz worked harder..haha..am i gonna make it..sae is easier den done..i sae sae..later u see mi mention bout him again..den see i slack..not studyin..most likely liddat ba..haha...haiz...i haiz so mani times le lehz...nvm..tml..yeah..wan cry muz cry todae..canot tml ar..later mani ppl ask mi..den i siao liao..haha..lame hor...see i still can laugh means i ok lo..so don care mi..ok la..gtg le..bye...

how how how??/

2004-12-16T23:45:00.000-08:00

todae lehz...no go np..hahas..coz papa todae wan mi go out wif dem ma...he no job le..but on mon got new de...haha...supervisor lehz..haha...furthermore i todae overslept...so no go lorz..but i reali no mood go out...coz...aiya...jus no mood la..i oso broke le..no money go out veri sian de...haha..papa kip wan mi go ma..so i sae..gif mi money..den i go..he reali gif...hahaha..but go out i oso sian sian..todae buy de tings..all is my sis...cousin...no mine..sad rite..i wan tt bag..but papa bought it for cousin..his bday tis sun...sis got new sch shoes...new watch..xian mu ar...at 1st donno got np or not..so plan tml le..go sch buy books..den go out..but got np tml..argh....how how how..i ask mani how le..but decided don wan go np..coz veri few going..all here pain dere pain..haha..so don wan go..eh..tis holi lehz..i oni todae pon np...tml going to too...haha..notti gal liao..nola..i jus sick of it now le...i no go mama oso scold..sae i no use de..haha...den liddat lorz..haiz....argh..i ask mani how le..but all sae donno..siao liao...how how how..haha..my mind is simply flooded wid 2 words...giving up..i tinking bout it everyday lorz..but jiu shi how??..haha...aiya...fan man...lolx..how lehz...haha..i tink le den see how..tinking of mani ways lehz..but all not good...muz continue..cfm got perfect way out de..muz got confidence ma..haha...i jus realise..jus 2 more wks..and holis over...haha..so told my mother...i tis 2 wks wan go out everyday...muz play till siao..sch reopen jiu hao hao study...todae went out act wan buy christmas present for him de...walk so long..got idea..but no go buy..haha..lddz de present i bought some liao..other tml or mayb next wk..haha..argh..why when ppl is thinking...they either du lan..or fan..y liddat de...cnat got perfect de..told ping tt perfect de will be i die..haha..but she sae cant lehz...tis cant tt cant..den wad can...aiyoh...no mood le la..later i siao again..bye...haha

yoz yoz

2004-12-15T22:00:00.000-08:00

hi everybody..mi back from tt stupid chalet le..haha..ytd i woke up at 7...not tired lo..energetic..met them 10 ar..but in e end wait till veri late..went imm..go giant buy food de..but in e end..don haf...haha..go dere donno for wad..den jy..wayne..gela dere carrying smth..haha..i went after dem to see wad they bought..haha..cute lorz..den tt wayne go beat my hand till red red..don wan let mi see..but i oso guess dao is wad liao..jus being lame oni..went take mrt to tt bedok..waitig for e shuttle bus veri veri long..went dere liao muz find 18yrs old de check in..siao sia..but in e end is premy managed find it de..pei fu pei fu..haha..sian man..den jiu donno wad..oh yes..i saw some1 lyk vin going past e chalet..but dey no believe..and it was reali him..after tt ssy and mi go buy food at bedok dere..wait for tt bus again..veri long ar...we at dere rushed till siao..ran here and dere..trying to catch tt bus..but due to mi being veri slow..we miss it liao..haha..i asked wayne dey all come help ask carry tings lo...den looking for taxi tt wan carry 5..but reali don haf..i cant find any...after tt went back liao..we walked to our chalet dere..door lock..lights sunddenly on and off..nobodi wan open..so we went to e beach ate those food we bought...den nobodi called..after awhile den got..but not allowed to pick up lehz...divert e call to wayne hp..den mi forget changed it...so mani miss calls all to him..haha..sian..sian..don wan continue liao lehz..after tt in chalet we played poker..jovan..george..lengfei..mi...haha..smallest no. muz drink coke..tt was at 1st..after tt rong suggest wad...add ingredients..he went pour chicken soup wif vanila coke..haha..his good idea~~..he sae if tt round i lose he drink for mi..and guess wad..mi reali lose lo..haha..dey sae he drink half i drink half..but he finish whole ting for mi...and calling himself a hero..haha..lame sia..after tt de ting jiu no wish sae le..listen to them sae bout wad happen to dem when they in np at their time..sher veri funni...his story all funni funni de..went beach wif ssy..and nat..i tis lightbulb..veri bright lehz..haha..walked lots of rounds den we sat on table..dey two dere dating..i dere stared into mid air..i tinking bout mani tings..at beach tink not a bad ting lehz..haha..tinking speed faster..i sae i wan e star shining e brightest..nobodi pluck it for mi lehz..soo sad..haha..lame..but e gate back to chalet locked..and i need e toilet..wait for dem till siao..ended up walked to main entrance..den dey dere climbing over e fence..haha..went back chalet was 3.30 i tink..i stayed up till 5..den fall aslp..1/2 an hr was soundly..after tt half awake..listen to wad dey toking..haha..ssy...jovan..george..lengfei playing blackjack..dey dere suddenly shout de..scare ppl oni..haha..i wan see sunrise de..stupid ppl no wake mi up..wan go scold some1 liao..tml den scold..haha..i woke up at 7..but tt time still haven sunrise..it was lyk 7.30 den sunrise..frm chalet see abit..haha..den those who went play captain ball come back liao..all lyk wan die liddat lehz..go squeeze inside e room and slp..sher veri funni lehz..he curled up both his legs and sleep outside e chalet..e bench dere..and he slept till falling down..haha..after tt went bathe all those lo..den check out..wif ppl all half dead..haha..den premy..st..yr..sher went take taxi..e rest wait for tt stupid bus again..haha..gela and mi slpet in e bus..after tt we 2 wif wayne..jieyang took 67 go cck..slept e whole way..but it was lyk veri cold..shivering lo...ytd wore nat jacket..but she veri cold so i return to her..den become i veri cold..now slight fever..haha..premy sae i no ask her for jacket..don even noe she got lo..haha..den liddat lorz..went home bathe le slept till 7...veri veri tired..den msg ppl..watch tv..and ate my dinner..tt dinner inclusive of lunch and breakfast..haha..den jiu explain to natalie bout smth lorz..haha..afterall there is abit of misunderstanding..not between two fo us la..haha..overall quite fun..haha..but nv reali did enjoy myself lo..ok la..i gtg le..tml still got np..bye bye..

headaches.....

2004-12-13T16:15:00.000-08:00

yoz yoz..ytd ate till very full...haha..steamboat veri nice...mi ate e most ba..i suppose..haha..den watched stars awards...haha...fann and christoper veri funni sia..lolx..my mama kip asked mi so mani qns..i bth sia...haha...den jiu veri tired liao..but still 1plus den slp..woke up about 11 plus liddat..wah..woke up jiu headaches...till now still not feeling well...cw sir sae he tml got lessons..cant check in for us..muz haf a 18yrs old de to check in on behalf..i tink so long still nv thought of ppl..siao siao tml no nid check in..wah..den reali crazy le...veri tired lehz...woke up jiu do sooo mani e housework...and papa sae 15dec he jiu no job le..coz company e contract over le..another company taking over...chances of them continuing is bout 5%...haiz..listened liao i oso sad..told my mama..mama veri sad...coz if papa no work hor..she muz wroked veri hard..and papa will cfm quarrel wif her de...i hate tt e most...though i cant do anyting..but i can save money...oso hope dey wont quarrel..coz when dey quarrel hor..wah..both pull mi in..den i donno help hu..my sis see them quarrel oso will scared till cry..scary rite...haha..donno lehz..see how it is ba..haha..tts all..tt headache is killing mi..i better go eat panadol...byex...

shi jian you mei you yi yi ar??

2004-12-12T16:25:00.000-08:00

haha..guess i blog now..at nite wont le ba...todae whole afternoon using com..at nite most probably wont...haha..ytd lez..i kip scold him lehz..my sis listen till slp liao..since fri jiu scold le..but don meant it de..lolx..jus now oso scold..giving out those stress ma..ytd tok to ppl lyk a bit attitude lehz..veri sorry ar...haha..now i ok le..todae lehz..stayed at home lo..but early in e morning..my hse downstairs got rc activity..haha..wad exhibition..police dog unit de...ppl all lyk no see dogs liddat...so excited..haha..even my parents oso..den got fire muz go extinguisg..but i still slping tt time..half awake...haha..den doing s'pore workout is lead by a guy..his voice veri aqua lo..haha...oni liddat..after tt use com play gb wif rong...liddat oni lo..ask zy got collect dao money for chalet..he so nobodi wan gif..but nvm la..i no blame him at all..haha..guess wad..i veri disappointed lorz..so mani ppl sae see 1st..shld be..wah..all liddat..den on tue wad if nobodi go..haiz..tt one maek mi soo fan..i persuading ppl...den food tt part haven settle yet...somemore my own prob..but tt one extra de la..too bo liao go imagine tings tt cre8 prob..i tink liao find myself foolish..or stupid..haha..den i haiz...he sae he shld be e one haiz..coz he got so mani tings...wah..wad happen lehz...he don wan tell mi...sae veri serious..cant tell ppl..haha..donno lehz..i very worry about him lo...i wan help oso cant..gif moral support can ba...i tink i noe wads e prob..tink oni la..mayb not tt..haha..see la..prob can make ppl fan soo much...hope he can solve it lorz..e best ma..den parents sae todae eat steamboat..haha..nice sia...i long time no eat liao...donno lehz...chalet i feel lyk no care liao..don even feel lyk going now...haha..don care la....now shld go watch tv and heck everyting..hope he can find a solution to wadeva plm he is facing ba..kkiex..tts all...cya..

blog again..

2004-12-11T22:50:00.000-08:00

hihi i back again..2nd time for e day..coz i reali veri sian...nth to do lorz..haha..jus now after dinner mama dere watched tv..saw a ad..den she veri er xin lehz...sae those er xin de ting...haha..i dere laughed...papa dere shaked head..wahaha..reali funni..we were discussing bout smth...haha..eh..den i watched my fair princess..and it oni worsen my mood..argh..i hate tt zihua alot..she soo the wad lorz..tt show veri touching..if were to watched e finishing part..u cfm cry de...watched le jiu go lot one..at home oni made mi sad lehz..so jiu go out lo...followed parents go ntuc..bought lots of choco...haha..my supper...den jiu liddat..ya..and my sis..she go read my letter..lucky managed tear it in time..she go rubbish bin pick up somemore...haha..cant tahan..lucky oni read front..if not i siao liao...tts all ba..nth liao..byez..

In a veri bad mood today..

2004-12-10T15:32:00.000-08:00

ytd nth to sae so nv blog..always blog i oso sian..haha..den do my blogskin...nice??...haha..but feel bit plain lehz..wan make it complicated...haha..eh..nth else lo..slept bout 12 plus liddat..veri early hor..haha..woke up 12 plus oso...lyk pig lehz..got nightmares bout e chalet lorz...den still dreamt of toking to him on e fone..haha..stupid sia...den todae woke up my sis sae wad i tok in my dream..haha..reali is dream too liao..but todae not in good mood la...papa came home jiu scold mi..mama oso..den hor..papa still tok bout tt time bbq chicken wings for my yi ma nv bbq for him...argh..he everytime bad mood jiu mention it..veri fan lorz..mama sae is coz i polite..got to do wif it mehz...oso donno...den sae sae..jiu sae next wk yi ma coming my hse bbq..cfm i bbq for her again..omg..papa ar papa..he lyk sooo jealous..next time e best ting is i don wanna bbq for ppl liao...i bbq for ppl papa sae is i supid donno how sae don wan..now all i sae don wan lo...den not gong liao rite..haha...don care...haha..mama sae papa now alreadi nagged till liddat..old liao she sure siao..mi dere laugh..haha..en reali bad mood sia..i played games kip lose...coz cant conc ma..mind oni got.....haha...liddat oni lorz..and FITRINA is back..i misss her soooo much..wah..if can hug her how nice will tt be...haha...i tok to her in msn she scare mi...sae feel veri bad for mi...ask mi don sad..i blur liao..wad she toking about..sae wad heard bad news bout mi..haha..den guess wad..she reffering to my blog...haha..so funni..den sae sad if he reali attached la..haha...lolx..now i oso don care liao..i wan be in dreamland foreva....how nice will tt be..ok la..sis hurry mi liao..byez..

days are getting sian

2004-12-09T23:55:00.000-08:00

Donno why..today veri sian...woke up at 12 i tink...den mama asked mi mopped the floor..she went out wif my sis go buy books..i stayed at home and laze...haha..played my sis de game boy advance..reali veri bo liao...so jiu liddat..ytd lehz..nth lorz..veri late slp...not veri la..still okie...haha..i am veri lame nowadays..ytd he told mi he attached..guess my 1st reaction..haha..tears flood my eyes lorz..slp tt time i stilll tinking bout it..mayb is reali true..i told him congrats..i tink tink...he maybe joking..or real de..but lyk most likely joking ba..thats wad i told myself..haha...he sae why no ask hu is tt gal..not interested..noe le so wad..haha..but now feel lyk knowing..craps la mi..don tok bout tis..ehh....todae used com till halfway com hanged...restart com liao still cant used e net..siao one lehs...till at nite..mi removed modem..den install again..den okie..haha..i thought i gonna sae bye to my dearest com..haha..donno lehz..watched tv tt time i laugh so much sia..veri funni ma...but now lehz..mood swing..bit moody...haha..sae be4 don wan mention him here de..but hide inside i feel veri xingku lehz..it was lyk since e day he told mi an ans tt is positive and oso negative..e type of closeness i feel is no longer dere..is lyk we are becoming strangers..i hate tis feeling lorz..haiz...in e 1st place..are we tt close..haha..jus frenz oni ma...well..i meant e closeness as frenz...don tink wrong worz..haha..now li siao him oso lyk no feelings liddat..why is tis happenning..to ppl..dey may sae feelings is fading...but is not tt lorz..i reali donno how sae..haha..is lyk dere are times tings i sae to him is trying to put across some tings..is he not getting e msg..or he did but trying to avoid it?..donno lehz...b4 that..is lyk i got ting tell him..i will jus sae..but now..i wan sae..but in e end nv..why liddat lehz..i oso got mani why to ask liao..how sia..haha...mayb shld alreadi gif up long ago..rather den now hor..how?!?..aiyo...troublesome sia..junyi still sae got love e best..is not true at all..dere are good and bad tings..argh...donno la..if i noe..i go kl todae ma..den don nid liddat liao..btw..my er sao went back kl liao..haha..cny den can see dem in malaysia..xing xing..haha..tis days no stars lehz...veri sad lorz..dere are no stars..see star= see him..haha..is lame..tml muz early wake up...donno shld i go pei my grandpa go hosp for check up...rmb tt time when pei my grandma..doc sae i veri guai..haha..i wan go watch movie lehz..who wan watch??..watch wad i oso donno..lolx..i wan go beach...sentosa..so mani places i wan go lorz..haiz..miss my cousin's daughter...biao yi biao yi..so cute lo...haha..she is e best..k la..i veri cold liao...hand is freezing..

tiring day..

2004-12-08T22:43:00.000-08:00

todae lehs went out wif natalie...she told mi chalet no $ buy food..sian man..and tt ssy de good idea..sae wad change to 4/6 chalet..stupid lorz...haha..i told nat and ssy tt if i see ssy i will smack him..violent rite..haha..aiya..we tis organiser no use la...haiz..haha..den we check price..den walked till i bth..mi sick ma..den walk le not feeling well..so sae wanna go home lo..haiz...sian lo...but saw gela and jieyang..den mi and nat went mac dere sit down tok tok..haha...tink of gammes..but in our mind oni got sabo tis word..haha..so all e idea is bout sabo ppl de lo..sian..haha..den ask gela and jieyang help mi tink...lolx..den wayne called...ask 2 of us go causeway find dey all..i oso sian ma..jis anithing lo..we go dere..jus laugh...gela ask hu is e organiser..den jie yang dere sae failure..wa...veri ps lehz..haha..is $ we toking about ma...cant blame too..but i don mind la..who wan suan feel free to...haha...i don mind..frm causeway dey sae wan go imm..sian lorz..but stll got go...premy so fierce sia..asked mi go die..haha..but got bit misunderstanding la..oso cant blame..dere check price le we sat down for veri long time...nth to do ma...so lo...haha..den kip ask wan go where...i lazy walk le...dey ask mi ask zy if collect money le ma..den haven..haha..den dey sae nid 20 each person..alot lehs..lolx..so dey ask zy call us lo..dere tok..veri stupid..wayne sae wad zy playing majong at sher hse..dey all sae wan go his hse..haha...jy kip sae u 2 no go be4 nco hse hor..lolx..nat got..i don haf..lolx..lame sia..we kip shoot natalie..haha..but nat bad lo..shoot mi back..i reali nv blushed lo..dey sae got..donno lehs..haha..not my plm oso..lolx..sis called sae i recieved e edusave tingy la..but i not happy lehz..i haven achieve my target yet...but nvm la...sian...myy sis asking mi tutor her now..stupid rite..no choice but to lo...haha..ok la...update tml..byez

journey of mine

2004-12-07T23:47:00.000-08:00

tis days veri sian lehs..nth to do...waiting for 14..haha..tml 8..lolz..rong sae on the 8th will got tings happen to him..wad will happen lehs..haha...ytd nth much lo...ppl kip ask mi bout chalet..veri sian de lehs..haha..den ssy called mi when i wanna slp liao..sian sia..den sis kip kajiao..lolx...he sae wan tink can bring wad to chalet..haha..i told him i wan go see sunrise..haha..dne donno y..he ask mi challenge natalie..wad go grab guys see sunrise..he veri bad lo..sae i cfm lose..haha...thought nat can cfm grab him de..but doesnt means i nobodi grab rite..haha..i anyhow grab lo..cfm got ppl on de..lolx..den he sae don wan liao..wan guys find gals grab..i suggest rong..sher and zy..haha..stupid rite..is lame..k la..got nth much to sae lehz..i told ping wad i wan buy for him for christmas...haha...she sae good idea..but i find it lame now..haha..lyk i sae..mi wont gif up..oso wont fight for it..be back lyk be4..is e best way out ma..haha..ok la...com lagging le...byez

haiz........

2004-12-05T23:59:00.000-08:00

Todae went grandma hse lo..played wif my cousin' daughter...den oso got lots of silence la..donno y i liddat again..whenever i am not being busy..i will tink of so mani tings...i reali got no energy left...how???...i read e 2 gals blog again and again...in their blog can see how deep they are in love wif him...i am actually try to use tt to make my heart dead..but ended up i cried....ppl tink i shld either fight for it or gif up..but i don wanna fight..no wish to hurt any1...as for gif up..i reali bu she de...i donno wad to do..now all i can do is jus sae i donno..i reali donno..haha...see..so mani donno...i wanna kip myslef busy lehs...i don wanna tok to him bout tis ting again...it oni gif him pressure..though dere are mani tings i wish to ask and sae..but 4get it..maybe i shld reali listen to my frenz and gif up..but once i do that..it will nv be back..so how lehs?????.....i reali feel lyk cutting off contact wif him..my er sao going back kl liao..or i shld go wif her..don come back till jan...liddat mayb wound heal half le...i tink i shld do that..den no inform i go...when he nv msg mi..i miss him so much...den when he did..wa..is lyk making mi bu she de lo...making i shld reali go kl...den liddat cant contact ppl..feelings oso fade faster...not a bad idea...den ask cousins don let mi see com..liddat wont tink of msn..haha...see if my er sao wan let mi stay tt long or not..as i typing..i am thinking of wad to do...come to one decision..i nv gonna tok bout tis ting or mention it again..be back lyk be4...jus frenz..tts e best way...treat it as i nv lyk him be4...but got one plm...is lyk cheating myself...nvm la..who cares bout mi aniwae..jus try tt out lorz..e most cry....oso wont die..but cant cry to much..will hurt e eyes de..haha....but reali la...wont mention tis ting again liao...be it in my blog..i try to la..heez...den wont mention to ppl oso...wont ask anyting..jus kip to myself...i tink i stil can take it...though i weak..not tt weak lo..haha..siao..i siao liao..tml wont be going out...natalie ps mi..haha..tue no feel lyk going swimming..donno lehz..laze at home e best..haha..sorry tt above veri emotional ar..at least i feel better...

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2004-12-04T23:16:00.000-08:00

hi every1..so long ever since i blog...i reali busy..wif all those np stuffs..act frm ytd till tml is np camp de..but coz on thur de camp prep...e kerosene cause mi having rashes..and act plan to go camp todae..but in e morning...rashes seemed serious..so i was not allow to go..sad??..i miss campfire..haha..but i am sick now..reali sick..wif headache and sore thoart..haiz..life haf been miserable these days..he told mi an ans tt is positive yet negative..i haf been spending a number of days tinking wad i shld do..asking mirabel for advices and giving him some..i oso donno why i am doing that..e choice of giving up have pass my mind lots of times..sometimes i am so sian..i picked up my fone wanting to msg him..but after that..i off my phone..so nv msg him at all..when i did is when i reali too sian le..i told myself that i don wanna gif up..just let it fade as time pass...but todae..i pass by some1 de blog..i recalled mani tings..those sweet and sad memories...alot of tings...i cried...now i am still tinking wad shld i do..i reali donno..i realise dere are times when i am reali selfish..dere i times i hope e ans will be me..i nv tink about how others will feel..but todae..i tink of it..who eva it may be..it will definitely hurt ppl...i reali donno...whenever i tink of it..i will lyk jus be so emotional...i reali agree that loving someone is easy..but forgeting him is hard...what shld i do...frankly speaking..if e ans he gif is me..i oso wont be happy..i will be worried bout her...if is not mi..at least i will be e heartbroken one...and jus haf to worry for myself and not others...the heart aching feeling is really terrible..i donno wad i shld do..is like no matter wad choice i choose..is either hurting myself..or hurting other...but if he reali haf e ans..i reali choose him to tell mi no matter wad it mayb...i rather noe it sooner den later..mayb knowing it sooner will not hurt oneself tt much..haha..hu knows..mayb i shld jus disappear hor..without informing ppl..disappear liao den go tell ppl i doing veri fine..liddat will be good isnt it...at least oni hurt myself ma...i hate ppl who hurt others...so i don wanna be e one hu is hurtng ppl..can somebody help mi tink of a perfect ans..tt will be great..haha...act hor..mi wan haf a good talk wif him..but don haf e courage do..donno why liddat lehz..dere are so mani tings i wanna tell him lorz..donno la..tml will be going grandma hse..mon going out wif natalie dey all planning tt chalet tingy..and tues swimming..i having a damn terrible headache now...my mind is full of mani tings..all those tings tt haf bother mi since donno when..haha..i miss his voice sia...lyk weeks no hear it le....ok la..mi now go eat medicine liao...

stupid day la..

2004-11-28T07:16:00.000-08:00

ytd went downtown east swimming..haha..so cute lehz...my er sao got 4 children..teng teng..leng leng...han han..and lastly b boy..cute name hor..haha...can hor tt boy boy..b boy or jin hen...haha..veri shuai hor..i tink 2yrs old liddat...haha..den ppl dere bbq..mi hungry sia..lolz..went to tang ge de hse..haha...and todae i den noe he is e chef of pasta mania in cineleisure..lolx..next time i go kajiao le..wa..uncle hse got dog..i at 1st veri scared..but later ok le..haha..veri late den dinner lehz..i was lyk starving..bout 9 den eat..and papa bought mi new swim suit le..but flowery lehz..haha..hot pink..dinner we ate curry crabs..alot sia..den got french de pizza...and kfc..delicious sia..haha..and i given tt duty to take e meat out frm e crab and gif my niece eat..haha..dey soooo cute..call mi ying ying gugu...haha..den i call my papa..laopa...den my neice all call mi lao gugu...haha..i totally bwg..haha...den dinner went watch tv till bout 2...den use cousin com online..a while oni..xian mu my cousin lehz..he got soo mani hp..all new de..gpt 7 fones..i shocked dao..haha..den lehz...his gf..whom i call xin yi jie jie..veri sweet..she slp veri sweet lo...haha..den we kip kajiao..till bout 4 den slp..cold lehz..whole day air con...haha..den lehz..slp in my tang jie room..and i found out his bf...de pic la..his bf seemed so familiar...oso shuai gal.my tang jie veir chio de..den soo tired..went into room slp le..haha..den i morning 8.30 woke up le..early rite..seldom okie..haha..breakfast i got choco milk...butter fried rice..hotdogs..otak...and bread..alot lehs..1st time soo full...den got to sae bye to my er sao..nieces..and nephew..haha...but next month i going kl..most likely ba..for 1 wk..will dere be ppl missing mi..haha..reali donno lehs..my er sao gib mi and sis $$...RM la..haha..den watch tv..unlce ask i want eat wad..go tampines mall eat..i sae anyting..haha...went wif cousins..unlce..aunt and my family..at 1st is eat crystal jade kitchen..but long quene..den went to western cusine..but dey sae sore throat..so go pasta mania..den sae don wan..haha..dey ma fan..ended up in ajisen..eat alot sia...same table wif cousin and his gf..dey 2 veri loving..i kip laugh..den dey lyk blur liao...haha..xin hui jie jie sae wan go watch incredibles..i sae i wan shutter..haha..den she sae later see how lorz..den ajisen sae now christmas donno wad la..children all got git..so my mei got it la..haha..den hor..dey thought we is cousin children..haha...den eat le went popular...buy mani stuffs..haha..den went home lo..dey not free..no movie..haha...too bad la...mood swing sia..mi lyk change liddat...totally diam..den tinking bout mani tings lorz..veri tired lehs..haha..went home lehs...papa and mama quarrel over smth..mei crying..coz stress la..donno 4 wad...den mi ownself got xin shi..den tt junyi still scold mi..reali angry lo..haha..i watch tv till cry lehs...sis stunned dao..haha..den jus now oso got cry la..mi quite long no cry liao..now still liddat..stupid lo..haha..but i reali enjoyed myself...jus rmb..i hor..not oni mi la..my whole family..if walk faster by 2sec..we all kena accident le..we crossing zebra crossing..den got one shuttle bus block view.came 1 lorry sppeding..wa...in front of us..lucky sia..den i donno y sae no knock mi down..kena scold lorz..mama sae u wan die ar..so i diam diam...tis coming wk gonna e busy..mayb u all wont see mi online..haha..den christmas till ny in kl..haiz...donno la..now gtg and do smth..tml den update..byex...

sian man....

2004-11-26T23:32:00.000-08:00

ytd no update coz busy dping new blog skin ma..suppose u all see le..haha..nice ma??muz tag my blog hor..ytd was my 2nd class drill badge test..mi..xianjun and azizah took e test 2gether..reali scary lehz..jl took us..den veri funni lorz..i was so nervous..commands i noe kip do wrong..reali veri nervous..i was lyk omg..if kip liddat confirm fail..donno why so heng sia..half wae stomach cramps..so cant conc lorz...haiz..if fail next yr den retake ba..haha...still got promotion test lehz..knots and lashing 4get liao..muz go revise le la..MoI lehz..siao man..den baton drill oso moi..i oso 4get..haha..but baton dril rong will help mi..knots and lashings muz see how le lorz..if not i sure cant pass le...ytd we learnt arm drill..wa...we all took e rifle ran 2wards foyer..saw e band members shocking face...haha..e rifle veri oily..whole hand dirty liao..yx taught us arm drill..haha..veri funni lo..i kip leesiao him..den ytd i was lyk so slack..haha..after np went lot wif hazleen..saw cw and jl..we in delifrance..den cw stared at us..tt jl heck..haha..mi and hazleen plannig wan go camp not..i don wan go..coz of pt ma..haha..so we sae see 1st..den at nite premy sae gela..st...her and rong going..den i so ahppy.coz got jie and kor pei liao...so i decided to go lorz..but not confirm lehz..i haven ask ms tan dey can go or not..if cant den sad lo..haha...see 1st ba..lol..ytd i 3 den slp..haha..todae slept till 12.30..mama scold mi sia..veri tired ma..i hold hp till slp..todae nth much..no go out..but yi ma come my hse..haha..go buy dinner tt time..i kena neighbour's dog chase..i veri scared of dogs now..coz tis yr i kena dogs chased when mi cycling..den knocked onto uncle's car..tt was in malaysia..so now mi see dogs will confirm run liao...haha..liddat lorz..tml my er sao go my uncle hse...so we all staying ovenite..haha..at pasir ris..not bad lo..tml confirm cant tok to him..ppl busy ma..go cousin hse play lorz..haha..so tml tings settle le..sunday lehz..go out wif uncle and cousins..haha...looking 4ward..haha..i wan watch shutters lehz...but now mi oso broke..haha..so wait lo...my sunset ar..haha...kk la..mama scold le..betta go liao..haha..nitez..

soooooo happy...hehe

2004-11-23T05:56:00.000-08:00

todae i am veri happy and excited sia...morining went to np..got fancy drill training..stupid lo...as i am weak..so i do till muscles cramps...at e left thigh..wa..at 1st okok de..den jiu...damn pain..squat down dere..i still laughing at ahmad..coz e baton hit his fingernail..den he act as if his **** is hurt..we kip laughing..den xian jun..wa..push hus chest in front...i sae he no front wan act got..i jus kip laughing..den tell nco..ya..by e wae..changlong promote to si liao..so is sir..sec3 is ncos le..haha..and lehz..sec3 passing out in feb2005..new MOE system..shiok sia..jl sir sae we will be going for nco camp when sch reopen...all those course..lectures...all organise le..wa..veri fast lehzx...time reali flies..come imagine next yr can pump ppl..haha...bad hor..but sec2 was lyk..so excited...all clap...two times lehz..we cheer...reali fun..continue frm i sit on floor coz thigh pain...i simply can twalk..it was reali pain lo..but still walk abit till road dere..den i sit down..yangxi go call 1 gal nco..donno her name..sry ar..den hor..she go massage..den she apply no force..i cant feel ting..den yanxi go lift my leg..den push my ankle 2wards mi..pain lehz..but too bad...later no feel again..totally numb...so cl...cw..jl all come ssee how lo..veri cute sia..den ncos sae bout muscle tings..bio..no learn yet..so don under..dey press muscle..sae reali cramp..coz veri tight...den jl sir go take oinment for mi..he hold dere veri long..i jus nv take..he ask wher..i sae thigh..dne yangxi sae how apply..jl sir sae i nv sae wan apply for her rite..haha..we dere laugh lo..yx sae is how i apply dere..thigh ma..so i sae aiya..nvm la...muz walk to toilet..die ar...so 4get it lo..dey massage quite long ar...sometimes pain...sometimes no feel...so i scream when pain...den sir sae go walk abit..see can ma..walk not much pain le...so trying bending..veri pain..fancy drill nid bend ma..so lorz..but after deir break i join dem back..coz fall out sian lehz..den i cant catch e baton..coz hor..my thigh still pain..so i slowly squat down..by den cant conc on catching baton le..so fail lo..haha..den tt baton..hit my shoulder twice..now blue black le...haha..den knee caps red..bit swell...coz hor..do fancy drill on road..do pumping veri pain...but nv affect my mood la..i still happy..after sch wen lot wif natalie..elizabeth..ziza..ck..mic...haha..den ate at kfc..we kip talking bout sec4 todae lehz..den tok tok..saw sher..yr..zy..jh..i tink liddat oni la..walk past kfc..rong lyk gang leader..black shirt ma..walk in front..so the uh hmm..haha..dey all oso agree..den natalie sae fish at lot one..lot one nth fish lehz..den ssy1 sae oni 3 chioces for mi..wa..all 3 i don wan la..haha..i rather stay single 4eva..lolx..den lehz...at lib..we suddenly wan chalet for np..but sec2 and 4 nia..hahahaha...biased hor..nola..for fu nde..sec2 all got la..but left 20..coz confirm e rest cant go..lol..so try out tt 20 lo..gals all on lehz..steady rite..haha...den sec4 is oni rong de jie mei..haha..chin wee sir help us..we use his name book..coz 18yrs above ma..haha..plan to sabo ppl lehz..i got target to sabo le..so muz careful hor..haha...lolx..we all veri excited lo..sentosa still got chalet..but donno can reserve in time...try tml...haha..den lehz..if cant..we going sentosa bbq ba..or east coast..haha..den camp overnite..oso wont slp de ma..so nvm lo..but best is chalet..can see sunset..and sunrise..and at nite walk along e beach..wa..so mani tings lehz..haha..watch horror movie..haha..nice..got so mani boys..no fear...lolx...reali nice lehz..got mani plans le..hope wont change la..1st nite is do waeva ting..cooking own food..got kitchen ma..2nd nite..bbq...haha..nice lehz...haha..somemore can leesiao ppl..lolx..tml update u all bout got chalet ma..if don hab den change plans..pray hard hard ba..haha..ok liao..mi nid do smth to my thigh..still pain..do wad..i donno..massage ba..den orh orh..tml got 2nd class drill badge revision..den go discuss chalet agian..woo...haha..good nitez every1

not in goog mood again

2004-11-21T23:20:00.000-08:00

wa..2 days nv blog le..i lazy ma..haha..oso nth much happen..ytd went orchard wif family..walked till i sian...reali veri tired lehz...veri excited bout todae de...u shld noe y..haha...but siao siao..mama ask mi go visit grandma...muz go..no excuse...my sunday plan all gone...so sae change to tml lo...but veri sad la...he nv sae bout tml..so oso don wan sae or ask...haha...4get it ba....tml rest at home lo...but veri sian de...go out wif mela ba...i wan watch shutters...my cousins ask mi watch wif dem..i sae cant..coz in e plan i had ma...but now lehz...can liao..haha...but don wan watch wif cousin..later dey scream lyk siao..den i cham le...haha...watch wif hu lehz....ping dey all ba..go ask dem..haha..ppl sae shutter veri scary lehz..mayb don wan watch...donno lehz...wan go beach now...i everytime not happy wan go beach de lehz...haha...or shld sae when i not happy...i am alwaes at e beach....cant go out la..later tt molester..haha..though i wont be target...these days ar...got bit of xing shi...don wan tell ppl...i can still take it...wont depressed yet la..got np distract my feelings ma...not bad sia...todae go grandma hse..aunt cook ba ku teh wif martel inside..wa..funni..my yi ma sae she drink le gong..i oso got la..at e rite time sia..haha...coz aunt la..put so much martel inside...her fault...haha..den lehz..uncle aks mi use knife cut meat..hand tio cut..but hu care bout mi..nobodi sae anyting..haiz...sad lo...cousins la..i dere slicing it..dey call and mi tio distracted...nvm la..4get bout it...haha...realise i blog when i veri happy...or when i am sad..so u tink now i happy or sad lehz..haha..lame..went grandma hse tt time ssy1 go find mi..pass him my sec2 sci textbk...he veri funni lehz..tell my cousins he is weida...and is ping de..haha...ping don kill him hor...haha...still he e best..haha..these days he call pei mi tok...haha...wa..dec mani tings lehz..lyk so busy..haha..but tink dec oso no mood de..lolz...4 christmas lehz..haha..my mama giving mi new watch..papa gif mi money buy myself...but still got 1 mont more lehz...haha...21 nov a day i look 4ward to since last month ba..is destroy..sad sia..don wan sae le..gtg ler..lolx..nitez..

sian sian...

2004-11-18T23:00:00.000-08:00

haha..todae i wanna write bout ytd..coz ytd many funni tings happened ma...ytd i went fetch my sis after her sch dismissal..went to my hse downstairs de mama shop...den e stupid auntie dere..ask mi tt one ur sis or daughter..stupid qns lorz..obviously my sis rite...haha...i veri paiseh lorz..ppl stared at mi...e aunties sae now young gals oso got children de...wa...i agitated sia...she trying sae i cheap and innocent or sae i old huh...lolx...i told tt auntie..if tt one my daughter...den i veri pro..coz i 4yrs old can gif birth liao..pro rite...lolx...haha...i kip ask ppl do i look old or cheap..siao liddat sia...
i meet mela 5.30 at world jj...haha..but i late lorz..coz raining ma...den tt vincent..call and hurry mi..bth sia..den i ask mela they at wher...dey sae i foodcourt..asked mi go find dem..haha..den mela sae rong at kfc...ask mi go find him..of coz i nv go find la..mi str away go foodcourt...den saw fm and gela at sweettalk dere..lolx...saw mela i kip laugh..donno why lehz..bit siao le..den i saw kent walking 2wards our direction..but cute enuf sia..so near he oso no see..until he buy food going out le den see...pro..after dey eat we we go walk..a while oni la..mela sae still early go shop shop...haha..vin sae okie de...haha...den i veri leesiao..i ask him don follow ask go home study amaths..he took it for real sia..reali went home...lolx...den i dere diam diam..coz cant tok ma..mela wan kajiao vin de..but tio mi chase him home ma..so she angry coz cant kajiao...so haf to diam diam lorz...haha..budden i kip laugh lehz...went 7eleven wif mela..she bought F&N grapes..den hor..overspilled lehz...i laugh till siao...sae todae smth wrong...haha...den i told mela heng heng we take same bus wif rong and py...den veri chun...saw dem at bus stop..mela leesiao sia..kip shout my name...haha..den mela sae 190 come liao..so go take lorz..but hor..veri funni lorz..rong e last to board e bus..he board le tt driver close door..den mela kknock e door sae oi oi...haha..e driver nv see...den i at dere laugh..rong saw us..den he lyk so stunned liddat..gif those weird face..haha..reali funni lorz..ppl in e bus including him was lyk laughing ba...while waitng at e bus stop...i was still laughing..reali veri funni...to mi la..lolx..reach sch le i still laughing..too funni le la...i tink of mela oi oi..i laugh liao..mela sae she tooo short..so driver cant see her..cant blame..lolx...
reach sch muz wad register wif ms tan...haha...den lehz..ms tan ask i got weiqiang no. ma...coz he haven reach ma..i sae don haf..den she sae 1/6 nobodi come yet...got wad...joyce dey all not human ar..lolx..so ms tan ask mi go ask dem register wif her...haha...on e bus beri funni..we dere joke joke lorz..den wad jovan sae so loudly sia...he sae he later go toilet ask mi pei him..diao...every1 dere laugh lyk hell..den i bit blur..coz don get it..slow sia..ms tan sae later ask him go gal toilet..so all gals pei him..haha...that animal show hor..bit lame..got one unknown guyy was walking around while e show is on...sae wad his pet missing..is a snake named maggi..rite??...donno la..4get..den he sae is inside a box..tt guy suddenly ran towards a lady sae snake under ur feet..scared ppl..is her shoes lai de..den suay suay...he ran towards mi..thought he wan scare mi..i damn afraid sia..guess wad he sae..ur shoes oso veri beautiful..haha..funni and lame too..but e snake was at e same row as us la..at wher joyce sit...haha..she and her frenz scared till siao...haha..and tt randy hor..she act wan suan tt short legged monster..donno why she suan till mi sia...anyhow de...lolx..i kip laugh...veri nice lehz..veri dark ma..den we walk together..lyk hiking liddat la..i veri scared bats lorz..den e bats dere was lyk so huge...scary sia..den jovan..kok kok..and les..kip scare us..siao man..den tt jovan..mi and mela walked behind ma..nobodi behind us..i scared got ghosts lo..he still sae got smth bhind us..trying catch us..i scared till ran to e veri front....haha..liddat scare mi..lolx..i tis np gal weak de lehz..so don anyhow scare mi la...bu yao luan luan lai...haha...i reali enjoy myself ytd...den after tt we went cck..mi and kokkok go kopitiam eat..others eat maggi outside cheers..haha..den les send yingjie home...den others go home together..i went home alone...scary lehz..nobodi walking tt shelter..oni mi..bit eerie..haha..veri scary..so i walked veir fast lorz...reach home went bathe den slp le..veri tired...
den todae lehz..tio tt premy cheat....she lorz..i told her tt job confirm got age limit..sae don haf..ended up got...so cant lorz..wanna go back np..but scared sir scold..so qiao..hazleen and natalie oso nv go..so we sae 12.15 meet den go np lorz..but hor...later we don wan..coz my diarrhoea back again..kip go toilet...so reali cant go..den oso scard tt jl sir scold..so we study ourselves ba...den ssy call mi..he thought i pig sia..haven wake up..haha...den we kip tok bout np lorz..cleared some doubts bout commands wif him..and lehz..i noe some secrets of ncos..haha..wad dey do during camp la..i mean after we lights out...next time muz learn dem...haha..sentry duty purposely go nco bunks..den fun le...haha..nv tink tt ncos all so notti..lolx..tok to ssy for bout 2 hrs..den lehz mama ask mi do smth..so hang e fone lorz..lolx...
at nite my er sao call mi...not mi la..my mama...she still in s'pore..i miss her and all my neices or wad la..i donno..lolx..miss dem calling mi gu gu ma..todae my san sao went back to kl le..i miss jinwen and jinquan...but er sao still in s'pore lehz..he new baby i nv see be4 lehz..2 yrs old le ba..coz tt baby not tt strong yet..so new yr tt time dey nv go malaysia ma..so fast 2 yrs gone..i asked er sao come my hse de..but she sae she donno how..lolx..papa ask mi go fetch..i sae i got car i confirm go..lolx..haha...er sao sae tis sat going orchard see e christmas lighting..so mayb i will be going wif her ba..lolx..i oso donno lehz..sunday family going to ah ma hse..4got..ytd my ah ma discharged frm hosp le..so sun go her hse visit..but i cant go..coz going out ma..lolx..but if last min sun plan destroy by him..den i can go lorz..haha..but better don la..haha...sian.....wa..so long le..i wan go play gb..lolx..tml 4/8 last paper for o le..wish dem good luck ba..lolx..after tt dey can chiong liao..and can help mi write my testy le...owe so long liao..lolx...ok la..byes..

stop asking mi find a stead la...

2004-11-16T04:34:00.000-08:00

todae went sch gif tt money...wif mela..den hor..so heng or suay lehz..i told mela i saw some1..haha...not 1..but 3...i dere kip laugh..got ws..vin..cy...dey nv tuck in their shirt..so when see mr lim..dey tuck in..den ws face veri red lehz..reali funni..kip laugh sia...but i veri kelian..kip diarrheoa..reali wan die liddat..i eat at food court wif mela and stefy...halfwae go toilet..den come back no appetite le..den lehz went shop shop...haha..ping call mi sae dey at long john...so we went find them..sae weiting...nv sae hi sia..feel veri bad..haha...den sit dere listen to them sae bout greenridge de story..haha...sian..falling asleep...lol..then got one stupid person..call and leesiao..guess is hu...ssy...haha..my kor kor..lolx..he lame lorz..call le hang..i haven pick up hang le..den i called back..nv pick up...den he call and hang again..sec4 veri free hor..lolx...he later sae is wan kajiao mi de..so he use his homefone call my hp..tok tok lorz..veri funni...he hor..kip ask mi find stead..coz my da sao wan see...he oso wan see...can pass den can be my stead lehz..siao bo...haha..i sae i wan sec4 de..got any1 free for mi ma...haha..he sae sec4 too tall for mi...pls la..i noe i short..not tt short rite...confirm got de..ask mi wan hu??haha..ask him find 4 mi lorz..trust him..lolx..den hor...he gif de all veri funni..got 4/5 de joel...weida...chakyong...haha..he sae weisiong cannot..coz he can pass him..but da sao will fail him de...so funni...den i sae cham le..da sao so high expectations for mi...i confirm 80yrs old oso cant find 1 de...he don nid worry de la..when he wanna get married wif my da sao..i confirm got stead le..haha..tt one can assure him de..tt time is when i oso donno..take my time la..kip ask mi find..veri fan lehz...i tink tink tink...nobodi suitable for mi..den he sae i so ma fan..as though ppl wan mi liddat..i noe ppl don wan mi ma..so muz carefully choose..hahahaha...dne i sae bye to ping dey all..stommach pain la..so went home lorz....dne ssy sae he nv go out wif mi be4..after o wan go out wif mi...haha..no plm de..haha..but hor..he cute lehz..sae don wan singledate...muz find xian jun go wif us..diao...veri stupid lorz..sae nv go out wif mi be4...den wan ask xian jun go..siao sia..but more ppl nicer..ask da sao go e best..nonono..better don..later i tio hit by her..haha..went home le still on fone wif him..tok till ear pain sia...sae bye le go see doc..muz guai abit..later reali lyk sun yan zi..in hosp coz of diarrheoa...haha..den siao le...so i go see doc lorz..tt doc veri cute lehz..sae is i nv drink enuf water..he oso noe i nv eat alot these few days..haha...sae stomach cant take it ma...so liddat lorz..ask mi y i nv eat lehz..i dere smile smile..den he sae he noe y..he sae i got mani xin shi..so no appettie eat...i dere smile smile..act donno..doc become consellor sia..ask mi don tink so much..health impt...haha..i sae okok..den go liao lorz..went home i don wan eat medicine..oso don wan eat dinner...later i diarrheoa again ma..but ppl aks mi muz eat..so i listen lorz..eat abit..lolx..now stomach still pain...strange hor..is stomach..y not gastric huh...haha..sian....tml going tt night safari...veri tired lehz..after see doc i sleep ma..mama donno i sick..so she veri cute..tell my sis i confirm smth wrong..kip sleep de..ytd nite i stomach kip pain ma..how slp..lolx...sian sia...i muz tink next time ppl ask mi find stead wad i shld sae....yeah..sae i found 1 le..but don tell u who..haha..dne change topic..confirm succeed de..lolx...okok..now wan watch ren wo ao you le..finale...lolx..sian..so nice de show ending soon....lolx..good luck to sec4..tml they taking geo paper2...

veri boliao lehz...

2004-11-15T04:55:00.000-08:00

todae nth much happen la..ytd randy asked mi go watch movie todae..but lehz..don wan la..lazy go out...lolx...ytd i slept at 1 ba...earlier den usual..but is a mistake..i sleep early...ended up wake up later...haha..but donno why lehz..papa veri good..nv ask mi wake up todae..sian sia...reali tired..these days keep got nightmares and mani stupid dreams..and tt person name jus keep appear...wah..i oso sian le...my nightmares oso kip bout same ting..haha..wad kena trap in malaysia..can nv see my frenz animore...alwaes tis noe...dreams veri stupid de..don wan sae..lolx..den lehz..tt ssy1 hor...i hao xing ask mi take care muz eat dinner..cant study till 4get..he lehz sae will tc but ask mi when go find 1 boyfren and get into relationship...veri bad rite..sae i muz while young and pretty go find 1..cant wait animore...he liddat..relatives oso liddat..all cant wait see mi got boyfren issit...lolx...tis type of ting how can force de..let nature takes its course ba....haha...recall his msg i kip laugh sia...as though i don find one now i will grow old....haha...don worry la..mi will find de..provided tt e person wan mi ma...if not find le don wan mi oso cham..den i kena hurt..lolx..don kip ask mi get one stead la..veri fan de lehz...i oni 14 worz...still muz enjoy my youth de..kk..write till here..go watch ren wo ao you le..bye...

Stupid day of of mine..heez...

2004-11-14T07:13:00.000-08:00

todae is my cousin's birthday..haha...i woke up at 10...not veri early la...they 7.30 gave mi morning call liao..ask mi wake up..i sae kk..den went slp...pig hor...reached cousin house bout 12.30 liddat la...wa..my sis and i lyk vip sia..bday boi wait for us at interchange..lolx...i sae how come no red carpet...went dere hor..ate one drumstick...lolx..tt drumstick and curry chicken plus bo bo char char was mine breakfast plus lunch...reali no mood eat lehz..donno y sia...
i was veri veri sian...msg ppl..ppl either not free or studying..haha...sian sian..i read teenage for e whole day...read till slp..aunt asked mi wake up go buy jolly shandy and bday cake...den go wif my cousin lorz..haha..my dar dar esther...lolx..she hor...don strength wan act got..carry 2 boxes of jolly shandy till dropped on floor..i kip laugh at her..bad rite...lolx...den e stupid cashier..sae js got alocohol de..mi underaged cant buy..guess wad??..i sae cannot isiit...nvm lorz..call my aunt come down settle it..if cant ask manger come out...hhahahaha...veri funni sia..tt cashier sae okok..let u all buy..oni once don sae nv warn u..lata tio caught not my plm hor..lolx..my cousin sae tio caught ask her mama bail us out lorz..ppl sae muz help adult ma..so we helping dem to buy..hahaha...veri funni..den tt cashier diam diam...lolx....and my mama...she hor..veri wad..i hang her fone..she la..aunt ask her buy js for her..den she sae muz be mi dere kip kajiao aunt ask her buy..i totally innocent lorz...my cousins..not mi dere kajiao de...damn angry and fed up..so hang fone lorz...den off it...bth...todae i wan veri happi de ma..how can let her destroy it jus liddat...hahaha..i reali bit siao liao...
i carry 4 boxes of js...my cousin oni e cake..den she clever seh..bout to reach liao..she ask mi carry cake and 2 boxes of js..den tell her mama she help carry so much...lolx..den i dere laugh...lie without blinking sia..pro....went to kitchen do tings..help cook..cut and prepare lo...and tt uncle of mine...sae i muz not call my aunt aunt le..muz call in law..so i gek gek ask wye lehz..den he dere sae u tink lorz..lolx..i diam diam...later i take tings in and out of hse..prepare for bbq...uncle ask mi got dui xiang le ma....haha...i sae don haf...regret saying tt..he sae don haf tt my cousin got chance le...i peng diao...my niece come liao..wa..she so cute..my er yi ma sae she kip looking for biao yi..which is mi...still rmb mi lehz..1 wk nv see her le...lolx..miss her..she come le run 2wards mi ask mi bao bao her..den kiss my cheeks..lolx..cute rite..but i busy...so haf to ask my mama take care..go cut the prawn otak...haha..den my uncle come into kitchen...fan mi again..sae he spoke to my dad le...my dad sae i can be reserve for my cousin...i was shocked...i sae huh veri loud...wah..hope got ppl beside mi..sae i booked le..lolx..den uncle sae when his son is 20 i will get married..i dere smile smile...ask mi can ma..i immediately sae cant..he sae y not..i sae i got target le...he sae got target ma..not yet mine..lol..so can..den he sae unless got ppl wan jio mi nid quene..i sae got..got 3...lolx..he sae so mani ar..i laugh...he sae i jk oni..i sae don believe ask ping lorz..lolx..he sae den muz ask his son quene liao...i sae ok lorz..slowly quene ba...haha..veri bad hor..i noe he is jk de la...but hor..whole yr he toking bout tt lehz..better not become real...if not i siao...haha..tt cousin lehz is sec1 tis yr..younger den mi..lolx..tis factor all nvm la...but muz got feelings de ma...he tink wan jiu wan de ar...lolx...den all my relatives laugh..i veri ps lehz..got so mani ppl...den another uncle sae i muz quickly find stead..if not i cham..haha..all lyk find mi xtra..wan kick mi out liddat...after went watch tv..papa sae wan go home le..for his info..i haven eat lorz..bbq pit full...den i sae go go lo..i don eat...damn angry..so i go bbq food for my uncles and aunties..xcept him..haha..guess wad??...mama sae papa jealous..cute lehz...so see him kelian i bbq for him lorz..i told rong..he sae i nv bbq for him don wan to tok to mi le...wah..in ! somemore lehz..haha..veri funni....todae reali veri stupid sia..kena ppl tease till liddat...no face le la..poor mi...haha..veri sian lehz..wan orh orh lehz...lolx..kk la..stop here 4 todae...nitez...

Which is more impt??love or friendship...???

2004-11-13T07:54:00.000-08:00

Todae when i woke up..my mood was better..ytd i 3 plus then slp..i was sick at tt time..he asked him go slp..but i don wan..i cried again..listened to 933fm till cry...coz they tok bout love la..mani tings...but i was veri touched..ping noe i was sad and unhappy these days..so she act send a msg to the dj..and dian ge for mi..but tt dj la..nv read out...but i was reali touched...den i oso boliao..i send 1 msg in..but oso nv read out..stupid lorz..tt msg i sae wish shi shna de ren nen huo de kai kai xing xing..and she and him can be 2gether..of coz thanks ping for her an wei..why suddenly will wish and him 2gether i oso donno la..i msg her ytd ask her she at wher..ask her go home ma..her blog sae she don wan go home..she replied she wif him and those guys la..den i bit uh hmm..lolx...so i cant slp at all..stupid lorz..high fever..38.9...lolx..but todae ok le la..so nvm la..these moring woke up..donno y lehz..i decided live happily...i reali hate last few days..den i oso asked him and her conc on o 1st lo..liddat lorz..don wan ppl worry bout mi..parents veri worried..see i these few days i kip red red..so quiet..lolx..but muz thanks every1...todae i reali happy la...jus sometimes will veri quiet den tink bout those tings..eyes will red again..my sis todae veri cute..she go hit mi..veri pain lorz...den she arbish finish le go knock on chair and fell down..i luff non stop..so funni sia...went out wif parents..go my uncles de shops..he verii vute too..gif mi and my sis 2 game king wif 4 cartridge....game king nv hear be4 hor..not in market yet...smht lyk gameboi liddat...haha..veri nice la game king..i reali sian..so holi can use it to play..at least wont so sian..wont hu si luan xiang..correct..donno la..my han yu pin yin sux...den haf lots of fun in my uncles shops...i wan tt pig i saw in tt shop de..but too shy la..nv ask him gif mi..lolx...tt one veri cute lehz..then my mei got one keyboard...79.90 de...my uncle dote on her sia..gif her..nv gif mi....wahaha..lol..but i oso don wan la...i went to bugis after tt..raining..i walked in e rain..my fav lehz...den went hosp visit my grandma...lolx..but hor..at mrt dere i scream lehz..coz got bee fly onto my hair..so lorz...den went dere got nobodi..thought my relatives all not visiting my grandma todae..den my cousins came...shocked dao..coz dey wont be free todae ma...lolx..my papa veri cute...he kip joked wif my grandma and my aunt..sae he after my ah ma money..lolx..jk oni de la...den my grandma veri cute..she joinde my dad..2 of dem kip joke..i laugh lorz..happy tt grandma so alert and fun..haha...went out the ward..sat dere tok wif cousins..wa..den hor..5 cousins plus my sis is 6 la..tickle mi..i siao liao...i curled myself up lo...den fell on e floor...wa..they pervert la..go pull my shirt..lucky i nv went naked..and mi wore jeans todae..if skirt..sure cham...veri bad lehz..liddat bully mi...not i weak worz..is got 6 ppl hor...i oni 1...lolx..make mi so exhausted trying to stop dem..haha...dne after tt..went into ward again..shld not go in..coz hor..my grandma..er yi ma..and da yi ma quarreling..siao liao..grandma after tt diam liao..but er yi ma and da yi ma lyk wan fight liddat..er yi ma so angry till walked out...i dere stunned dao..after ttdey still go home 2gether..so shld be ok la...excited bout tml lehz...cousin bday..got bbq..lolx..i gonna marinate e chicken...lolx..den can drink..happi lehz...papa sae cant drink too much..but jolly shandy can alot...lolx..i donno why wanna drink..i reali wanna take a break...i rmb 3wks ago ba..i drink too..coz i was veri sad too...tt time drink till bit gong le...so i was not tt fan..so tml lehz..haha...but i still tink drink oso cant solve plm de...oni 4 a while nia....haiya..i donno la...she sae her hp gonna be away..ask mi got any last words to sae..i told her hope we still fren and no matter wad..i will respect his decision and wish it wont affect our friendship...went home use msn..found him com broke down...wa..reali veri qiao...so tis wk sure sian..no crap ma..haha..looking 4ward to next wk...coz tue going out wif ping..wed go night safari..12 liddat den go home..shiok sia..den thur np...and sun going out..can go home late lehz..haha..nice la..can play till siao..sunset....next sun better don rain..i wan watch sunset de....lolx...and 4get sae..jus now when i going to mrt frm hosp..i saw mani bats...and i rmb got bats mean got zombie..and those bats appeared beside the place where forensic scientists do their jobs..eerie...i screamed again..lolx..and those cousins..got tell mi ghost stories to scare mi..sae got zombie beside mi...haha..i tis np gal gal weak la...haha...tml muz go couusins house veri early..so muz slp early liao..sianz..oso got nobodi tok to liao..so wye not...go slp..lolx...i rmb when got plm..go slp...haha...i gonna miss him ba....donno la...confusion...lolx...gtg le..wah..wrote so long le...nitez everybodi..miss u all...

cotinued...

2004-11-12T04:42:00.000-08:00

mi in e morning wrote so much le..now i still feel lyk writing..i read her blog..i reali donno wad to do..i told him my decision will be hang on to it....i reali don understand why muz she gif up when she cant even survive for a min without him..i noe wad she told mi ytd most are qi hua...i reali tink tt she could hang on to it de...is jus tt she don wan..ytd was reali teriible la..ended up 3 ppl so fan..i was veri worried bout she and him..i reali scared she will do foolish tings..and tt him will drink alot..tts y i so panicked..ended up 2 gals crying..1 boy drinking...he told mi not to live in e past..but i jus cant..there is surely a reason y she choose to gif up...if she tinks tt by getting out of tis..she..mi and him will be happier..i can sae tt she is totally wrong..i reali wish to haf a good talk wif her..but she sae she don wish to sae bout it for 2dae...so shall find another time then..but i reali feel is mi tt cre8 tis big plm...if i nv noe him..tis wont happen..and ended 3 ppl liddat..i noe him is alreadi veri fan..so is she..both still got o level to go..not lyk mi..so carefree lidddat..she sae she may regret it one day..and when tt happen den see how..but by e time..it may be too late liao..i giving it a good thought now..lyk both of them sae..wad happen alreadi happen..but dere is still tings tt can be done..though love is wad ppl sae to be..being selfish..but will u be happy by doing tt..will others too..is oso not smth tt u can pass here and dere...i thought of giving up when she told mi tt she is doing tt..but i thought..if i were to told she and him tt i am giving up..it may even hurt them more..and tis tings wil nv gonna be settle...she should take back her words..she didnt reali mean it in e 1st place..rite..she takes back e word..she would be much more happier..coz she nid him and cant live w/o him..if she do tt..he will be less fan..coz he wont feel guilty..and mi too will be happier..but choice is reali up to ourselves and nobodi...a wrong decision will surely makes u regret e rest of ur life..lolx..i reali wish to be lyk in e past..when in nv noe them..all e above act is write in afternoon de..but blog got plm..so post now..ping gif mi some advices wad i shld do wif regards to tis...i tink thru le..i shall stay wif e decision i make ytd nite..as for her..i reali donno la...my mood was slightly better liao..don wanna tink bout it 1st..at least for tonite...and i finally i cant take it le..i am sick liao...fever..headache..see how weak can i be...gonna go rest..if not mama sure sae hu ask mi nv take good care...haiz....

continue from ytd.....

2004-11-11T20:02:00.000-08:00

ytd was 11 nov 2004..i nv gonna forget tis day...is the worst day i ever haf...i reali feel tt wad happen i am held responsible..u tink there are other factor tt cause tis to happen...i am oni 1 of it..i agree..but i am oso the biggest part..i seeked mirabel for adivce..she told mi si not my fault..coz tt gal choose to gif up is tt she knew is not worth it holding on to it..but dont u tink..without my presence it may not happen...ytd when i noe tt she is giving up..i cried..i reali think i am responsibel..e whole nite i nv slp..til tis morning...i was thinking bout wad i shld do..continue it..or gif it up...i cant make a decision..i reali don meant to hurt anyone de...she sae she was sorry for creating unhappiness for mi..is not her fault..i don blame her at all...i noe when she sae she wanna gif up..she muz be reali hurt and crying ba..feelings don fade rite away de...y muz she gif up..she had waited for so long..is not worth it..i reali donno wad to do..ytd aftr toking to ping for e second time..i smeaked out of my hse..i went walk walk..tt was bout 1 plus le..after i went home..i started making my decision..wa..i spent the whole nite thinking thru..den in e morining i reali cant take it..i took a nap..when i woke up..it all seems lyk past liao..but..when i tink of her..i cried again..i reali feel bad..though she sae is not my fault at all..i feel tt i am simply a bitch...i jus cant take wad happen ytd..i wanna haf a break..i wish tt todae i will be spare frm nagging...i cant take these anymore le..he wanna make a decision tt nobodi will be hurt...but i don tink dere will be such decision..in tis type of plm..there are bound to be ppl who will be hurt and ppl who dont..as long as it hurt e least ppl..it will be e best le...he nid not feel guilty at all..is not totally his fault..every1 had a part to play..i wanna spare myself frm tis todae..but i donno if i can achieve it...coz wad happen kip appearing in my mind...i am reali tired liao..these 2 days..i had veri little slp...i wanna go do smth relaxing..but wad can i do..i feel tt every1 involved nid a break..to cool down and all those tings..may tis be sorted out soon..and ppl hu r invloved..pls take good care..u shld noe hu i reffering to..is not e rite time to make decision when u are not calm enuf..it will only end up a wrong decision tt u will regret..so i truly hope tt she will tink over..as long as she don gif up and stay wif it...i will gif up..coz is shld mi and not her..i oso not sure la..gif up oso wont solve it...jus stay wif it 1st and see how it goes...i wan go crazy le la...

the worst day in my life...........

2004-11-11T07:07:00.000-08:00

ytd i chat on fone till 3.40 then slp...den todae 10 wake up le..went to chinatown shop shop lo...coz later go hospital visit grandma mahz...while shop shop...my mama cry lehz..she sae grandma may got kidney failure..i thought will be okie de..she sae..grandma alreadi veri old..go for diagnosis she sure cant take it de...touchwood la..may not even survive till eoy...wa..then i diam diam liao...mi reali sad..i rmb my grandma sae be4 wan see mi grow up and get married de..i sae be4 i will support her fianacially de...so she muz wait for mi to do tt ma...though is may..i was damn worried...so not much mood while shopping...den recieve call again...sae my grandma not kidney plm..is wei fa yan....i was so happy..not tt serious ma...sae happy la..but not liddat de...tis plm settle liao...got another...i donno la..tt ting sooner or later ppl will noe..
went home in my uncle van...i was bit moody...but glad to see a veri bright star...one and oni...but it seems not to be a lucky star..i went reading ppl blog..tts wad i usually does..but i read one and tts it..i felt tt i made e world biggest mistake...i read le i dropped tears..i asked ping go see...den she called mi..tis time i cried...my sis saw tt..my parents too...i tried held back...ping got hear mi crying..she diam diam...if u ask mi y i cried..i shall tell u i did smth tt i will not 4gif myself...now i still dropping tears...i jus feel lyk getting away..not seeing any1 at all...i wan go beach now..i wan spent the nite alone...ping..sorry but to break promise..i jus cant don tink la..i wan go do anyting i can now..if i nv recieve an ans...i may jus cut off contact wif him..i promise i will gif up...donno la..i wan go cool down liao

why does gals seems to be always fan...??

2004-11-10T04:16:00.000-08:00

todae nth much..but hor..i kip tink of my grandma...hope she is getting better..i can only visit her tml..lol...my grandpa and grandma are reali a loving couple..they so old le yet so romantic and mushy..lolx..i see le kip luff..
Days seem to get more bored..and i just don wish to stay at home at all...now mama don even let mi used com so often..liddat very sad de lehz..i wan go out and play lehz..haha..todae i spend the whole afternoon doing my blog..every1 shld haf notice the new tings ba..but i still not happy lehz..coz lyk bit bored..rong sae quite nice..i don wan quite..mi wan veri lehz..haha..but is not nice to mi at all..nvm..i go polish up..at least is better than my previous de..haha..
my foot got blisters lehz..veri veri pain..the stupid slippers fault la..make mi suffer..i don dare burst it..scared later pain..lolx..
early part of the day i was xtrmely happy..oso donno why lehz..but now...haiz..i seems to be fan again..not reali fan..is lyk sad..i reali scared i will lose him lorz..but is fated isnt it..and hor..i plan to go out wif my frenz on 29..after my promotion test..den outside tt time ask for ans..at least i cry got frenz care bout mi ma..if happy got ppl share joys wif mi...it seems to tell mi tt it will be sad not happy..i don wish write le..i noe he got read my blog de..but i write so i feel better ma..hope he wont sort of feel bad or wad la...lolx...i gtg and help mama deliver smth..

i finally don feel so bad le...

2004-11-09T08:39:00.000-08:00

ytd lehz...i reali break down..cant take it le...i din slp at all..so todae tired..lolx..todae morning..bout 9 plus..mama wake mi up..sae grandma in hospital again..i was sad to hear tt..donno y she in hospital again..veri tired then i fell asleep till 11...randy called sae they all under my hse le..ask mi go down..sian..veri tired lehz..haha..then went down..they kip chat bout ro...i noe nth...so i diam diam..then they went to my hse..go mess everyting up..mama scold mi lo...she sae my room not lyk a gal room..coz even let guys go in..haha..no choice..com inside ma...after tt we play poker..game call cheat..issit..4get le..i pick up e skill liao..1st time play win liao...lolx..then after tt they went home lo...haha...so liddat la..veri tired..took afternoon nap..at bout 6..mama came home le.sae she fell down while working..sad sia..so mani tings happen..went visit my grandma after tt lorz..she looked so pale and weak..i see le heartpain..she veri good to mi de..so i sure will take good care of her...hope she will be fine...bout 11 then reached home...on e cm and chat lorz...i oso donno why..i decided to tell her..but i reali feel much much better now..i managed to solve liao....at least less 1 ting to fan ma..now i oso okie le la..she happy..he happy..i oso happy lo..take 1 step count 1 step le la..haha..i decided to kan kai...noe le decision..i will gif them my blessings de..i reali veri happy now..though jus now feel veri sad..i reali hope tt her wont coz of tis sad or anyting..mi will feel bad de worz...tts all ba..got nth sae le..lolx..

getting urself hurt when u noe u can avoid it..

2004-11-08T06:08:00.000-08:00

Todae got nth much to write..wonder if any1 sense my mood todae...ytd nite haf a long tok wif rp..haha..not settling tings..but we r so sian..so gossip bout mani ppl..lolx..rp kip ask mi between her and mi..or her and any1 hu will get married 1st..my ans is always she 1st...donno lehz..got those feelings she veri early get married de..lol...muz thanks to rp mentioning smth ..coz i 4get tt ting liao..but now..decided shld reali tink bout it..something cant jus dragged on de..in e end i m e one hu gets hurt..but i reali don wish to tink bout it..last few days my mood was veri good..coz i nv tink bout it..but now lehz..i reali got no ans to tt plm la...but hor..i will tink de...i ask rp lots of qns too...haha..i agree wif her ans...muz tink thru..cant sae anything..coz a wrong ans will end up mi being hurt ma...i m not reali sad..is tt..my heart hor..lyk got big stone liddat..got xin shi lehz..but donno shld tell hu...don wan go fan my laogong..i kip fan her le..find rp lehz...donno how telll..lolx..so don sae e best la..got tis type of terrible feeling rite noww...i donno la..i reali no wish to tink..lyk rp sae lo...get out of it..then no nid fan le..not sae get out jiu get out de lehz...nvm la...tml don wish stay at home lehz..but rp and mela got co..muz after co then can pei mi..looks lyk muz stay at home and bored to death liao...

stars...

2004-11-07T05:05:00.000-08:00

ytd i was veri tired therefore nv update my blog..lolx..ytd my papa asked next yr i still studying in ccks...i found tt qns bit stupid..lolx..of coz la..he thought i next yr poly or jc lliao..i kip laughed..haha..donno when..i so fast sec4 liao..lol..cant blame him..he alwaes blur blur de..went to bugis ytd wif my family..shop shop lo..veri sian..but was sort of fun too...but these days kip kena nagged by parents..sick of it..i went home bathe le..then use com..mama scold mi..sae alwaes liddat..haha...but i did not care bout her..went chat wif ppl ma..but veri late le..i oni tok to rong..tok halfway..for some reasons don fell lyk toking to him..so diam diam lo..haha..he sae he feel weird..coz i nv tok..lolx..lyk i so talkative liddat sia..coz i was tinking..if i m a star..i wanna be e brightest..but if i am..how to face other stars of mine..coz..they too wanna be e brightest..but they did not noe i wan..so i tink tink....got 1 way out...if tt happen..i shall tell e other stars..they wont blame mi de..will they??...lolx..so tt ting don nid worry le....but hor..if i not e brightest star..i confirm damn sad de...tis one is don nid sae de...lolx..haha..i tink ppl oso donno wad i toking..by e wae..got 1 blog i sae bout e story..ending coming soon le...lol...
todae i went to my cousins' house..my aunt veri bad lehz..suan mi in front of my cousins..i noe i don haf e type of figure..but oso don nid shoot mi ma....lolx..but nvm la..i noe we were all jk oni..and donno why..i saw 3 ppl todae...at lot one i saw yanxi...on e bus i saw chai kee...on lrt..i saw hongwei..most funni de is hong wei..see mi veri paiseh mehz..he turned away lehz..so i oso liddat lorz..mao mao so bad de..
At my cousin house..i was veri angry..not wif my cousins..but in front of my cousin house is a canal..and i witnessed 6 children torturing a 4 legged snake..donno wads e name in el..but cl is si jiao she..lolx..my language veri poor de...u noe wad...those children tied a rope around the 'dragon'...haha..mela sae si jiao she is dragon...lolx..so jus call it dragon..then they swinged the dragon around...and 1 boy used a wood and hit the dragon..then they dragged it around...and even stepped on it..guess wad..15 mins later..they still doing tt..and now tt so call dragon die liao..wa..i saw le veri angry..then my papa sae wad can u do..haha..can call spca..but i don haf their number..too bad la..is reali cruel of those children to torture animal..is not tt they small..don under tt is wrong..there got older de lo...i stood there...simply got nth to sae..
i went to lot one for dinner...veri crowded..while walking home..i looked into e sky..but i jus cant see any stars lehz..now i love stars alot..haha..but lehz..too bad la..e astronomy tingy cancel liao...when can see stars...lolx..next sun my cousin bday..but my mama don wan go..coz aunt nv invite her..i mean got la..but nv personally ask..she asked my yi ma tell her..lolx..adult oso got liddat de ar..haha...and oso hor..todae while going to lot one on lrt..i saw sun setting..abit only la..behind e buildings...i still tink sunset nicer..but sunrise oso nice..the sun when wanna set..the scenery is so nice..hu wan pei mi go see sunset??...nice lehz..i of coz wan see sunrise too..but parents wont let mi stay overnite de..so too bad lorz..lolx..i betta stop here..if not mama wan nag liao..bye..

fun day..

2004-11-04T07:33:00.000-08:00

Todae we went to science centre...i had lots of fun..and i kip toking bout xing xing..haha..nobodi noe hu ish xing xing..but mela guessed it liao..so clever hor..haha..of coz la..my lao gong lehz..i oso got dar dar le..lolx..muz announce..melanie is my dar dar liao..lolx..i lesbian lai de..i told mela..i xiang si till i became les..lolx..but hor..i todae eat wad oso lyk still hungry..donno y lehz..tis few days veri hungry..finish eating..after a while hungry agian..sad sad...lolx..and i hate omni threatre..i todae till now hor..head damn pain..lyk wan burst le..help mi..the stupid threatre la..watched le giddy giddy..i nv wanna go dere agian..but hor..i slept thru both shows..haha..saw 2/5 again i was bit sad..coz i miss every1..lyk afiqah and amin sae..they missed seeing tingyang kajiao mi..i oso missed la..lolx..then oso missed amin and fiqah dere bully each other but veri sweet type de..wa..next yr imagine i m sitting beside a quiet person..wa..i sure bored to death de..haiz..i wan appeal to 3/11..it belongs to 2/5 de..lolx..if got sure mani ppl appeal..i oso missed yaoqing de lets call it a DAy..and go home and SLEEP...wa...so mani memories..is gonna stayed wif mi..lolx..
when i was walking home..there was a slight drizzle..so i purposely walked slow slow..lolx.i love rain..went home hor..i jus stepped inside my room..my mama nagged at mi le..i diam diam lo...then scold mi..so sad..lolx...but later okie le..i guai guai go tidy my room..now so much cleaner..got tings do better than don haf..once i sian..wa..i tink tink liao...don wonder ppl sae gals love to tink...i kip telling mela i missed stars...lolx..then she sae i so ta dan..in front of lao gong still dare sae stars..haha..so i bwg lo..she oso missed ppl ma...heez...still sae mi..but i more cham rite..15 more days liddat..2 wks more..lolx....i tell tt person i so happy i nv tok to tt person in msn for 1 whole day..coz my record ma..lolx..but reali la..veri xing ku de..miss ppl oso don dare sae...i jus now bout to cry lehz..bout oni la..dropped few drops of tears..then okie le...i still rmb i wan be strong de..so cant cry..lol..imagine hor..u miss somebody alot..yet u cant tok to tt person..wa...tt type of feeling..can die sia..so lehz..i nv online..10 plus then online..then after msg my dar dar..i off my fone..jus now then on de..lol...last time is see ppl till sian..now is miss ppl till siao..lolx..tml act going out wif dar dar de..but she good la..wan go watch movie..lolx..but nvm..i wan stay at home..coz tml i wan cook curry chicken..long time no eat le..yummy...hungry seh..betta go orh orh..i don wan kena scold..haha..good nitez...

Missing u....

2004-11-03T06:20:00.000-08:00

todae nth interesting happen..thanks to holiday..i got nth to qrite about lehz...but then todae veri funni...my aunt called and look for yongrong..my sister answered the phone and was like blur..so funni..so she asked by aunt who yongrong???then my aunt oso blur...i kip laughing..my aunt sae she called wrongly..but was looking for yong rong..wa..the world so mani yr sia..lol...
i went to limbang to buy smth for myself..and snacks to eat..it was raining heavily then..my foot were wet..donno why..the pavement flooded..got no other way to walk liao..so walked in the dirty water lorz..raining ma..veri nice to go walk walk..so i walked for 3 hrs then i went home..lol..coz i at home oso veri sian ma...so when i went home..my mama nagged at mi lorz..sae i go out so long..then i diam diam..heez..notti gal hor..lol..
then i went to do housework lorz..haha..not reali la..i go peel and cut prawn..smth liddat la..lolx..then i finished eating the food i bought..i still feel hungry...so i cooked prawns wif meat and chilli..then eat maggi wif it..nice hor..lolx..mama asked why i cook 4 myself oni..she oso wan...i sae too bad lorz..lolx..donno why lehz..these days veri hungry...haha
i went buy 8days...i read read read til horoscope tt pg..it sae tt gemini know instinctively tt ans to my plm lies in people's hands..i agreee lehz..coz i noe tt ma..lolx..i see le hor..bwg...now i oni got 1 plm...and my frenz shld noe wads tt plm la..and i rmb i told mela..i reali donno e ans..lolx..and sae tt the person shall tell mi e ans..coz tt will be my ans too..wa..8days de horo not bad lehz..lol..ppl now busy wif exams..and i usually tok craps or chat oso wif ec4 ma..now lehz..i veri sad sia..i wan go kajiao them oso cannot..lolx..miss them lehz..they muz endure so for bout 20 days ba..i oso muz lehz..lolx..but i noe they veri stress la..so i guai guai...don go disturb...lolx..haha..tml they having e maths paper..wish them all e best...and of coz tml our class going sci centre..veri sian lehz..frm 8.45 to 4..wa..so long..i rather slp..tt omni threatre i go there sure headaches de..not used to it..somemore 2 shows lehz..cham liao..haiz..mama coming home soon..betta go..if not i sure tio scold liao..lol....byez...

wad an unlucky dae......

2004-11-01T06:01:00.000-08:00

todae i overslept...then need go sch gif teacher stupid things...then lehz..todae i nid pray pray..my mom sae wad i out of garden..(translate frm hokkien de)..haha..then hor..mama gif mi angbao lehz...so i 15 yrs old le..according to cl calender la..sae i grow up le..not child anymore..i am an adult..haha..young adult ba..i don wan so fast grow old liao lehz..then veri stupid..i went asked for angbao frm my papa..he heartless lehz..coz he don wan gif mi ma..so to him i still young chidren..lol..but nvm la..i asked for fun oni..got mama de can liao le..coz hor..she sae i grew up le..so confirm wont nag mi liao lorz..can escape le..haha...naughti gal seh..
Then mi and ying jie went sch..cant find ray chua..coz he go bpgh invigilate..stupid hor..then we went office tell tt person lorz..then he sae mr chua unreasonable....ridiculous..lolx..wa..now even office ppl oso helped us le..coz fri we asked mr chua write ma..then he don wan lorz...then till now still sae u all don fill finish..i don write..wa..he big ar..office ppl oso sae if he don write then nvm lorz..lolx..
Yingjie and mi went to cc de mac to makan..then saw chang xuan they all..they retake o level cl..den lehz we went to bus stop wan take bus go cdans to swim ma..then rp called mi..she veri excited lehz..she sae saw siong lehz...faster come la..then tok all those tings..i jus sae yaya..then asked her y so excited she sae coz happy for mi ma..then i sae wan us go oso can..red carpet and golden chair for us lo..she sae no plm..wa..serious lehz..so we decided go see see lo..shun bian discuss bout 2/5 outing..then we saw jw and kevin they all walking towards our direction lehz..then i sae..mei yu lehz..lolx..so sad mei yu not dere..then we walked halfway..rp called us agin..asking us why we so slow..then mi replied..hurry for wad..then rp veri cute..she sae lucky they jus started to eat..i went there le hor..wa..rp...and randy they all shouted SHANG YING...can see they purposely de...not one time lo..so mani times..still tell lao vin..shangying lai le lehz..as though ppl all so excited see mi..hhahaha..then i bwg..ppl lyk noe my name le..ps lehz..all turn looked at mi..wa..pressure lehz..we there kip tok rubbish..leesiao one another...then i thirsty..went buy drink wif randy...i turned my head to where vincent they all were.saw they looking at mi..there i jumped towards randy..veri funni lehz.. vincent they all go liao le..then rp..randy and chaikee..all sabo mi..sae i lyk siong..i peng..bwg..they veri excited lehz..now i see him..attitude is..issit..he dere ar..then liddat lo..lol..not much excitement le..don wan tok bout tis ting la...sae liao more fan..let nature takes its course ma..lol
Yj and mi went took 985 go cdans..guess wad..no membership card cant go swim..i told yj liao..nid de..she sae don nid de..lol..so e stupid lifeguard sort of chase us out la..then we decided to take taxi to cck swimming complex..reached there..is closed..veri suay lorz..we dere kip luff bout out 'suayness'..reali veri funni de...
We went to bp to find rp they all..then went xiao eve house..we haf lots of fun lehz..we played and played..till i fell asleep..reali sian..then we played poker..then got one game called police and murderer..veri fun..next time i wanna play again..muz hold hands and play de..sweet hor..but is reali fun..i enjoyed myself alot...
Went home ate dinner till my stomach bloated..veri ful...lol..watched ren wo au you..tt yilin sucks lorz..so wwicked..but hor sometimes..watch tv can learnt tings de..not saying tt i learnt to be lyk yilin so bitchy la..but hor..u see tt show..the relationship...2 gals lyk one boy and 2 boys lyk one gal..at tt same time tt one gal stead wif tt one boy..is tis type of complicating tings tt caused many plms and hurt ppl alot...so sometimes i reali wish i nv grow up..be someone hu is innocent..at least u wont fall into complicated tings liddat..but as life is full of chanllenges..so haf to face it ba...some morre smth cant be control..lyk feelings la..but lehz..wicked and bitchy action can control de..oso can don do de..lyk wad yilin doing la..those stupid tings...
Wa..i tok till lyk i noe so mani tings liddat..lolx..all those is wad i tink la..but hor..lyk make no sense..i gtg le..i wanna watch tv...bye..and oso..good luck to all sec4..their o level start tml..tml ss paper..so jia you and best wishes..hahahaha...

Xin shi cong cong..(correct??)

2004-10-31T05:56:00.000-08:00

ytd...i went out wif my parents to lot one followed by westmall...my mood was better than on fri..howeva..i was still sad by e fact tt we r seperating...those ppl hu are not us tink tt is normal..not as if we wont see our frenz anymore..they did not truly understand how we were feeling..i noe we could still see them but is lyk the feeling as a class...those jokes tt we oni share in class..making fun of ppl..all those tings...not 4getting ppl telling each other wad happen to them...lyk interseting tings they witness or hear bout the sec4...next yr...there will be no more gossips bout sec4...even got..oso a little oni..ppl may not be interested bout it animore..and sooner or later...ppl will 4get...y muz tings be in tis way..cant it jus goes well....
My mom bought mi a mini demin skirt...not veri short de la..above knee...haha..i decided to wear it when go out wif somebody...then lehz..nth much happen ytd la...is as per normal...then todae lehz..nv chat much wif anyone..coz sec4 busy wif o level ma...so lorz...
Todae when i woke up...heard frm my sis tt radio said tt huang na was found dead...veri sad lehz...ytd we were still toking and discussing bout huang na..den todae liddat...i oso bwg la...it makes s'pore veri dangerous liddat..wad if one day..i oso lyk huang na..i went missing...and found dead three weeks later..how will ppl feel??especially those hu noe mi..will they shed a drop of tear for mi...nobodi knows...
I went to my aunt house and it rained heavily..i donno why..i was alone at the void deck and i was walking around..staring at the rain..many tings went thru my head..those xin shi i managed to 4get for e time being came back to mi..once again..i was sad..not tt sad la...but luckily i haf my niece acc mi..she kip ask mi carry her..wan go shopping..cute rite...but stupid la..donno for wad reason..i played in the rain..for quite long..jus ran around the field..splashed water at my cousins...childish hor...haha
NTh much happen at my aunt's house...then i went home lorz..while i waited for transport...i tink bout the no. 29...my fav no..coz my bday is 29 may ma...haha..but hor..29 seems to be jinx of mine..coz..i rmb on 29 may..which was my bday..i cried tt dae...for some reasons...tt day got class bbq..but frenz teased mi till i cried..sad hhor...then i rmb 29 june..tt dae i oso cried..coz of 1 reason...tt reason hurt mi alot...then 29 oct..which is fri...being goh in muster parade..seperation dae...tt dae i cried oso...it seems tt i will cry on 29 of each month or on some month...then on 29 nov..willl be my np promotion day...taking coporal test..tt one of coz wont cry..but i got one ffeling..or rather my sixth sense seems to tell mi tt i will noe the decision make by tt person and is gonna hurt mi again..then of coz i will cry..i can even imagine wad will happen lehz..mayb is i too bo laio le..so become oversensitive..therefore anyhow tink..hope is liddat la..coz i wanna be a strong gal..i don wish to cry and don wish to be hurt again..but then..i don tink i gonna achieve it lehz..best is let nature takes its course lorz..haha...now lehz...i wan go do tings..oso donno do wad la..find tings do..lolx...

Nothings seems to cheer mi up todae...

2004-10-29T05:26:00.000-07:00

todae was our schterm4 muster parade...np being the goh of coz happy la..budden..early in the morning...we alreadi get scolded by jinliang liao..but nvm la..scold got use..our drill when warm up tt time..was lyk damn ugly..not up to standard...after he scold..drill standard is higher..not saying he scold good la..wa..then we told to get readi liao...heartbeat increases..scared do wrong..then my full u so big..rank kip dropped behind..so ugly oso not comfortable de..
we marched into the parade...our drill got improvements ba..then i love the turning part..so nice and perfect...then we there all veri scared coz may do wrong ma...then they sae changlong shivering..coz his pants got the vibrating motion..so funni..then yanxi same plm lorz..lucky tis time leg nv pain..if not he sure 4get gif command de..np tis time not bad la...
I was quite happy coz got ppl praise the goh lehz..the canteen vendors sae np got lots of potential..and veri good marching..wa...mi touched..then frenz oso sae we not bad..veri nice and neat..but lehz..sec1 the hand swing donno lyk wad..veri untidy..lol..but nvm la..goh nice can le..heez..then got ppl praised my shoe polisehed till veri shiny..wa..i was lyk so happy...coz my shoe nobodi praised mi be4 de lorz..muz thanks ws la.mi tt time asked him how polish ma..premy..not i purposely asked him de..tt time oni got him online in my list of np ppl ma..haha..
after we went for the hall..we listened to ms sim there taliking bout our results..but..i was sleeping..coz veri tired...then after tt went back class..noe which class i go..got veri happy de ren of coz..i got into 3/10..its e best class..but i don feel happy at all..is my choice since the beginning..i was tinking to appeal to bio class...but i asked my cousins and some frenz..then tink i stupid lehz..not i don lyk pure class la..is i feel i don belong there..at tt time..i was bit sad le...
We then watched a dance performance by ah hock and peng you...not bad la..then i tink tt susan is my last time pri sch dance teacher..reali..but i oso lyk 4got le..so muz confirm wif my pri schmates..haha..
We then went back to class to get report slip..i did not get it 1st..yj and mi went to e office and took smth..tt we went back class..when i took it frm mr chua..he sae tt i done veri well..mani A...but hor..sci and math muz waork hard..coz i am in a double maths and science class..so i listended to his advice..decided to buy books le go study liao..i wanna work extremely hard next yr...
Then i walked around the class..i cant bear to leave any1 of 2/5...especially amin..coz he sat beside mi in the class...making mi luff everyday over each other jokes..and now..we are seperated...but we were still remain as bro and sis 4eva de..i miss u...of coz others oso will miss...then i saw mela crying..she sae she veri scared..i oso not sure wad happening..but my eyes became watery..it was not long after seeing frenz of mine crying and i cried..i noe ppl asked mi to be strong..but i cant ta haN le..fifi asked mi not too cry..as ppl see le will oso cry...i held back my tears..for a little while oni..and i saw stephy crying and i cried again...i decided to walked out of e class..so i will not breakdown again..but..ppl sae randy crying...i went to find her...we hugged each other and we cried together..she said she gonna missed us..so m i..i was crying while consoling her...then i went out..stood outside 2/6 there..then i stood alone..yj sae tt wher sy..coz she oni saw 6 ppl..1 missing in lddis mi la...then she reminded mi tt LDdz gonna seperate..so i dropped my tears again..then i ok le..calm down liao..i saw meiyu crying..she was lyk heart broken..so i cried too..meiyu held my hand and tried consoling mi..grace asked mi to be a brave gal...and shld not cry in front of ppl..i luff over it..then kok wei came and asked wad happen...he kpo lehz..ppl so sad..he kip asked tings..bth him...Then i saw leslie crying..fancy a guy crying..i not laughing at him of coz..but i was lyk reali touched..he sae tt...gen peng you bu yi yang ban hen tong ku de..i agreed too...then eyes watery again...then mr chau was lyk stunned see i ry ba..i wanted noe my level position..so he told mi..11 in level..not bad la..but still sad..then i went toilet wif mela..then we came out i cried again..i missed 2/5 alot..i love every1...mea sae y i kip cry..cry jus now le..still cry..i donno la..jus tink of e fact tt we different class..i veri sad liao..
Act we wanna pon np..my idea...bad rite..but in e end nv..ended up i piss ppl off...coz i asked then wait for mi..i wan go orchard..release stress...but feel veri bad..so go bad lorz..how i noe..parade oni briefing on holi programme oni..then sec1 and 3 xian mu us..coz we can go home..
After tt..mi...aisyah..fadhilah..azizah..aniah...george and leng fei walked to lot one..we took veri long time..coz they kip luff..oni mi and aisyah kept quiet..i got no mood to luff..
Then we went shopped shopped..then went into library..i read story book till tired and slept in library..for bout an hour..veri tired...then i heard some nosies..and it was my stomach grumbling....so hungry lehz...i stayed in library till 5.30 then went find my father..i saw wt..waved to her..sorry for tt sad face when see u..coz mi was lyk no mood at all..
Thenmani tings ran thru my head.beside sad tt we are seperating...i find tt ever since tt nite when i msg tt person..we r no longer tt close...heart damn pain by all these tings..i noe tt person o level coming le..so cant blame..but veri sad la..it seems to tell mi to gif up as no chance at all..i tink the whole of 2dae not gonna tok to tt person..veri sad lehz..so mani tings happen liddat..i oso cant kip go kajiao ppl bout all these tings de ma...tt person sae i sad can go find him..but stupid lehz..if he involves i oso go tell mehz..lyk bu yao lian liddat...
Overall not a good day...as for my results..5 A1..3 A2...2 B4...not bad la..but if time can changed..i will choose to cheris 2/5 earlier...but is too late..i noe we gonna kip in touch de...and may everyone stay happy..and good luck to every1...don wanna write le..mi crying le...

Seperation is a torture...

2004-10-28T07:11:00.000-07:00

Todae...cant wrote much..muz go slp early...tml is seperartion dae..we may still see each other..but is lyk we are no longer as a class...having all e fun times together...laughing in class...over lame tings..go agianst chers...i reali gonna miss all of it..veri veri sad now..sure gonna break down tml...how?!?...sad lehz...2/5 rocks on man..i love everyone of u..and memories be rmb..always 4eva in my heart..i sure every1 appreciate the times we had as a class...e tings we do...e jokes we share...to mi..my sec2 yr is e most memorable...no matter wad..sec2 frenz are gonna be my long life frenz..of coz LDDz..todae i am sort of disappointed...coz hor..premy broke her promise..she sae she nv promise..but nvm le la..i reali sae them til i sian le...is lyk sick of saying lorz...lol...reali no mood lorz...sad sad lehz...2/5 seperating le...haiz...tml 5 muz wake up le..lol..gtg..

Crappy day of mine...

2004-10-26T04:25:00.000-07:00

todae lehz..mi can slp later de.wait tt rong up ma..lol..he todae o level physics..nv wake lata wt oso nv wake den cham le..play safe..lolx..
Went sch as per normal..nv see special tings..but when mela told mi he saw tt person wif someone..i diam diam..shld noe how i feel..but no affect mi much..lolx..then lehz..mela got excited over tt np foto..lol...i print for poster de..then she veri bad lehz..wanna stepped the foto..heart pain lehz..lolx..but nvm la..stepped lorz..i support..lol..
We went bowling afterwards..veri shiok..i first time bowled tt time..kip kena longkang..lolx..but lata picked up skills le..though lyk rubbish la..my score i quite happy wif it la..58..43..57..lolx..i thought not bad for mi la..lolx..
I at bowling there..kip asked ppl hu most cute and shuai in tt foto..lolx..every1 agreed tt tt person is cute..and shuai is of coz sherman la..lolx..todae i reali veri happy for the 1st part of e day..then kip kajiao and leesiao ppl..nice lehz...
me took taxi wif randy..mela..and steph went back sch..u noe wad happen..taxi reached the sch bus stop dere..mi shouted..lolx..ppl stunned sia..coz i saw sec4 ma..lame...but funni ma..so ppl sae i siao lorz..
wa..stil got wad..i skipped till after sch ba..we there wait 4 donno wad..lolx..4get le ma..hafiz..congrats ar..he best conduct again..woo...lolx..then saw my name on cctv..wa..get bronze for cl poem competition..lolx..suprise..my cl is lyk rubbish..
then lehz..we went take bus go bp..haha..we in bus luff till veri loud..coz smth funni la..haha..but uh hmmm...so cant sae..
Then lehz..went np lorz..i was bout to late..wa..mi 4got bring socks..wa..tt qisong..scold us..lyk siao..haiz..nvm la..then tt jingliang..go scold jovan..tis time not jovan fault le..i mean jovan went cut ppl socks coz he no bring oso 4 np rite..don nid so fierce ma..he tink he lyk so big liddat..then jovan piss off la..i tink la..xian jun sae jovan went find mr tan to quit np..i donno la..if jl read my blog..then sae i rude..i oso bwg..coz my feelings..wad i tink ma..if not blog for wad...
After np..heard tt jovan missing..we all tried finding him..but cannot find..then jus now..his jie jie called mi..josephine la..lolx..asked mi wad happen..explain halfwae..sae nvm le..jovan is home..lol..cute seh..
Then Qisong sae we sec2 and 3 GOH for muster parade..muz buy gloves..so go buy lorz..buy liao ask rong call mi tok..coz i damn sian..we tok for 1 hr..my hand oso aches..but veri nice..i kip suan him..lolx...then lehz..b4 tt...i asked ppl helped mi shout zy...coz i wan sae hi..then he sae i siao..alwaes wan leesiao ppl...mi is mentally ill..i agreed..lolx..but tink str de worz..haha...
Went home le go makan then bathe..then i read somebody blog...wa..i uh hmm..u noe..natural feeling..heez..then lehz..i asked tt person noe hu was e one i refering to in my blog not..e one i sae..ask mi don wait le..noe smth..i was sad..but dropped tears oni..i nv cry out loud..ppl may tink i no heart..but complicated situation la..i sae will explain here..but i cant..i jus realised..haiz..i muz kept tis in dark...i tink how explain..tt person don tink is tt mi using u...is lyk feeling fade le for him..u under...nvm...don under explain other place..not here..
then my stupid sis now..show attitude...cant find book kip nagged..wa..bth..i wan go shout le la..Mi cant wait go bukit timah hill le la..hu wan go..join mi...if not veri sian de..

Mi sort tings out liao...

2004-10-25T05:24:00.000-07:00

Ytd i nv update my blog coz i was far too busy listening to advices frm 2 ppl..so todae i shall describe wad happen ytd..ytd i went to my grandma house...can sae family's gathering ba..most of my relatives were there...i love my cousin's baby alot..she was so cute..her name is jin wen..she is 1 yrs old plus liddat..she shld call mi biao yi..donno han yu pin yin rite or not..then lehz..she kept saying ee..lolx..so cute and funny..she kip giving mi french kiss then wan mi bring her go shopping..wa...i ytd looked after her the whole day..coz my cousin pregnant again..she vomit till siao..so i volunteered take care of my neice..therefore i carried her go everywhere..till my elbow aches..then tt stupid rong sae i weak..i noe he veri strong la..
i suppose my cousins sensed my unhappiness ytd..coz they did alot of tings to cheer mi up..my aunt go NTUC and mi followed her go together wif my dar dar..Esther(my cousin lai de)..lol...Esther and mi go buy jolly shandy..i rmb ms zee's story about jolly shandy..though oni 0.5% alcohol hor..the taste of jolly shandy is lyk Tiger beer liddat..rong sae got taste de mehz..reali got lehz..mayb i xin li zhuo yong..lol..i drank 3 cans of jolly shandy..which means 1/2 of wad we bought..lolx..
Then my yi ma asked my cousins 1 qns..she sae u tink hu more pretty???shangying or ming fen..then i diao lorz..my dad sae ming fen..my sista la..but i no sad..coz i reali agreed..then my cousin said lucky she the oni gal in e family..lolx.then we all laughed..
After tt we went home lorz...then i online..i added my facilitators..Mirabel and chee aik in msn..both of them asked mi bout my nick and gave mi lots of advices..thanks so much..the advices was bout love and friendship..mostly was how to deal wif love..feelings all those la..Me learnt lots of tings..lyk knowing isit love or jus crush onli..lolx..
learnt so much tings muz apply de ma..therefore i asked 'him' qns..he replied tt i shall not wait animore..he not answering to my qns at all lehz...haiz..nvm la..then i msg tt person alots of tings which is related de la..He asked mi don scare him..coz i lyk gonna leave him 4eva liddat..wa...touched seh..nola..i decided to kan kai le ma..so muz learnt to let go..mirabel gave mi a mission..3 days not hearing from tt person and him..then i will tink more carefully and noe wads rite for mi..but lehz..tt person go tok to mi..so todae not counted..tml then start ba..lolx...
Todae lehz..i suay suay fell sick...i wan ppl gif mi concerns lehz..lolx..bit siao liao..
todae i had a talk wif rp and michelle..we cleared our misunderstanding liao..i read rp's blog..rp if u are reading tis too..u nid not apologise..i got my wrongs too..haha..i decided tt tis 4 days shall be my happiest times in my sec2 life..i wan to live in peace and harmony rite now..i will definitely miss every1..fifi..i noe u read my blog too de..i read ur blog todae..u sae tt someone wished to seperate and be in different class..i donno hu u refering to..but i tink it may be mi ba..i oso wanna cleared some tings..i sae i will love to be seperated..i sae tt is tt i will wan to seperate frm the boys..u shld noe hu they are..i of coz hope every1 remained as one..i tink even though we may be seperating..as long as we keep in touch..we can be as one..In Lddz..there are lots of conflicts here and there..but lddz is oso e group who provide mi wif everyting..the trust i haf in lddz..the happy times i had wif u all..and oso e sad times..u all are always the one supporting mi when i am sad..i learnt to appreciate now..i noe is abit too late..and i am reali sorry for not appreciating it earlier..i will reali miss u all..i am reali sad by wads gonna happen soon..but lyk i sae..as long as we keep in touch..La Ding dOngz will be sure to remain 4eva to every1...I felt so much better after all misundestanding haf been cleared...
My fren told mi tt tml is 'i love u' day..i haven heard of it yet..but nvm...tml u will see e crazy mi saying i love u..don tink wrong worz..in fact i love every1 as all of u are my frenz ever..
i am veri happy todae and will continued to be..the original mi is back..and ppl will tink i m crazy for laughing at nothing..don believe u see tml..amin sure be e first to sae mi de..
Last sentence for my blog todae..I love 2/5 alot..i will always rmb every1 in my heart 4eva..especially lddz..i love u so much..every1 rox on man..
Lastly..tml 4/8 having physics o level practical rite??Wish u all good luck and of coz nth go wrong not lyk tt time e chemicals mixed up..haha..best wishes..

precious days........

2004-10-23T07:50:00.000-07:00

todae...we went to thumbs up programme...it was nice and fun..i get to noe my self better..my facilitator, Mirabel...told mi tt i m a clam...outgoing..and someone hu makes the rite decision...and haf strong leadership qualities..oso gif good advices..i todae lyk whole wae jus kip quiet..do nth..yet Mirabel can describe mi tt well...i don agree wad she sae totally..coz i don tink i m tt good..or not good at all...last wk as 2/5 le..i reali wan to live in harmony..and treasure wad i had...can every1 live in peace jus for now...ytd tt pig sae he dying soon..liew..veri fun liddat sia...so nice play mehz..i cry lehz...tis type of kor oso hab..liddat bluff mi..scared ur mei oni..then tis moring lehz..nth much happen..tings as per normal..then afternoon we went lot..then went home after tt..mela called sae she saw tt person in e bus...then we started discussing bout 2 ppl...is time for mi to tink le..i tink whole nite..i went out wif parents oso lyk kip thinking..my mind veri fan..though i lyk happy happy..then lehz..i tink bout lots of tings..come to conclusion...then on wae home..mi msg tt person..ask stupid tings lorz..then ans i get is i donno..so mi tell tt person e ans...then went online...then smth happen la..mela and mi agreed tt love sucks..and hor..if u lyk someone..and ur frenz kip toking bout them..u will feel veri sad..then donno why..i tok to mela in msn till i cry...mela ask mi lac..i try calm myself down...coz hor..i cry..mela oso fan..i lyk kip giving ppl plms..i told mela..ru guo wo bu zai shi shan...na wo ke nen bu hui na men de tong ku..mela sae mi siao..reali ma..if tt reali happen..ii wont noe anyting..but i sure miss my frenz de..i oni wan noe happy de..sad de go die la..release bits of sadness le..currrently my dae end here..i wan go high hill shout out my plms..hu wan go wif mi one dae...???

I feel more relaxed now..

2004-10-22T08:22:00.000-07:00

todae...we went orchard cineleisure watched movie..wa...my skirt was lyk damn short..veri ps lehz..then ms choo told mi tt 2/6 gals complain bout us lorz...mi wear oso wear le..wan mi take out mehz...then lehz..choir boys was a fantastic show...veri touching...after we went back to sch...then watched NUS choir perform...veri sleepy when listening to them...i was bout to slp..then mi..mela...steph go toilet..then walked out of sch tt time..sec3 np seniors sae mi pon np..no lorz...is ppl sae watched movie don need go de ma..then i shocked..so confirm wif wu lieh..then he sae change le..all muz go..i stunned..mi no attire..no keys go home take..how sia..panic lorz..then they sae ask mi get back by 3..siao bo..i not supergal..so i heck la..i wits end ma...went to sakura wif mela...steph..the boys sae we ate damn long time..no lorz..tt person took so long to serve..aiya..nvm la..then we discuss bout someone lorz..i bear for very long le lorz...but nvm la..jus 1 more wk to go...and tings will be fine..mela agreed wad i sae..of coz i will miss some..but not all...haiz..how i wished time can go slower..todae sec4 last day of sch..nice lo...mi and mela sad sad sad..coz..is lyk most of e times..we tok bout them...joke oso bout them..looking 4ward to sch oso them...haha..nvm la..muz adapt ma..then lehz...i went home tt time...take 190..i was engrossed reading my magazines...nv looked up lorz..when i did..i saw tt person...though i sae i am fine..i m not...in my heart...i haf an idea wad gonna happen le..mi not having any hopes..coz i don wanna be hurt..u noe how painful it is...haiz..i was lyk veri happy...then sae tt person..wa..mood lyk change...love hurts alot..but nvm la..i reali blame no one 4 anyting..is fate..if we destined means we are de...lolx..i lehz..muz learn kan kai liao..if not i cham...tml still got thumbs up..sian...can human haf no feelings..lyk tt life lyk carefree and fun..haha..toking endless craps now...i veri cold..don wan write le...

TiNgS haD ChaNge..IsNt iT??

2004-10-20T05:07:00.000-07:00

todae was lyk a veir veri terrible dae...so terrible tt i nv even went np todae...frm morning till now...i was lyk veri fan..and sad...real reason nobodi noe..i don wish sae lorz..if u noe means u noe..sae le wil happy mehz..then father cycle mi go interchange wif class shirt..mi veir light ma..then shirts heavy..not balanced..so dad cycle till bicycle oso peng..on road lorz...wa...lyk bout bit u all wont see mi anymore...or wont see mi todae..lucky dad pulled mi away frm incoming car...then met leslie..he helped mi take shirts lorz..yj sae take taxi go..so we took lorz..then went sch..veri early..nice lorz..mr kong not even dere sia..then lehz..ppl all excited bout class shirt..then got ppl no happy wif black design i tink..tink oni la..budden lehz..tt design colour is not mi tink nia..is majority lorz..but veri nice shirt..then after tt our class signed up for hooby day..mi..rp..steph..mela signed up for bowling..lol...i donno how bowl de..so muz learnt..then lehz..i stood at table nearest to sec4..saw ssy tt time i shouted sim siew yong..stupid lehz..then he learnt..lyk ps liddat..then kent saw mi..sae hi to mi..then lehz..ask mi wad we doing..haha..sec4 xian mu us ar...then saw lots of seniors..tok lots of craps..now lyk cheer up abit..at least can laugh..then lehz..after tt saw rong wif kevin and gela coming sch..then end registration..went back class..then took back resutls..done quite well..but jus not happy..veir sad..and moody..put my head on table tt time..i dropped my tears..i donno wad happen..oso don wan tink..jus liddat mi pretend to slp..so far got back 5 subjects..i counted overall..though may wrong but shld be 3As..2 Bs ba..haiz..then lehz..asked ppl shld go np not..not i wan pon..is lyk reali no mood..go dere lata tis one scold scold..then wan nag nag..more fan..i promise other days mi sure go..k...then went bp wif rp...fifi..yj..yj noticed my mood..then console mi..but she don reali noe e real plms..thanks yj so much..in library..she was the one hu made mi smile and laugh..feeling better..thanks..then while in class..we decorate class shirt..every1 drew till siao..i included my family in sch..Ldd..and np buds..haha..went bp after eating we change to class shirt..felt a bit big..or veri big..tml we changing class room..2/5 go 4/5 classroom..why 4/5 can go another one not..but nvm la..tml 4/8 practical for o level..best wishes and good luck to u...last lehz..mi now wan lac and lac..stay calm..don wan tink so much..hope for the best ba..and mi wan noe ending to story too..then evening rainig..my dad sae mom fell down while cycling..haven see her yet..tink she ok ba..careful la..ytd told rong i got bad feeling smth bad will happen to mi..and it happened..so accurate..but y mi wan tis don haf huh...aiya nvm...is fate lorz..leave to next time or after my np promotion tests then tink..now i wan relaxed....bye..go watch tv le la...

mian qiang shi mei xin fu de...

2004-10-19T06:16:00.000-07:00

haha...todae lehz...sae happy oso not veri happy..sae sad oso don sad...ave...lolx...todae forum whole day..beri sian...then mi kena call b mr chua go count marks 4 him..so pull mela in too..wa..veri funni...we there kip blaming mr chua lorz..then tok lots of craps..veri fun..then went ajisen..wif mela..meiyu...wa...eat lo..but i eat little full le..no mood eat lehz..so mela go buy clothes..bought 2...at yellow..love the sales girls attitude..veri outgoing..and friendly..we chat for a long time..meiyu ask mi buy earrings..dangling de..then lehz..wan mi buy bear de..coz veri cute..but no buy..i lyk tt earrin lo..butlehz..fri ms choo sae cant wear..buy oso no use..so next time ba..then went take neoprint...veri nice...got style de...lolx..then went home tt time..saw my dad..so went home wif him...bathe le go burst pimples..lol.i don wan eat dinner..rong sae muz eat...kip persuade mi..so i gif face..sae okie lo..but hor..mi nv...shhh..haha...lame..todae veri lame sia..then at nitez...more craps..then gif weiting lots of advice on smth...lolx...she listen to some..haha..lyk happy succeeding..mi siao le..then lehz..mi ask rong go to antarctica and nv ever back...then frm there develop movie..is called...wu ren ke zhi de jie ju...ending lehz..muz stay tune..lolx..is bout a story of 4 gals and 1 boy..cant elaborate..coz later everyting ppl noe..heez..but veri lame de..got two possible ending..tts wad the actor sae...one is tt guy leave and nv came back..second is..boy turn..girls stare at boy.then ran 2wards each other and hug..then sae softly wo ai ni..then gifsoft kiss...is veri er xin..i can under..but tts wad the actor sae..and got one ending..nobodi noe..till the day the guy make tt decision between 4 gals...wa..love story...and the gals rejected may commit sucide..is in e process of filming..lolx..bth liao..so damn lame...lox...haha..then lehz..tok bout other craps..tooo much le..then read wt blg..learnt smth..if smth belongg to u..it will stay by ur side..without even fighting 4 it..ru guo shi main qiang de..shi zhong ye hui zou le...lolx...under..language sort of haywire..todae tok to mani ppl..chat wif josiah too.manyteachers sae he veri nice guy..but he sae he does not tink tt..he sae teachers don lyk him..lolx..wa..head prefect funni guy sia..haha..wa..mi type til neck pain le lehz..don wan type le..aniwae...our class given the honour to be in charge of registration 4 sec2 hobbyday..woo...nice man..tml take class shirt..early early go sch..sian..haha..then mr kong todae sae smth wrong and every1 laughed..but he did not noe wad he sae wrong..he sae tt most talented ppl in sec 2 is found in sec2..when it shld be..most talented ppl in sch is found in sec2..haha..sec2 oni level got ccks idiol...lyk so proud sia..lolx..boliao man..so tokcrap.gtg le....mi now neck pain...

y are parents sometimes os unreasonable..

2004-10-17T07:29:00.000-07:00

wa..todae lehz..started the dae fine..budden..in afternoon..when mi need use toilet..my dad and mom using..urgent lo...but lucky managed..aunt called sae cousin's daughter at her hse..asked mi go ma..then i wan see baby..so went lo...with my sis la..i reali did told my mom i going wif my sis..she said i nv..then tio scold...veri unreasonable..mi sick and tired of explaining to them liao...don even wan care...then on way out...mr chua called mi..sae wad asked mi buy materials 4 making kite..ttml movie day cancel..sian diao...at same time mom called...then could not get thru..tio scold again lo..sae wad mi don wan picked up...wa..don bother to explain liao..fed up lo..then went aunt hse...then go bp met mela..randy..qiu liang...jojo..find tt stoopid material...cannot find lo..mela sae heck him..so i heck..went meiyu house..alot tings happen..but sae exciting de..we all drank donno wad...strawberry favour de..got 3.9 alcohol..qiuliang..and meiyu..drank till face red...then mela and they all veri hot..coz drank alcohol ma..i oso drank..lesser than them...but hor..mi weak...my eyes lyk start become blur liao..then all lyk siao siao le...then we went down..play waterbomb...wa...tt damn jovan...kip aim mi de lo...tml u noe ar..lolx..then vincent poured two big pails on mi...i veri cold..shivering lo...then they there played games..mi and stepf no play..coz i cant see...no spects ma...so heck lo...went makan..tok tok wif steph..then we played smth..donno how sae..lol..guess e no de game..mi noe the name..donno han yu pin yin..then no. all nice..1st is 51..coz meiyu sure noe 51 de..then 22...mela kena..then lehz...11...vincent kena..serve him rite...bully mi la..then sang bday song..we sang happi birthday to jia wei..lolx...meiyu ma...then mi..steph..mela..went pulled jojo short...loose ma..then everyting saw..lolx..er xin...wa..then i rushed home..mr chua called..then i tio scold..sae why mi nv inform him..mi got inform ma..i told him rong helped mi find..then told him later..played till 4get..cant blame...so my fault la..so listened to him lecture mi lo..then lehz..i rushed to lot one..managed to buy tracing paper..but no find sticks 4 kite..my body and clothes completely wet..mi nv go changed ma..then went inside air con place..veri cold lo..tok oso shiver...haiz..then asked my mom got hardware shop uncle the phone no...i tio scold again..she sae all stoopid ting..i bth hung fone lo..not my fault lo..don always scold scold mi can or not..damn fed up..went home she nag nag again..haiz..lucky now slept laio..peace..lol..mi so bad sia..then want rong sae bedtime story..but he sae he cant le..coz got to do corrections..so mi let him off..got to wait 4 tml liao..aiya..mi better go find my spect..coz is missing..cham liao...

wad a tricky ting...

2004-10-16T07:49:00.000-07:00

mi todae lehz...7.45 wait tt kor up...lolx..coz ytd he veri late slp ma...then i went back to slp till 12...lazy pig hor..i veri tired ma...then promise mom to do housework...so i ate my lunch and breakfast...then sweep the floor...and mop..therefore nv washed dishes ma..so when my dad came home..i tio scold..he scold and scold..i bth...not mi lazy..i busy mopping ma..cant blame mi one wad...then mi do mani tings at one time..while mopping...i msg ppl...mopping oso can wash dishes..wa...finished liao so happy...then afternoon went to IMM..shop shop lo..but no mood..i tinking bout alot of tings...so mani tings went thru my mind...ytd tell someone my feeling liao..wa...veri relaxed liao..budden veri fan...i tink bout countless ting..wad shld i do and react to tt ting...haiz..budden lehz..lyk still quite happy now la..came home msn..then ms teo and sandy send mi file..is virus..i tio trick..mi go open..then the file sent to every1...wa..mi tio scold lo..appologise to rong so mani times..then in e end he sae..i tink i nv receive the file..wa...i lyk sae 4 nth..so later sure going scold him de...lolx..ms teo sae she did not noe she send mi tt file..so i nv blame her..lucky virus oni hang the com..so scan the com liao..shld be alright le la...ytd lehz..tok to someone 4 so long..then mi under alot tings...lolx..budden lehz...aiya..bu zhi dao ru he shi hao...suo yi jiu suan le ba...tink so much still e same..so y go tink..tt lyk person sae..let nature takes its course...lol...

yeah...hoorayy!!!!!

2004-10-14T07:17:00.000-07:00

woosh...todae last paper...geo...yeah...exams over le...finally...wa..lyk so happy...after sch we went watched movie at orchard...lolx...horror one...veri veri scary..ppl there shout and scream...i 4get the name of it again...donno wad boi....heez...short term memo ma...orchard hor..got veri strange ppl lehz...got veri tall one..mi thought is statue..then got veri white one...oso got chicken...haha....wa....sian...exams over...mi getting more stress...not bout results...but others tings...suddenly don feel lyk going np...lyk hate it now...can don take promotion test or not..i veri stressed..wan veri depressed le la...b4 exams so mani xin shi and fan nao...i sae leave till exams finish then settle...now..over le...haiz...plms arise liao...haiz..haiz...how nice everydae exams..then mi wont tink so much le ma..haha..now lehz...wan find out who is is tt eagle..don let mi noe u...if not u die...tt person..veri coward..dare send mi email..don dare sae identity...haiz..nvm...now i oso don care bout tt mail...now lehz..i shld solve wad 1st...of coz is currrent and most impt ting la...is to....donno lehz...friendship lyk got plms here and there...fan u noe...haiz...lucky got premy de tip...so shld be alright le ba...of coz is solve the plms now..class shirt..yeah..tues got class shirt liao..happy man..i miss him alot...haiz..nv see him lehz..but these days study till 4get bout him..haha..then lehz...aiya..still got..NP agian la..my energy course project...haven do...argh..die die...tml muz hand in lorz..cham le..todae nv do...don need slp liao lo...better sign off go do...haha........

haiz...

2004-10-08T06:42:00.000-07:00

wa..todae after paper so happy de....lolx..go bp heard rp they all see birdie...then wad her frenz scold them....lolx...aiya..don tok bout tis le la..i go home..then my stooopid sis..go use the donno wad scare mi...near my ear..now mi cant hear properly..reali lo..cham liao..then my mom scold her lo...beat her too..wa..i so worried bout my ear till cry..now okie liao..then go slp...wait up eat dinner...budden...after ttt...my sis kajiao again..sae wad wan eat fish and chip..ask mi call mommy..then i call..but nobodi pick up ma...realilo..she don believe..keep nag and nag...bth go tell my dad..my uncle oso at my hse la...then my dad go push my sus head for 2 times..then pull her hair...pain till my sis cry..then grab so tgiht..so i shout at my dad...sae he siao issit...then go beat his hand..ask him release...i oso donno y i liddat...lyk siao liddat..haiz..veri sad la...then keep tink bout smth..wan find ppl tok oso cant...i veri fan...the more i tok to tt person..the more i tink bout smth..haiz...i reali donno mi y tink liddat..mayb is a wrong ba...coz i mean..simply...no chance de lo...aiya...don wan tok bout it le...exam 1st..finish le..then tink how lo...all the other person fault la...chim...ppl see oso don understand...so don wanna sae laio la...at least i fell better now...

humid day...

2004-10-05T08:28:00.000-07:00

wa..todae veri hot..mi bth lehz...wan air con room...lolx...went visit my ah ma todae...she okie le..but looked veri pale...cher nv gif mi my his notes...so cant study his lo...went home go msn...but then internet got plm...tio dc...try for half an hour lo..sian..then got unknow ppl add mi..wad falconssy@hotmail.com....again ssy..hu lai de...mi long long time no check mail lel lehz..lazy sia..no plan to check..hehe...lolx.wa..now oso hot..bth sia....todae so happi..walked past sec4..happi not coz can see them..is hor..my frenz get excited ma...hehe...wa..class shirts ar...can be more united not...fifi do so hard lo...appreciate ma....if liddat how make...tis 1 don lyk tt 1 don lyk...but nvmla...tml then settle...haven check price..coz cousins not at home...mi don haf his hp no....ps ar...try get it done asap..exams coming liao...study study ans study..got white hair le..but after exams..PLAY!!!..hehe...okla...wanna 12 liao..better go slp..if not mummy scold mi..haha...ZzZZZzzZZ

2004-10-02T09:38:00.000-07:00

tatty..